You're talking behind my back, that's so high school..

Here's the thing okay people, I'm not trying to be rude but some people are just so childish.. If you've got something to say about me, the best person to discuss me with is well, ME! I'm sure you don't like people to talk about you behind your back, well so do i! I may not care but when you start spreading rumors about me to turn my friends away from me, that's just low-life.. "You're just pathetic bitch, get a life!"

If you're not happy with me about something, say it to my face.. Before you spread those lies, talk to me and not just tell me what's going on only after I've confronted you about it.. I don't care if you people hate, despise me but when it comes to talking ABOUT me, just be an adult and not be a bitch about it..

Here's the thing, I've heard that David's girlfriend, Bitch, have been talking crap about me.. I don't know what's her problem is, I've never talked to her, AT ALL! Never even said hi, just an acknowledging smile that's all.. I don't know anything about her and she don't know anything about me.. To tell everyone that you hated me and you think I'm dirrty is just so childish.. "What is wrong with you, seriously? You've got some psychoneurosis condition or something? I don't care if you hate me cause i kinda dislike you too but to talk about my sex life is totally uncalled for!" 

What i do with Alex, or any other guys for that matter, is none of people's business.. We don't go directly infront of other people's faces to do that, it's behind closed doors.. The thing is, I've never once hit on David.. He's a gorgeous guy but he's not my type.. For her to feel insecure about that is stupid.. She's a beautiful girl, no doubt about that but with that stupid attitude of hers, even the most ugliest girl is so much more prettier than her.. "Well Bitch, you want rumors.. Here's one, i heard you've got some kind of hygiene problem.. Oh it's true, I've heard it from someone.. Hey, maybe that's the reason why David haven't been wanting to have sex with you.. Isn't that fun?"

Okay, seriously i don't care about the rumors cause my friends knows me and they know not to believe in it but the thing that peeved me most is that when i confront her about it, she just wouldn't admit.. She say she heard it from someone, kinda pathetic don't you think so.. "Hey Bitch, I've heard alot of stuffs about you too, and whichever is true or not only you know, but the thing is i don't go around spreading what I've heard.. You're 22 and supposed to be more mature then i am.. All i wanna ask you right now is this, 'What have you got to gain with all these bullshits you're doing?' If it's attention you want, this is not the way.."

I know David is feeling the tension whenever we hang out cause he'll bring his girlfriend along.. He told me he felt guilty about it.. "David, you don't have to feel guilty cause it's not at all your fault.. Yah, she's your girlfriend but i can understand if you can't control her.. I love you David, you know i do but your girlfriend is a whore!"

I'm not gonna pretend as if i like her and be friends with her, I'm not gonna do that.. She's lucky that this is all i did.. If one more time she steps on my tail, I'm not gonna be sorry if i did something to her.. Whatever, I'm not gonna sink myself to her level cause she's just so low.. "See ya Bitch!"

Santa can you hear me, i have been so good this year..

Dear Santa,

   I hope it is not too late for me to send this letter. I have been a really good girl this year so you better give me what i want.

  Well anywayz, i saw you at Northpoint earlier this week and i wanted to go over to sit on your lap to tell you my wish list but Violet refused to let me say HI.. Tee hee, though i hope this letter will reach you before the eve of Christmas.
   

  Hmmz, let's make this wish list short.. I've got to have my new year's kiss this year. I've gone 2 years without a kiss from my dream man, how pathetic can that be!? Well, with that in mind.. All i want is one thing.. 'SIR KILLSALOT' Just one guy that can sweep me off my feet.. Instead of coming in on a white horse and a shining armour, i want my gothic dream guy to be in a fireman suit driving a metallic black Lamborghini Gallardo with red leather interior! That's not much at all izzit Santa, in comparison to the hundred million undeserving children that you give stupid presents to..

  This isn't just any Christmas list Santa.. You can't say I'm selfish cause i do think about other people too.. You see, a few days back i have just turned 20.. Of course i ain't complaining cause I've got to celebrate my birthday twice this year.. Oh by the way, i also would like you to give a thank you card to everybody who wished me on my special day! Give a big wet kiss to Mikael cause he remembered my birthday too, which i think is pretty sweet!

  Like i said, I'm grateful that i get to celebrate my birthday twice this year.. Once on the 10th December, with Lisa and second on my special day itself, 14th December.. It's kinda sweet for my family to do that cause i didn't get to celebrate it last year.. Tee hee, Uncle Jimmy said he wanna buy me a guitar so he can teach me.. I've always wanted to learn how to play the guitar but I've been too busy with school and i don't think I'm musically talented so i need a longer time to learn.. Yeah i did learn it last time but i didn't practice and i very much refuse to cut my fingernails.. I know i know, if i wanna do something, i should put my heart and soul into it.. Yes Santa, i promise i will do what i have to do..

