One resolution at a time.

Three years ago, i made a resolution. It was to save the world. 


Yeap, as cliche as it sounds, i am one of those people who believes that i can change the world. Come to think of it, i have no qualms in being a 'Vigilante'. Yeah, i know it's illegal and all that crap but it's not an offence if i don't get caught. 


Haha, nah i'm just kidding. 


So, yeah, back to my 3 year old resolution, Saving the world. 


I realized i can't save the world. Why? I don't have accomplice like Elle from Criminal Minds and Dexter Morgan from Dexter. Haha, i'm just kidding. I have a list of people i wanna behead but i'm thinking, let them go through life, it's so much torturous than anything in the world.


What the hell am i babbling about?


Yes, saving the world. Ahh, the sweet smell of blood of the perpetrator trickling down to the floor. Okay yeah, i'm getting weird. 


Anyways, i think that saving the world might be too big of an ambition for me. So i decided to help one person at a time. Starting with me.


I feel like to help people, we need to help ourselves first. If we are able to discipline ourselves and get our minds to do what we set out to do, then there's no barriers we can't go through. 


So after that, i'm thinking of adopting a child from a country stricken with poverty. Once again, it's too much to grasp when i'm even trying to live day to day with my measly salary. So i let that one go.


A few weeks ago while blogging about my new year's resolution, i was reminded of my resolution three years ago. And i start looking into 'Child Sponsoring'. 


I tried asking everyone i know that would know about this, and i get the most information from Rin. So thank you babe for helping me with this resolution of mine. 


Rin told me that World Vision do child sponsorships so i went to take a look. I knew about World Vision but i didn't think so much about it since i wasn't working the past year. And this year, since i am working, i guess it's high time i start on it.


So bascially, i'm sponsoring a 7 year old girl from Myanmar. I shall call her KK, since i'm not allowed to expose her identity. Must be because they're all underaged. But when i first see her profile, i felt a bond with her. A connection.


I don't know. Probably it's because i like kids. And kids in poor countries always have a place in my heart. 


Okay, my reason in not sponsoring a child in Singapore is because i feel that Singaporeans are too blessed. No matter which social class you are in, you can always survive in Singapore. Other than that, we have tons of charity organisations in Singapore and they're all more than willing to help. 


But to sponsor a child in Singapore, to me, is irrelevant. If you can survive living in Singapore, you don't need sponsorships. 


So, yes, that's my reason in sponsoring someone outside of Singapore. Cause they don't have the same privileges as us Singaporeans have.


We have clean water, we have very helpful people, we have houses to live in. Clothes to wear and we have access to the best education and health care services in Singapore.


I don't know, though, cause this is my opinion. You might not agree with it but i feel like my money is more useful for people outside of Singapore. It's a choice i feel is good for me.


So yeah, basically thats it. I know it's a short post but i did promise to blog about my decision to sponsor a child. 


Hey, maybe when i get more financially stable, i might to sponsor another one! This time, in Africa. 

To Phil.

BABY, I MISS YOU!

Love is

Before i go, i'll leave you with a quote from Love Phrase (an application on Facebook)


´Love is when you can´t be apart from someone for too long...you´re always thinking of them, and when you´re with them you never want to say goodbye. Love is far from simple. It´s quite complex. It´s a mix of about everything. It´s sadness, joy, passion, hatred, excitement, it´s almost every feeling you can imagine and more. You know love when you find it, it´s that person that when they smile it brightens up your day, you can´t stop staring at them for fear of losing them, they´re always on your mind, you daydream of being with them, even if they´re less than 20 feet away...and you can´t stand it when they´re not with you, the worst feeling you could ever feel is when you know that person you love is not with you...you can´t tell when love will happen, you just know when it does, that moment when you first lay eyes on that person, and you never want to look away...that is love. Nothing less.´

Announcement

WILL RESUME BLOGGING ONCE I'M IN TUNE WITH MY ISMS ONCE AGAIN. 


Haha, but bear with me people. I might be grumpy for the next week or so. Have to finish up all backlogs. And audit is on February. 


*DIES*

It's such a shame, we're worlds apart

It's the second week of 2010 and yeap, i still haven't got a resolution yet. 

Wow, what can i say about my 2010. Second week and it's already so hectic. Seriously, i've never had so much emotional roller coaster rides in my whole entire life as much as these two weeks. 

I'm not gonna bring in that concerns of mine in here cause it really only concerns the people involved. And to them, i just wanna say that i hope they see the situation as how i see it. Right now, they're blowing everything out of proportion and they've overstretched the situation to a different thing altogether. 

Anyways, i haven't found my resolution yet. Three years ago, i said i don't wanna make anymore resolutions cause it's just a waste of time. People will follow through their resolutions for the first three months, and then they'll gradually let it go. 

Why? I don't know. Maybe we human are lazy, making time our excuse not to do things. Time is short, yes i agree, but if we know how to fully utilize time, then i don't see the problem.

Instead, i'm gonna make short term goals. Well, it really mean the same thing but i guess it just how the mind works. You tend to strive harder for your goals. 

Yeah, i'm starting not to make sense, so lets start.

