Another 30 days.

1. What happened today? If it was the last day of your life, how satisfied would you be with your final hours?
2. Who are you? In comparison to who you used to be. What made you change?
3. Where have you been spending your time lately? Three/Five/Ten years ago would you have expected to be there?
4. What do you think it means to be in love?
5. Pick a song that projects the same mood as your day or week and explain.
6. Talk about a recent experience that has effected you greatly and how.
7. Think of the last person you hugged. What would you do if they vanished completely?
8. Write about the first moment that comes to your head when you read the words “childhood memory”
9. Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
10. Did you have a good day or a bad day? Where do you think that defining line was?
11. Do you feel protective over someone?
12. If you could trade places with anyone for one week, who would it be and why?
13. Where do you see your best friend in 10 years?
14. When you are stressed, what can you use as an outlet? Why do you think it helps you?
15. What do you believe in? And not just God or atheism.
16. What are you passionate about?
17. Who was the last person you kissed? (If you are still with them now, pick the person before them.) What would they say if they saw you now?
18. Talk about your extended family. Why do you think they are the way they are?
19. If you could be anywhere in the world, but you had to be there for a certain cause, where would you be and why?
20. Again, pick a song that projects the mood of your week or day.
21. Look back. Why did you choose this challenge? Do you think it says anything about you?
22. How do you think people see you? Be a little negative and a little positive.
23. Explain your life plan for the next month, then the next year, then three years, then five years.
24. Are you more social or independent? Why do you think that is?
25. What do you think it means to be a good parent?
26. Talk about a moment where you were truly happy. What was happening? Who were you with?
27. Is there a friend you are worried about? Why do they have you concerned? Do you think they’ll be okay?
28. Would you rather someone tell you the truth up front but gently, or be lied to to spare your feelings?
29. If you could be doing the same things you do now, only in your own way, how would a normal day in your life go?
30. Look back on this last month and talk about it.

Day 30- Where do you think you’ll be in 5 years?

Well, i don't necessarily know where i will end up in 5 years, but i do have some plans.

First of all, i would love to have a job that i can really be stable in and something that gives me a lot of training opportunities and career progressions. 

Mostly, i would like to go back to school and retake my diploma. No, no, there is nothing wrong with my Engineering Diploma, In fact, i did pretty well and i'm proud of it. I just wanna get a new diploma, i guess, a course that is nearer to what i want to do.

Something you people don't know about me, is that, i have always wanted to do law enforcement. So, if i were to return to school, i might take a Diploma in Criminology, Police Studies or Law & Management. 

We'll see, aye? 

Day 29- Write about any particular habits/mannerisms that you have.

Well to be honest, i can't think of anything bad, except that i forget to eat sometimes. 

Other than that, is that i get cravings. A LOT. I'm not even pregnant or anything remotely close to that. I just get cravings. Whenever i tastes something in my mouth, i will crave for it. It's like my taste bud creates this flavours of the dish that i wanna eat, and then poof, i crave for it.

My cravings get really bad though, cause i get it at ridiculous hours of the night or in the morning, and if i don't get it, i get REALLY irritable. The craving will stay for as long as i don't get the food i'm craving for.

Usually, when i get the food that i'm craving for, i will eat it all. There are occasions where i get a few bites, and then i don't want them anymore. So it gets frustrating for people who are the ones who tried to get me those food items that i'm craving for.

Worse still, sometimes i get overlapping cravings. So, when i try to get food, it has to be in the order of which one i crave first.

I know, i'm weird. 

Day 28- If you had three wishes, what would they be?

1) All the time and money in the world. 
No, no, i'm not greedy. I just want to travel! Hehe

2) Someone to snuggle with.
Wot? Haha i get cold at night sometimes.

3) More wishes!
Cause three wishes are not enough, beeeyotch!

Day 27- Where is somewhere you would want to visit?

Huka Falls, New Zealand

Rome

Day 26- Write about something you once loved, but now despise.

Wow, this is actually pretty hard. 

Once i love something, i would definitely not change my mind. Even a person, even if they did something to me, i wouldn't despise them, i'd just be wary but i don't hate.