   I promised to make this letter short, so i guess I'll end it here.. Don't forget Santa baby, i want my Sir Killsalot this Christmas.. Oh before i forget, my home doesn't have a chimney, so I'll leave my doors unlock for my presents to be delivered to me.. Also, don't forget the big red bow on my Sir Killsalot, he's gonna look yummy.. I don't have a Christmas tree so you can leave him under my bed..

Yes Santa honey, I'll leave a glass of milk and a plate of Famous Amos cookies beside the window so you can help yourself to them. Love you Santa..

Cookies and milk,
Arynne

Thousands of flowers exploded into butterflies..

Thursdays are gonna be much more fun! With Criss Angel at 8pm and Michael Scofield at 10pm?? Haha hot guys overdrive! *Slurps* The two guys i so wanna fuck but of course this can only happen in my dreams.. So i cherish my sleeping time alot! Haha, i sound like a pervert, don't i?
Haha, this is so fun right! Criss Angel.. Who doesn't like Criss Angel!? Oh yah, Violet don't.. Haha, but whatever.. "Criss Angel or Wentworth Miller, if you're reading this.. Drop me a line k, gorgeous! Haha.. Get a life Arynne!"

I start school at 1 today and i don't feel like going at all just now cause it was raining so heavily.. Like fucking cats and dogs.. Why izzit called raining cats and dogs anyway and not cats and mice or dogs and bones? Haa, okay if anybody can answer me that, leave me a comment k! Haha.. Yeah anyway, i don't feel like going but i have to as it's my term test next week and I'm sure the lecturers will give us tips!
Another reason why i wanna go to school is because i wanna see that guy in my Math lecture.. Should give him a name, let's name him Conner.. Haha, sucky name i know but i don't wanna spend too much time thinking of a name.. I was basically feeling bored the whole day.. Tired and basically mentally exhausted when i heard the lecture theater door opened.. Okay honestly, in my heart i was wishing it was Conner and it was! Haha, suddenly i smiled.. Luckily nobody saw it or people might think I'm crazy! It's hard to find me smiling but when i do, i can't stop! Haha, he was wearing a long sleeved black shirt with blue jeans and white based shoes.. Metal-rimmed specs and spiky hair.. Haha, damn! I'm describing him in my blog, just hope that he won't accidentally come across my profile and read this.. Haha, but at last! Mages is convinced that he's a freaking Malay! Yeah enough about him.. Haha..

I finished school at 4 today so i met up with Alyssa and some of the girls.. Went to Long John to eat and then just walk around Tampines Mall for a while.. Just chilling and the other girls have to go so just left Alyssa and me.. We're like two drunk girls walking in that Tampines Interchange, laughing non-stop.. Kinda weird how we both make each other so happy..
After that, i wanna go home cause tomorrow i got school and Alyssa has to work tonight.. The queue for the bus is super long so we decided to cheat.. Haha, we saw this group of guys in the queue and we just went in their line and start talking and stuff..We don't even know them but we talked as if we known each other since babies.. The guys don't seem to mind though and when the bus came, they let us go first so it's like their behind us now.. "Haha, thanks you guys!"

Ha, my mom told me that if i wanna find a husband, make sure he can support me and show me to the right path.. I told her that i don't wanna get married and she kinda approved of it.. Then i told her i don't mind co-cohabiting and have kids but i don't wanna get married, then she gets all naggy and thinks that I'm crazy.. Haha.. To me, being married is just a reason for guys to have an excuse in exploiting and be possessive to us women! I don't like being controlled, especially being tied down like that..
I told Ryan about it, and surprisingly he supports my idea.. I think he's just being nice and trying to get into my good books.. "You don't need to do that Ryan, you're already in it.. " I know he wanna settle down and stuff but i told him that he's too young, he's only 22 but he's already talking about marriage.. Alyssa told me that he's hinting to me.. I know that, i like having his attention on me 24/7.. Haha, Ryan knows that i wanna give him a shot on the relationship but he also knows that my studies are very important to me.. So we kinda have this unspoken bond thingy going on..

Oh well, one day maybe I'll be able to accept him openly.. For now, studies come first.. "Love ya Ryan!"

I've got a crush on you..

