Update..again.

Reasons for not blogging. 
1) Too tired.
2) Too busy.
3) Too lazy.
4) No gossips!

Hahaha, yeap, pretty much.

Been a week since i came back from New Zealand. Been raining uncontrollably in the evenings here. Hot in the morning, cold in the evening. I can't even sleep naked! Haha, kidding.

Life without Boo is a little hard, especially since we were getting along so well the two weeks i was there. It's okay, we're holding on and working hard to make it work even though it's much harder than we thought. 

Cam date as usual, work as usual. Life still have to go on in our parts of the world, but rest assured, we still have each other in our hearts. And mind.

I'll save up for December. July, well... still pending. I'll only come if Phillip comes to visit. That was the deal in the first place.

Miss you Boo, and still love ya too! *kisses and smooches*

P/S: Pat Bob for me *giggles*

Hmm

Might go back to New Zealand in December, what say you, Boo? *smiles*

...

What am i doing wrong, Boo?

Singapore-Auckland

So, i was back in Singapore last night. Had to sleep early cause we had a charity event organized by the company. So meh.

Can you all believe it? I'm already in Singapore. Two weeks gone so fast. I can still remember the first day i got to Auckland, walking through the arrival door.

My heart was beating so fast. Will he show up? Will he like me? Will he smile at me when he sees me? My stomach was turning. I was nervous to see him.

There he was. Didn't take long to spot him. Hehe, he didn't shave the morning he picked me up but he was very charming, I was on the phone trying to get a hold of Mummy but i gave up.

He walked slowly towards me. I though he was gonna help me with the luggage, but instead he gave me a huge hug in the middle of the arrival hall. 

I was already flustered from being in the baggage claim area, and i must have blushed when he hugged me. I smiled.

We proceeded to  the carpark. All the while he had his arms around my shoulder. It was nice, very nice. Once we were outside, we searched for his car. I was shivering like a little kitty. He kinda forgot where he parked his car. I didn't blame him though, i thought he was just nervous. Hehe. Luckily for us, he didn't take long.

He was VERY early. He reached the airport at 10:47am, he even had the ticket to prove it. And i didn't come out from the arrival hall at approximately 12:30pm.

Baby's car is pretty messy but i kinda got used to it when i was there. I even knew where everything was in the backseat or the floor! Hehe

Okay, this post is just to tell people how and what happened when Phil and i first met. I will try to blog about New Zealand if i want to. If not, then too bad!

Philly Boo,

I MISS YOU. Terribly.

Baby said he felt lost when i left and that he didn't know what else to do. He can't wait to go back to work and actually go out and do SOMETHING. 

I miss holding him. I miss staring at him. I don't know what he wants. He said he wanna be with the one he loves, and he loves me. He wanna be with me, but he's missing all the physical part of the relationship. The hugging, the kissing, the cuddling. I do too, i just don't know how to explain to him that i need him just as much as he needs me.

My heart hurts when i think about him, cause i miss him so much. I don't wanna cry about it all the time cause i had 2 wonderful weeks with him. And i know i should be grateful that i'm able to spend time with him and be a normal couple for once. It was so hard to let go cause i know what i'll be missing. 

He's an awesome boyfriend. He have his moments but most of the time, he's caring, attentive, affectionate and just very..... loving.

P/S: I wish you are doing fine now, Boo. 
P/P/S: We have to come up with a kind of compromise and see what we can do with our relationship, Boo. I don't want us to constantly feel insecure about each other and the relationship. It's damaging. And i love u, i don't want you to think otherwise. I'll wait for you if you want me to. I'll move if you want me to, but in the mean time, we have to think of a realistic plan and just hope it'll fall into place... faster, for our sake.

I think we have been constantly with each other for the past two weeks that the separation is taking its toll on us. Don't worry, Boo. We will make it somehow. Have a little faith.

Update.

Well, just to let you all know that i am not dead. 

If you all have been following me on Twitter, you all know that i am in New Zealand. Well, i'm going home in a couple of days cause i'm only here for two weeks, but it's okay.

It was a time well spent, especially with Baby around. 

I know i'm probably gonna bawl my eyes out when the day comes, but i'm gonna spend all the time i have left in New Zealand with Baby. If he wants. Haha

Just as long as he won't leave me alone in the kitchen again to watch Stargate. Growl.