I don't know, there are a couple of things that i liked, that i absolutely wouldn't try again because of something. Mostly make up products. Hmm, this is hard. Haha

Oh wait, i used to LOVE baggy pants. Bermudas and that kinda shorts that has the side pockets. I used to wear them all the time when i was around 13 and below haha but i hate them now. They're so boy, and so unflattering.

Yeah, that's all. Haha

Day 25- Write a letter to someone you miss.

Dear You,

I am very sure you know who you are. I pray for you every single night before i go to bed. I feel guilty for not visiting you during your last days. I feel even more guilty that i wasn't able to visit you when you were on your death bed. You were a great uncle. All i want to say is that, i miss you and i love you.

I hope you're resting in peace up there with Grandpa and Grandma. <3

May Allah bless your soul and all your sins forgiven. 

Day 24- How was your week been?

Well, this week has been interesting, to say the least. Not getting into it, so yeah. Might be a little slow. You know, those kinda thing. Nothing fun that i will rave about. It's pretty decent, i suppose?

It's already Thursday anyway, doubt anything overwhelming is gonna happen, but hey, i still have 3 days in the week left, so we'll see.

Day 23- Describe what you spend most of your time on

Well, let me sums it up in just two words...

JOB. HUNTING. 
Mhm.

I just can't get enough

Ten Things i wish i could say to ten different people (but dont say their name):

1) I feel pretty useless when you insinuate that i am not trying hard enough.

2) I wish you would open your eyes and see that your "friend" is causing all the strain the family is having. Or had in the past.

3) I know i am not perfect, but that doesn't make you better than me, or anyone else.

4) I’d really quite like to know why you hate me.

5) I should have trusted you.

6) I think i like you, but i hate how you have no intentions to see where we could end up.

7) I really hope you'll see one day how you're breaking your mum's heart.

8) I'm glad we're still friends and all, but i honestly have no idea if i have forgiven you.

9) I think you're pretty cute, and maybe i kinda like you too..?

10) I hope you see that your happiness also matters, and not just the other party.

Nine things about myself:

1) I am actually friendlier than how people put me out to be.

2) I have two moles on my right boob, and in my right eye.

3) I can throw the worse tantrums ever.

4) I have considered stand up comedy, but i tend to get really boring when i try to be funny.  

5) I do not always think i am right, but when people just tell me that i am wrong without proving, i don't take it lying down.

6) I feel very strongly about things i care about.

7) I have a 9 year old daughter from Myanmar. And i love her to pieces.

8) I would never go bungee jumping or something similar to that.

9) i love my family. 

Eight ways to win my heart:

1) Show me that you're sincere and be absolutely honest with me in any way.

2) Take me on a sunrise date.

3) Be patient with me when i'm having one of my bratty moments. It won't last that long, anyway. 

4) Tell me everything. Your day, the good parts and the bad.  

5) Make me a cup of tea in the morning. Two sugar please. :)

6) Don't just tell me that you love me, show me.

7) Take the effort to get to know me.

8) Kiss my forehead and tell me you need me.

Seven things that cross my mind a lot:

1) Is this really what i wanna be doing for the rest of my life?

2) I need to get a proper job.

3) I miss you sometimes.

4) Would i have a family of my own some day?

5) Eating is wrong...

6) What happened?

7) Candyyyyy

Six things I do before I fall asleep:

1) Jog

2) Shower

3) Wash my face

4) Brush my teeth

5) Put PJ's on

6) Blog

Five things constantly in your possession:

1) Phone.

2) Keys.

3) Make up bag. 

4) My bank card.

5) A hair tie.

Four things you did today:

1) Had a rocking concert in the shower.

2) Watched some How I Met Your Mother.

3) Out for dinner with Linsy and her parents.

4) Blog.

Three places which mean a lot to you:

1) My bedroom

2) Cape Reinga

3) Tioman
 

Two things you want to do before you die:

1) Find that special someone and have a family.

2) Travel all over the world/build a school in an unfortunate country.

One confession:

1) I am afraid at what would happen to my loved ones if i anything bad were to happen to me. 

Day 22- What made you smile the most today?

Well, had a last minute dinner thing with Linsy and her parents, and they asked me along.