Ha, i can't wait for Math lecture tomorrow.. Well, i have a crush on this guy in my math lecture.. No, not from my class or my other Mechatronics classes cause if he is, i will know.. Haha, just hope he come tomorrow so i can have a feast for my eyes.. Haha..
Was having a slight disagreement with a lecture mate of mine about this guy.. I said he's Malay and Mages (my lecture mate) insisted that he's Chinese.. We were having this stupid argument while listening to our math lecturer explaining LaPlace Inverse.. Sucks i know, luckily i can multi-task.. Well, before the argument get bigger i seek a view from another lecture mate of mine, Winnie.. Haha, Winnie also said he's Chinese but i still say he's Malay.. Yah, he looks Chinese but there's just something in his eyes that makes me stick to my judgment about him being Malay.. The conversation continued for a few minutes when Winnie got fed up.. "Go ask lah, easier! Go talk to him.." Haha, she make sense but no way am i gonna do that.. Haha, i don't even know him.. I just can't go up to him and say "Hey, my friends and i are having a slight argument about this certain topic, we were wondering if we can have your thoughts about it.. well, are you Malay or Chinese?" Kinda stoopid right! Haha of course i was admiring him from afar.. Whenever he walks through that lecture theater door, I'll be all smiles suddenly.. I will tell Mages about it and she'll look directly at him! "Can you be more obvious, Mages!? So embarrassing!!" Well anyway, it doesn't matter.. Haha, my crushes always lasted for less than a week.. My crush will only surface when i see that person.. Kinda weird how it works.. Well, enough about him..

I'm gonna be 20 soon! Oh my goodness, who would have though my teenage years will be over so soon! Tsk tsk, i feel so old.. My friendster contact list is full of youngsters.. Ranges from 15-19! Haha, I'm chatting to two 17 year old emo boys right now and haha, it makes me look older, naturally! But they're cool though.. Very fun to chat with..
Well yeah, i wish i could turn back time and go back to 16 years old.. I'm not even 20 yet but i already miss being a teenager! I don't think I'm gonna celebrate my birthday though cause I'm having Programmable Automation term test on that day, fucking fucked up schedule! "Why!! Why on my birthday!!!"
Anyway, it's kind weird to think that some people think I'm 15 or 16! Haha.. I don't look THAT young, do i? Well, Zacky told me that it's better to look younger.. I guess he's right.. Haha wee! I look young.. "Okay stop it Arynne!"

Didn't go for Sociology tutorial today.. Kinda busy with Machining Technology CAD assignment.. Has to be passed up by today, the teacher was also very fussy.. Even rejected the assignment when one dimension was out of line, so we have to redo it all over again.. GRR!!
Met up with Ryan just now cause he wanna send me home.. I agreed cause it's been such a long time since we hung out.. Went for a walk first and bumped into some of my friendster mates.. It's funny that they can recognize me outside.. "Haha, sorry you guys.. It's not that I'm arrogant or what but i can't remember faces from pictures, unless i met you once before.." Haha, here's the thing, when i walk i just look straight.. I don't take notice of my surroundings.. So even if you walked pass beside me and never say hi, most probably i never saw you! Yah.. And i look fierce cause i don't smile.. "Haha yah i know.. I've got emo hair.." My hair was so limp just now, irritating! "Oh, and no guys.. Ryan is not my boyfriend.. Yah i know, he looks so sombong right.. He don't know you guys that's why he never talk.. Don't let his tattoos scare you, he's actually a nice guy.."

"Okay people, the next time you see me outside.. Say hi to me first cause higher chances that i didn't notice you! For those who have my number just gimme a ring just incase i walked pass you.."

I look like a boy..

Just to let everyone know that I'm now updating my blog without the light and the fan on.. Total darkness.. I don't mind the darkness at all really, just the stuffiness! I need the fan! Haha, luckily it's raining so the weather ain't that hot.. Wanna know what happened? I don't even know.. My mom was mopping the floor when she wanna turn on the fan to let the floor dry faster, when suddenly the electricity got cut off.. She blew the fuse! But never mind about that, after she turned on the main switch from the power box everything was fine or so i thought..

The weird thing is, when i get home.. I can't turn on the lights and the fan in the living room.. The lights in the kitchen and of course the bathroom also can't be turned on.. So freaky, but the electricity in my room is fine.. The television and my laptop also can be turned on.. Hmmz, i wonder why.. Haha, i guess this is where my study in mechatronics comes in.. Where is Michael Scofield when we need him! Okay sorry, out of context..