Mostly, i just wanna lose some weight, and i think it's plausible cause commitment with the girls every Wednesdays. Hopefully we all pull through. Alternating between swimming and the gym, though i am not gonna reveal which swimming pool or gym we're frequenting just incase i have another stalker.


No, i'm not shy or embarrassed to tell you people that i'm going to the gym to lose weight. Why should i feel embarrassed? Atleast i am isolating the problem and coming up with a solution for it. Judge me if you want, but atleast i'm doing something about it. Unlike you lots. Tsk tsk


Secondly, i wanna travel more. New Zealand in April, trip with the cliques in July. Baby is already planning next year's trip to Australia. Hehe, yeap, he's already thinking that far and i love it! Tee hee, thank you Baby for giving in to me for the Australia trip. He actually wanna go to a country in Europe but quite honestly, i would be too broke if i went there. So, he's giving me another year to save up for that Europe Escapade!


If all goes well, i'll be jet setting in no time! Yay to Baby, of course. 


Thirdly, i want a change in environment. Lots of change. But this one is not so much of a short term goal. Working hard to get this goal up and running. Hey, maybe i if i like it in New Zealand, who knows. *winks*


K, that's all for today. Abrupt end. Haha, i know how much you readers hate that! 

It's a challenge, but i'll make it.

So i suppose i should blog right. 


The previous post was the first post for the new year and it wasn't a pleasant one. I don't care about what people wanna say about me anymore. I'm happy with my life, my friends, my family and Baby. 


Anyhoo, i gotta push back my February New Zealand trip to April. So many financial priorities this month and next. I didn't foresee this at all. I wish i know all these before making plans with Baby. I know pushing the trip back disappoints Baby so much but i have no choice.


He offered, yes he did. But i can't bring myself to accept his offer. I do care about him and i want him to know that i'm sincere in getting to know him. To show this sincerity, i'd rather save up for my own trip then saying yes to his offer.


I'm not rejecting him, for sure. I just don't want to let the others have a chance to say that i'm only after him for his money. I know there are people who think that way.


Typical, isn't it? 


By the way, just to please everyone. When i first get to know Phil, he was still in UniTech and i didn't know he had a farm. Well he still don't, the farm belongs to his father, i think? Or grandfather? Haha, shall ask him again okay.


But my point is this, if i am after his money, i wouldn't waste hundreds of dollars just to send him and his family Christmas gifts. 


Anyway, enough trying to explain myself. I don't owe you guys any explanation anyway.


So yeah, Mummy's a little annoying. She said she wanna follow me to New Zealand, so i told her if she wanna go, she can pay for the trip herself. She just went berserk and accused me of not wanting to come back to Singapore once i'm there.


Paranoid, much?


Jeesh Mummy, i don't have a house in New Zealand. I don't have a job and definitely no money in New Zealand, how can i survive?


Either way, i'm still going. Even if it takes me a lifetime! Haha, okay exaggeration, sorry!


Work have been busy and everything's just a mess at my work station. No motivation to go to work, really. That place is like a gas chamber, slowly sucking the life out of you. But oh well, until a better offer comes, i'm pulling through it one day at a time.


Commitment with the girls every Wednesday. Alternating between swimming and gym. Oh how i love my girls. 


Anyone or any organisation wanna sponsor my trip to New Zealand to meet my love? Hehe. Donations are welcome too. Haha, just kidding.


So many hurdles to go through. I'm gonna keep holding on for me, for Baby, for us.

I have a boyfriend and i'm not interested in yours.

I find it awfully disgusting that someone who knows i'm so much into Phil is accusing me of being too close to her boyfriend.


Okay, she didn't really accused me, but she told my boyfriend that she feels her boyfriend is being too close to me. 


Honestly, if i were her, i wouldn't accuse me. Why? Cause I'm 23, not in New Zealand and i'm way into Phil too much to even have a crush on other guys. Her boyfriend is only 17! So i'm the last person she should suspect her boyfriend have a crush on. 


I don't blame her fully. She's 15, very young and very insecure. But in my opinion, she have no reasons to be suspicious of me. Her boyfriend and i used to be very close cause he tells me about his problems but we haven't talk for weeks. 


And all this sparks out just because he commented on a photo of me on Facebook. 


Seriously, i'm lucky Phil is not the paranoid type (well, not much anyway haha. Kidding Baby). All these accusations will just ruin her relationship and other people's relationships.


I really don't know what to say except that i have a boyfriend, and i'm seriously not interested in yours.


Phil knows i love him and i know Phil loves me, so lets just leave it at that. I don't want people to start accusing me of something i didn't do and then ruin my relationship with Phil.


So guys, if you have a jealous girlfriend, don't talk to me. Girls, if you have boyfriends, who happens to talk to me and a little close to me, don't get jealous. I have a boyfriend whom i love very much. Don't ruin our relationship. 


Thank you.



My gorgeous boyfie. Unless your boyfriend is Zacky Vengeance or Bruce Willis, i will never leave him for your boyfriend. 


P/S: Kidding about the Zacky Vengeance or Bruce Willis comment, Baby. I will never leave you for anything. *smooch*