Lets just say whenever we're out, we ALWAYS laugh or smile about everything. Yeah, my family makes me happy. :)) 

Yarh

Explain your relationship status: 
Single and pretty much ready to mingle. Haha come and get me lads :P

What does your last text say: 
"Ditto!!!!"

What is the first thing that came into your mind this morning"My. Tummy. Hurts!"

Do you prefer people who talk a lot or who are quiet: 
Depends what kind of mood i’m in, but generally people who talk a lot

Does it bother you when people respond to a text with one word?

Haha yes, kinda. That's why i never reply back to people who respond that way

Did you talk to someone till you fell asleep lastnight: 
Hmm nup

Is there anybody who hates you: I think so yes, haha but i don't care, to be honest

What are you listening to: 
Burn It Down - Avenged Sevenfold

Are you afraid to fall in love: 
Kind of

If you could choose one season to be a year round, what would it be: Autumn

How many kids do you want when your older: 
6 haha but 4 would be fine 

Does it bother you when people smoke around you: 
A little bit, but i'm fine as long as they don't blow the smoke to me intentionally

Missing someone now: 
Hm, maybe a little bit

Are you sober: 
Yup, i don't drink

Who are you most likely to tell a secret to:
Depends on the secret, sometimes, no one 

Is there anyone you trust 100%: 
Not a 100%, no

Are you the type of person who has a different boyfriend/girlfriend every week: 
Nope 

What are you doing right now: 
Doing this and trying to be sleepy

What time do you usually go to sleep at night: 
Whenever i'm tired

Will you be in a relationship next month? Most probably not

Are you happy with your life the way its going: 
I'm content, yes

Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today: 
Nup

Are you currently frustrated with anyone or anything: 
Yes, frustrated at how depressing being unemployed is

Ever been called a jerk/bitch: 
All the time

Do you have any secrets that nobody knows about: 
Yup

If you could go back in time, how far would you go: 
Haha i don't know, 70's maybe?

Do you have a friend you can tell stuff to and your sure they wont tell anyone: 

Yes :) Thank god

Can you sleep with out your blankets covering you: 
Hm yes

Will you be sleeping alone tonight: 
Every night haha

Cry today: 
Nope

When you last got dressed, did you put your bottoms or your top on first: 
Bottoms

Are you taller than 5 foot and 7 inches: Nope, i think i'm 5'5" or 5'6" haha 

Are you one of those people that just dont care?

On certain matters, yes

Are you afraid of losing the last person you spoke to? 
Not afraid, but i would rather us be friends always

Who was the last person you spoke to before you went to bed: 
Scottch

Are you happy with the choices you’ve made: 
They shaped me in one way or another, so yes

Are you planning to go and see a movie anytime soon: 
Well, there are a couple of movies i wanna watch, but i don't think so

Do you own a digital camera: 
Nooope haha

Do you think you’re a good person: 
Hmm i hope so

Do you currently have a hickey: 
Haha no

Do you break things when your mad: 
I used to, not anymore 

Have you ever in anyway, been betrayed by anyone you trust: 
Yes. To be honest, i don't know if i have forgiven that person or not, but we're currently friends

What’s the first thing you saw when you woke up: 
My ceiling

Do you think you can be in a relationship for 6 months or more: 
Yes, i prefer long term relationships

What were you doing this time yesterday: 
Same thing probably

Would you be able to date someone who doesnt make you laugh: Hmm, if he's nice and devoted, i could try

Would you rather date someone older or younger than you: 
I don't mind, just not too young

Have you ever broken up a couple: Haha i sure hope not

Could things ever possibly get better: 
We all can hope

Have you ever been around someone high: 
Ye, not a pretty sight

When was the last time you REALLY laughed hard: 
The day before yesterday i think

Just keeps getting better.

New week, new interesting thing that happened.

Well, i was walking home from Linsy's house in my jogging gear and a listening to my mp3, when a dog chased me wagging its tail and i just ran around saying "OH MY GOD! OH MY GOD! OH MY GOD!".

Yeah, i was laughing to myself the whole way home after that incident. Yeah that's all. Bye.

Day 21- How has your life changed over the past year?