My term test is coming next week and I've been preparing for it.. I can't understand Microcontroller Technology though.. I think i should really ace the project just in case i screw up the written paper.. I'm not really worried about Engineering Mathematics 3 though cause i like math and it's easy for me to understand it.. Principles of Dynamic, well it's a half-half thingy cause it's only 2 chapters and i can easily understand the basic and Chapter 14 is pretty easy.. Oh well, we'll see how it goes.. Haha exams always makes me so nervous..

Oh! Haha, i just found out that there's a cute goth guy living on my block.. Not my floor though, damn! Wasted man! Haha.. Anyway, i was waiting for the lift to come so i was looking at my reflection on the lift door's glass when the lift door open.. Woo! Our eyes met and he smiled.. I think i was blushing cause my face feels hot.. Today of all days! I was wearing like a boy! I was wearing Alex's Macbeth shirt with my straight cut pants and Converse shoes, and Alex's sling bag.. Well, to make thing worse i was wearing a cap with my hair all bundled up inside it with my fringe hanging loose.. The eyeliner doesn't help either in identifying that I'm a girl cause guys now wear eyeliner too.. Black painted nails and all those bracelets.. I look like a typical emo GUY! Emphasizing on the guy.. Haha.. Whatever you know.. I'm so over guys..

School start late for me today so i decided to hang out with Alex and David.. They're being very suspiciously close now, with all those whispers and stuffs.. It's damn easy to mistake them for gays.. BUT! I can assure you they're not cause David already have a girlfriend, a gorgeous one at that! Alex is a great lover and he gets so turned on by girls so, yeah he's not gay! Bisexuals maybe? I don't care cause they're pretty hot..
Did nothing today though, been camwhoring with the other two dudes.. Haha, took pictures of me kissing Alex and damn do i look like a boy or what!! Sheesh man, I'm not gonna wear a cap ever again.. Missed hanging out with them cause I've been very busy with school and today was fun.. Adam, Justin and Alyssa wasn't there but it's okay.. Just being with Alex and David is like having a kid in a room full of candy! Yah, they make me high somehow.. Haha emo guys are fun to be with so don't judge them as being too sensitive.. They're caring and sweet-natured people.. It's true!!

Anyway, there's this guy in my Friendster list.. Haha he's so far my favourite guy right now.. He's the only guy who openly admits that he liked bisexual guys.. Send me all this emo guy-on-guy action pictures.. Loves it! Haha, i told him being bisexual is fun and now he's thinking of trying it for himself.. "You know who you are.. Haha, I'm not trying to corrupt you but just keep an open mind.. You're still young, why just stick to one gender when you can explore both!"
Spent the whole night talking to him about all this emo gays.. Haha, he's been a great friend by helping me find emo boys to become my victims.. Haha, but he keep picking young boys.. 16-18.. Too young for me! Haha i don't wanna be labeled as some kind of pervert who preys on young kids.. Haha, but one kid caught my eye though, i can't remember his Friendster's screen name but he's a pretty boy.. Hot emo guy.. Haha whatever..

Can't live with them, can't live without them..

Yeah babes, I'm talking about boys.. Isn't it funny that some girls fight about or over them? I mean, if they're worth it then by all means but if they're like the type of guys where you can find with just a click of a finger then get fucking over it.. They're just guys, don't make it obvious that you're so into them.. Some guys get so big-headed when girls do that.. So girls, don't.. Seriously, DON'T lose your morals for some guy.. It's not worth it..

"They should make boyfriend stealing illegal," some girl said.. Here's the thing, i don't necessarily agree with the sentence but of course, there's an 'unspoken girls' rule' about you stealing your bestfriend's boyfriend.. Some girls get so freaked when other girls talk to their boyfriend.. I mean, chill girl.. It's just talking, you know? Don't get all psycho and all.. See, that's the reason why guys leave you for other girls.. Don't get too obsessive or possessive, it's just not a turn on trait for girls..

Some girls go around telling people which guy they have a crush on just so other girls won't go for the same guy as them, which i think is pretty pathetic.. It's like so what if you like that guy, that doesn't necessarily mean that that guy likes you back, get a life girls.. I don't know, i just think that it's pretty weird for girls to act like that.. "I dated him during our primary school days, so you're not allowed to touch him." You know, something like that?? That's EXACTLY how it is..

It's just frustrating to know that girls are fighting amongst ourselves just because of guys.. Here's the thing girls, the next time another girl compliment or hits on your guy, just say 'Thanx'.. Take it as a compliment when other girls show interest on your man, it shows that you have great taste.. It's like killing two birds with one stone.. Showing your man that you have self-confidence and showing the other girl that you are not at all threatened by her presence..