Ahh, Stargate. I actually enjoyed that show. Might get the seasons on DVDs. Yes, i like it THAT much, Geeky, i know. Haha blame Phillip. He got me hooked.

Anyways, yeah, i'll be home in a couple of days so see you all then. Just wanted to let you all know that Phillip is not a serial killer (yet haha), and that i am still very much alive. 

AND WELL FED! Haha

P/S: If you all are nice (and i'm not lazy), i shall blog about the first time i met Phillip tomorrow. Muahaha.

So here i go...

Well, today's the day. The next time i blog, i am probably already in New Zealand. Unless they have WiFi on board then maybe. But maybe, i'll be too lazy or too scared to turn on my laptop.

I don't think planes even have WiFi. Wouldn't that clash with their radar machine? Haha, don't know, i am not from Aerospace Engineering.

So yeah, everyone's so excited for me. I am excited too, but i am more nervous. Probably about the flying and all the possibilities everyone put in my head. Yeah, i'm not even gonna try to think about those possibilities. Overall, i think i'm super nervous about the flying.

I love travelling but i hate flying. I don't feel secure when i get on a plane. It's just a stupid issue i have with myself. I have to feel secure, i have to have my two feet on the group. Without having the worries that i'm gonna crash and fall. You know what i mean?

Haha, yeah. So anyways, in a couple of hours, i have to get ready to go to the airport. Boarding time is around 8pm, and i have to be there 90mins early. So to be safe, i'd rather be there at 6pm.

It's a 10 hour flight, and i think i'm gonna have a huge panic attack in the plane. When that happens, who am i gonna call? Well, i suppose the air-stewardess are trained for these kinda situations? I hope.

Yeah so, hopefully Phil won't be late. I told him if he's late for 5 mins, i won't talk to him for 5 hours. But, i'd probably just gonna manage a smile cause i'm gonna be a grumpy ass bitch the first day. Yeah, i can try not to, i promise. Haha

Anyways, sweetheart skin decided to pop something out as a going away present from Singapore. Asshole. Haha, i have a stupid popper on my chin. Jeesh.

Linsy helped me pack last night, but i was feeling so nervous, so i repacked a little. I took out some things so i can fit my oversize towel in the luggage since my Nine West bag decided to play punk with me. Pfft

Yeah, so anyways, i am about to puke my guts out. I can't even eat, i think the nerves start to attack me TODAY. Haha

Abrupt end. BYE!

P/S: I notice, there are no colour on this post and the previous post. Only cause i'm bloody nervous. Haha

I'll be away, far far away.

Okay, so maybe in 20 hours time, i shall be up and away in a plane off to New Zealand.

People ask me if i was nervous. Quite honestly, i wasn't until today. The day of departure. I was actually pretty calm and not thinking about it too much. You know, the packing, the overloading of luggage and the amount of liquid i'm able to bring on board. All that shtuff.

Today was actually pretty intense. I couldn't eat. After i eat, i vomited out my contents and then, headaches. Really bad headache. Just hope i won't get sick this weekend. Eerghs!

But you know what, i think i was nervous in my own way. Cause i keep having break outs and my skin's all dry, and yeah, i didn't have enough appetite to eat or drink. Poor Phil! Haha, i told him if he sees an Asian girl with pretty bad skin, it;s probably me so he should come and say hi.

Yeah, i know, i tend to make jokes about my skin but i'm super insecure about it. OKay, enough about my skin.

I was actually telling Linsy how time flies so fast. It was just in February that i booked my ticket for New Zealand and then in a blink of an eye, it's TODAY. I was kinda like in a daze. Counting the days, but yet not being aware of how close it was gonna get.

Haha, oh wells, atleast i'm trying right?

So, anyways, my purpose to blogging today is to tell everyone that i'll be away for 2 weeks. From the 2nd to 16th April. I've emailed all the ones involved contact detals and yeah, that's basically it.

I'm done with packing, well the luggage anyways. Gonna pack my laptop and some other things tomorrow morning, then i'm all set.

I'll be bringing my laptop. So people i know with Skype, please add me. Skype name: ArynneVengeance

I shall try to tweet every second, like what my friends demanded. Try to blog once a day or something like that. No promises though. Haha and i'll try to REMEMBER to take pictures. I'll see you guys later!

I am gonna try to get some sleep. I'm having a huge headache and my ankle hurts. Toorah!