Well, i wouldn't say my life has any drastic change. It's not really how my life have changed, it's more about my attitude to how i react around people and certain situations.

I used to care a lot what people do to me. I mean, i don't care about what people think about me, just some people who i care about, do something bad to me, i get really upset. I used to think that it's my fault when people treat me badly, so i get really mad at myself.

I'll apologize profusely and if i didn't get to talk to that person to straighten things out, i get really annoyed at myself. 

I used to let people get in my head. I used to let people do bad things to me, emotionally and mentally. 

All these probably because i care too much about how the other person feel that it's okay for me to feel hurt, just as long as the other person is okay.

Well, this new year, i had a resolution. My resolution is that i should not care about things that doesn't concern me. 

I am also more patient at certain situations and to certain people. I think positive a lot this year, rather than the negativity people surround me with.

What people think of me is their business and how i react to them is my business. I control what i can, and i ignore what i can't. If it doesn't involve me, even better.

I don't let little things upset things upset me anymore so, i'm pretty good emotionally and mentally. I wouldn't say i stopped caring about people cause i still do care about them greatly. 

I have just stopped making people priority if i'm not a priority to them. So yeah, basically mentally and emotionally, i'm controlling myself.

I am also exercising and eating healthily so i feel much much better.

I got raped..

.... by a freaking bug.

I am not kidding. It was disgusting. 

So, basically what happened was, i just finished jogging with Linsy, Kak Yan and their mother and, we went to this fitness playground thingy that has all the basic exercises stations. The sit ups, the pull ups, the monkey bars, and all that jazz.

So i was on this device. Where you step on a round "disc" and then you can start twisting and turning your legs and body the opposite direction. Haha you know what i mean? Yeah, so i was happily twisting myself on this device and i was breathing as per normal when suddenly this flying bug just flew right in my nose. I guess because of the connecting pipes, i can feel it fly through my throat. 

I tried to force coughed it out but i could still feel it in my throat, haha so i basically forced myself to puke cause it was so uncomfortable and ticklish at the same time.

So yeah, that's the highlight of my week really. I got face raped by a bug. Forced deep throat, if you think is more appropriate. EW.

Day 20- What did you eat today?

Breakfast:
I had rice with sambal goreng and beef rendang. Mum bought it for me cause she knows i LOVE this packed rice from that particular store. 

Right, for all of you who don't know what sambal goreng and beef rendang are, it's a Malay traditional dish. 
Sambal goreng is basically a chili based sauce that has bean curd, bean cake, long beans and some do put in meat (beef or mutton). Beef rendang is similar to beef curry, BUT the only difference is that, you use toasted coconut in the rendang dish, with more aromatic spices. They usually cook it for a very very long time to get the gravy really thick. 

After that, i had some sliced mangoes. Yum!

Lunch:
I didn't eat anything for lunch cause i forgot to eat. Yeah, i tend to be like that sometimes, which is not good i know.

Dinner:
I had 4 tablespoonfuls of rice and hard-boiled egg cooked in chili. Yeah. It was just a light dinner cause i was gonna go for a run after that.

So yah, basically, that's all i ate today. 

Suck on this, brotha.

