Just an update..

PROJECT JUDGING AT 2:40PM TODAY.

DIDN'T TALK TO JOEL FOR TWO DAYS, I MISS HIM.

DECIDED TO STOP CONTACTING MIKAEL.

WISH SOPHIA ALL THE BEST WITH HER GUYS AND TWIN PROBLEMS.

14TH DECEMBER 2007, MY 21ST BIRTHDAY.

15TH DECEMBER 2007, HOPEFULLY MEET AZ AND ELFIRA.

RYAN BEING AN ASSHOLE, BUT I STILL LOVE HIM.

ADAM FOUND A NEW BOYFRIEND, AND HE'S HOT.

AKON CALLED ME. NOT THE RAPPER.

PROMISED FYNA I WRITE ABOUT HER. NEXT POST K!

K BYE.

But the fact remains, that this is nothing new

I've lost my mojo!! Lol, not the Austin Powers kinda type but, i think I've just lost my juices to blog..

Well, yes i am blogging right now but you know what i mean..

I've lost the ability to blog! Or have i? Hmmz, let's think about that now.. Haha, cause I'm definitely blogging right now.. Haha, I'm blogging about having nothing to blog about.. WHATTT!! But, if I'm blogging about having nothing to blog about, isn't that blogging about SOMETHING?? Irony is super cool! Haha

Anyhoo, what I'm trying to say is.. There's nothing interesting that happened the past few days that makes me wanna blog.. Well nothing that involves the privacy of other people anyways.. Haha, see I'm not at all self-absorbed cause i do blog about other people in the midst of blogging about myself.. Bleah, i don't know if you people realize this, but I've used the word 'blog' and 'blogging' too many times! There it goes again!

Well, it's lunch time here but I'm not going for lunch AGAIN.. No, I'm not on a diet cause i feel that dieting is a waste of time, with all the deliciously sinful food that can be found at every nook and cranny of Singapore! Oh yah by the way, talking about food.. Lol, be very careful when you eat cakes or pastries at PrimaDeli okay :)

Okay yah back to why I'm not going for lunch.. I'm saving up my money for 14th, 15th and 31st December.. Goodness, i have to buy presents for those December babies.. Heyy!! It's my birthday too you know!! Haha..

14th December outing is truly gonna be one of the best birthday dinner ever! Although not many are going but I'm very contented that my tightest girlfriend are coming to celebrate my 21st birthday dinner.. I'm happy, truly and really am.. Amy, Violet, Hazel, Sally and Belle.. My bestest girlfriends ever!
Lol, anyway Belle decided to join us last minute.. Tee hee, i don't mind! I'd love for her to go! She called me yesterday and said that Sally told her we're going for my birthday dinner on that day..

So with her cheerful, innocent voice she jovially chirped, "Can i come??". "Oh my goodness! Of course you can!" i exclaimed!

Haha, Belle is one of my bestest friend ever since secondary school days.. I'll be more than happy to let her join us.. If Kak Sherry confirm with us that she's coming, it'll be the most happiest birthday dinner i will ever have.. EVER!

15th December, Ice Skating outing! Wowee zoweee! As previous posts have proved.. I TOTALLY CAN'T WAIT FOR THIS OUTING!! 8 to 10 of us are confirmed.. So whoever got the invitation, please do confirm with us okay!

31st December, New Year's Eve.. We're probably just gonna walk around town and do something foolish and crazy like what we always do everytime we meet.. Ha, play Old Maid in Starbucks, play Donkey with stupid penalties like licking the filthy street lamp.. Haha, pole dancing in the middle of Esplanade.. Oh, and not forgetting taking crazy pictures at the void-deck.. Goodness, how i miss those times..

Lol, of course.. We're going Dutch! 

Selfish beneath the skin, but deep inside i'm not insane

Good morning my lovelies! It's a lovely morning today, isn't it? It's like 11:35am now, so by the time i finish this post it's probably be like around noon, so i wanna wish you honeys out there 'Good Afternoon, and have a nice day!'

So yesterday i found out that i have somewhat a loyal reader.. Mikael's girlfriend, hmmz let's call her Sophia.. Yes my babies, you've read it right.. That cutesy guy from Pizza Hut already have a girlfriend.. Awww to all of those still interested in him.. Haha.. Sophia's pretty, tall and lanky.. Scarily skinny for my liking but gorgeous nonetheless.. Really, go check her out.. Lol, well of course I'm not gonna tell you guys her profile url cause she's attached to my best friend! *Muahaha* Always save the best for the ones i love *smiles* Well, not like i have anything to do with them getting hooked up.. Haha..

Anyway, yesterday she told me she's an avid reader of my blog.. I'm sincerely touched to know that i actually have a fan.. Lol, not as famous as XiaXue YET but hopefully soon I'll be able to be a Blogging Goddess just like her.. Believe it or not people, XiaXue is my blogging role model.. She don't care about what or who she offend as long as she's telling it as it is, and it's doesn't go against her beliefs.. For that, i worship her..

Yes, my blog posts are mostly nonsensical and inferiors stuffs.. Mostly of course it's about yours truly *smiles* But, so what? It's my thoughts and feelings after all.. If you love my candidness and frankness, stay.. If you hate my shallowness and my love for the self-respect of women, leave.. You've entered the wrong blog if you want all posts to be sweet and dandy.. World peace and love are not me, although i am very much against hurting the innocents.. I hereby solemnly swear that everything i blogged about or soon to be blogging about here is true, or as true as i think it needs to be..