I am a perfectionist.
I am an only child.
I am Catholic.
I am currently in my PJs.
I am currently pregnant.
I am currently suffering from a broken heart.
I am left handed.
I am married.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I am tired.
I am female.
I am wearing socks.
I am prone to headaches.
I am currently waiting for someone.
I currently regret something I have done.
I swear when I get angry.
I bite my nails.
I miss someone right now.
I don’t like anyone.
I strongly dislike maths.
I hate deleting pictures or documents in case you might need them later.
I hate answering the phone.
I hate Miley Cyrus.
I like Shakespeare.
I love cooking.
I love Michael Jackson.
I love pickles.
I love looking at old photographs.
I love theme parks.
I love to travel.
I love sleeping.
I love other people’s accents.
I love shopping.
I enjoy country music. 
I enjoy jazz music.
I enjoy talking to people.
I have a car.
I have a mobile phone.
I have a pet.
I have a big brother.
I have a sweet tooth.
I have a velux window in my bedroom.
I have a name people find it hard to pronounce/spell.
I have naturally large pupils.
I have bright blue eyes.
I have lost contact with someone.
I have at least one brother or sister.
I have been to another country.
I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
I have had a broken bone.
I have changed a lot over the past year.
I have had surgery.
I have had my hair cut within the last week.
I have had the police called on me.
I have had braces before.
And need them again.
I have kissed someone I knew I shouldn’t.
I have kissed someone of the same gender.
I have mood swings.
I have separated parents.
I have quite a few figurines/soft toys of characters I like.
I have rejected someone before.
I have seen the Lord of The Rings trilogy.
I have watched all six Star Wars films.
I have watched Sex In The City.
I own over 100 CDs.
I own over 100 DVDs.
I own an Xbox.
I own and use a library card.
I would classify myself as ghetto.
I would date Harry Potter.
I prefer vanilla over chocolate.
I prefer dark chocolate to milk chocolate.
I prefer hand-held games consoles.
I prefer talking to people in real life, rather than online or on the phone.
I couldn’t live without the internet.
I couldn’t live without music.
I couldn’t live without a pet.
I could be called shy but once people get to know me I’m anything but.
I can name all seven dwarfs in Snow White. 
I can go for days without listening to music.
I don’t have any friends, besides relatives.
I don’t put any thought into outfits but still manage to look okay.
I don’t style my hair.
I don’t wear make up.
I don’t have a middle name. 
I don’t know how to achieve a lot of my goals.
I know what I want to do as a career.
I know a lot of the songs on TV advertisements.
I think Britney Spears was pretty.
I think Party In The USA is catchy.
I use far too many emoticons.
I practice a religion that is not considered mainstream.
I read books for pleasure in my spare time.
I sleep a lot during the day.
I will try almost anything once.
I work at a job that I enjoy.
I wonder if my memories are real or if I’ve made them up.
I was born in somewhere other than America.
I watch a lot of films and quote them a lot.
I remember being two years old.
I take a lot of pictures.
I find it difficult to sleep most nights.
I left school early.
I think that baby turtles are adorable.
I treat someone who isn’t related to me as if they were.
I use one of those coo-ing voices when talking to animals.
I keep a scrapbook/thought book of sorts.
I always remember parts of my dreams.
I get along better with the opposite sex.
I talk to people on TV as if they can hear me.
I find myself awesome, even if no one else does.

Day 19- Write about your last birthday and how you plan to spend your upcoming birthday.

Well, last year, we didn't celebrate my birthday on the day itself cause it fell on a weekday. My friends are all working and such, but they celebrated it a few days in advance. Of course, i don't mind.

I have to say that birthday was the best and the most memorable birthday celebration i ever had. Well, i did celebrate my birthday overseas once. Oh, and i got a birthday package from New Zealand too once, which is awesome!

Yes, last year was major great. The girls brought to me to all the places i love and adore.

It started off with me sleeping over at Sikin's house since the parents were out and she was all alone, so me being the good friend that i am (ehem), agreed to accompany her for the night.

Then, she told me she had to be back in Yishun by 8:30am cause she had a Tamil wedding to attend to near my house, but i think we slept till 9:30am. Haha we showered and she took the cab to my area and then pretended to proceed to the Indian temple nearby, while i go home.
I got on the net, you know, being bored and everything. So in about 10 or 15 minutes later, there was a knock on my door. I opened the door and it was Linsy, followed by Rehan and Sikin, of course. 

Best surprise ever. They didn't really tell me where we're going. They told me i had 15 minutes to get ready. Thank goodness i already showered. Didn't really take much to put on some eyeshadow cause i'm pretty good at neutral look now. Haha

They just dragged me in the bus, in the train and all that jazz and we dropped at Science Center. Haha and i was like "Are we going to the CSI exhibition??" with a huge smile on my face.

It was awesomeeeeeeeeee. And then for dinner, we went to Charco's. Oh and they each bought me Stargate SG-1 DVD, from seasons 1 to 3. 

I freaking love my friends.

Well this birthday. Haha, i don't know. I usually don't expect anything except whenever i hint them on my presents. I guess i want a birthday cake that looks like a huge cupcake. Tee hee. They can surprise me if they want.

Though, i think we're not gonna do anything cause Linsy is getting married 11 days after my birthday. Grrr. She's stealing my spotlight.

Haha, i'm kidding, but that's the story.

Mega bored, obviously.

Why aren’t you dating the last person you texted? 
haha cause, she's my cousin.

2 months ago, who did you have a crush on? 
No one, to be honest. I was trying to sort myself out.

Who was the last person to wear your clothes? 
I think it was my cousin, Yanny. We are apparently the same size now.

Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you? 
Mhm. :)

Your phone is ringing. Its the person you fell hardest for, what do you say? 
"Sup?" Haha, that's usually how i answer most of my phonecalls.

What was the last thing you drank? 
Straight up sky juice on the rocks, baby! Haha yeah, i'm THAT hardcore.

Have you ever been asked out by someone you didnt want to be with? 
Ahhh, indeed.

Is there anyone you want to come see you? 
To be honest, yes, but it's never going to happen.

What were you doing at 4am this morning? 
Hmm, it's only 1:14am. But if it was last night/morning, then i was asleep.

Do you miss anyone? 
Yarh

Do you regret something you did the day before yesterday? 
The day before yesterday? Hm, nup. I didn't really do anything. Haha

Is someone on your mind right now? 
Yarh

Are you listening to music right now? 
Yes. Andrew Allen - Loving You Tonight. Makes me want to fall in love. Hehe

What do you think of your last kiss? 
It was memorable. :)

Have you ever lived with your girlfriend/boyfriend? 
Yes, for two weeks. Haha he took care of me like a queen. No joke.

Have you ever broken someones heart? 
I really hope not, but it's inevitable.

Next time you will kiss someone? 
Haha, i am not sure. Hopefully soon.

Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed? 
Haha yes. It was yummy.

Will you be single on Valentines Day? I was single on the last Valentine's Day, yes. But next time, who knows, most probably. Haha but i don't give a shit, to be honest.

Anyone you would like to get things straight with? 
Well, there's some people i would like to punch though. Haha that's getting things straight for me.

Are all guys players and cheaters? 
Nah. I just haven't found that one guy yet.

Would you be surprised if your most recent ex called or text you tonight? 
Yup. But meh, my hopes are not up.

Do you read magazines, or just look at the pictures? 
Both

Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? Well, most things, but yes.

Have you ever fallen asleep in someone’s arms?
Well, yes. It was nice. :)
 

Did you sleep alone last night? 
Yup. Haha, i'm forever alone.

Would you ever eat a bug for 1,000 dollars? 
Yup. I've always wanted to try eating bugs.

Last time you laughed? 
Today

Is there someone you wouldn't mind kissing right now? 
I could name a couple. Haha

Do you find smoking unattractive? 
Yeap, very much.
 

When was the last time something bothered you? 
Hmm. Not lately. Can't remember.

What time did you wake up today? 
About 2pm. I slept in cause i slept late.

The last person you kissed bumped into you at school, what would you say? NOTHING. I'd straight up hug him. But wait, i'm back in school?! WOOHOO. Haha

Have you ever let someone be your everything? 

Was a mistake.

Do you think anyone has feelings for you? 
Probably not.

Is anyone protective of you? 
Hm, my family and friends, i guess. No one else.

Will you be in a relationship in 4 months? 
Haha, i don't think so.

Do you think two people can last forever? 
Yup, i've seen it happen.

Would you put yesterday on repeat and live it forever? Yesterday, no. But there are days i wish i could relive.

Have you ever kissed someone with a tattoo? 
Mmm, yes.

Do you drink tea? 
Yup. Especially if someone brew it for me. Hehe

Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room? 
Haha, no. I don't drink.

Think back to September, were you in a relationship? 
Nah nigga.
 

What do you currently hear right now? 
Songs on my WMP, and me typing.

Have you ever sent a text to the wrong person? 
Holy Hannah Montana, yes.

Would you rather sleep for three days or stay awake for three days? 
Sleep, so i don't need to eat.

What does the 10th message in your inbox say? 
It was Sikin asking me if she could borrow my grey boots.
 

Have you ever had a really big fight with a best friend? 
Yes, it was horrible!