Anyway, i just found out that for every fan you've got, you also have an equal number of haters, give or take a couple.. Well, so i was skipping happily to school while stopping to smell the roses and saying hello to that little bumble bee while benevolently smiling to that belligerent drunk across the street.. Okay, so it didn't happen like that but don't you wish sometimes you could be as carefree and child-like like that.. Well i do.. *smiles*

Bleah, back to the topic I'm supposed to be bitching about.. Well as i was saying before i get so rudely interrupted by my imagination, i realized that people hate you for the most unsophisticated reasons ever.. I mean, can you REALLY judge someone without knowing that person first? Some people immediately think you're haughty just because you don't smile or just because you're talking with a slight accent.. I mean, seriously, think about it.. What if, you go around smiling all the time, even when people are not smiling at you, don't tell me you wouldn't think that that person have something wrong up there somewhere.. You get what i mean?? I get called snobbish all the time just because i have a fierce face and most of the time i don't smile.. I'm a nice person, really! *smirk*

Okay so, i opened my email today i get messages from unknown people.. Me, being a blur cock (no wait, maybe i should say blur pussy? haha) that i am, without even bothering to read the title of the message, clicked on it and read it.. "Bla bla bla ugly, bla bla bla wannabe, bla bla bla pathetic" Okay, so by those 3 words you can tell that that person is totally trying to hurt me in some way.. Lol, no seriously people humor me.. Tell me something i DON'T already know.. You telling me I'm ugly is equivalent to teaching a duck how to swim.. TOO OBVIOUS! I'd probably respect you if you tell me something that i myself don't know..

I'm born ugly, so what do you want me to do?? No tell me, seriously WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO?? Isn't it stupid to judge people just by the way they look.. Please, you people are nothing but an insignificant stranger in my passing life.. Not even long enough to actually leave a footprint.. The probability of you guys trying to bring down my self-esteem is almost infinitesimal to nothing.. As long as i have friends, family and Ryan thinks I'm hot, who the hell cares about what you think of me..

And what's all these about me being a wannabe? What? Is there anywhere in the law or bible or Quran that states that if i listen to Metal, i can't listen to HipHop?? Did i ever say I'm Goth? Emo? Punk?? I didn't, read my profile, read my blog.. If there is any post in this god forsaken blog that imply anything about me telling you guys that I'm into a certain kind of 'scene', please feel free to scrutinize me.. If not, screw yourself *smiles*

Oh yah, people reading this who actually chats with me in MSN.. STOP ASKING STUPID QUESTIONS!!

I have to be in school for 5 days a week, including Fridays from 8:30am to 5:30pm.. If you see me around that time on MSN, do not ask me 'ARE YOU IN SCHOOL?!' I'll fucking whack you on your stoopid head!

ANOTHER ABRUPT END!

Brutally scarred and insanely murdered

Ignore the title, it's pathetic.. Nothing's going through my mind right now.. I have to complete my pathetic little car model by Friday as the judging's next week.. Can you believe it?? 8:30am to 5:30pm, everyday 5 days a week, including Friday! Ha, the madness of major projects..

Anyhoo, i can't stress this enough! I CAN'T WAIT FOR DECEMBER 15TH! Haha, miss you girlfriends!

Well, nothing much happened in the weekend except that my cousins and I went to Bedok to order some engagement stuff.. I'M GETTING ENGAGED!! NOT! Bleah.. Hazel's engaged, Abg Charlie's getting engaged, and soon Violet's getting engaged in April 2008 (insyallah)! Lol, celebrities getting divorced and civilians getting hooked up, how ironic is that..

Anyhoo, sorry for the sloppiness and the usage of stupid words for my blog today.. I'm just so absent-minded and terribly lethargic!

Yeah, we went to Bedok to buy the stuffs and then Hazel and Abg Dy went to Mustafa Centre.. For some reason, they don't want me to follow *hint hint*! Lol, i think they're buying my birthday presents! Haha shameless bugger!

So Violet, OJ and I went to Tampines Mall cause Violet needs a pair of shoes.. Whatever, after that we went home by taking 39 cause 969 was terribly packed..

Ha, oh my goodness.. Seriously i sound so dumb today, can somebody come and save me!? Haha, anyhoo to make a long story short, Violet thinks she looks like a transexual.. Whatever bitch..

Oh and and and, to all my girlfriends.. No seriously, I've gotten over him.. Not in denial anymore.. Haha, I'm so over it..

Gonna go look for myself a rich Italian basketball player with black hair and green eyes, hopefully someone who drives a hot Lamborghini..

I'm stupid today, ignore me!

I need a playa from the hood, yaw!

Bleahness of major projects! Can you freaking believe it? My supervisor actually told me to redo my-already-90%-done car model.. Does he know how long i took to do that thing?!! Okay, probably just a week or so, but please it's a week or so of pure torture! Seriously, I'm being a goody-two-shoes here by not going for lunch and trying to finish up the design before judging begins in 2 weeks time! Now, i have to redo all the things, the shape, the details, the groove, EVERYTHING!! Bleah, contact me if you're terribly awesome at pro engineering and help me model my car for me, I'll pay you, for sure!!

Anyhoo, trying to hard to avoid the fact that i haven't been blogging for like weeks!! Haha, i was reading XiaXue's blogspot when i suddenly felt an itchy urge to blog.. Bleah me people, seriously.. I'm just full of random thoughts right now.. Ha, I'm on MSN chatting to Joel while he's packing up and having breakfast at the same time.. Ha, he's still moving to the same area.. SO WHAT'S THE POINT IN MOVING THEN!? Bleah him!! Haha.. I apologized to all my loyal readers for not posting anything okay..

Believe it or not, there's still some inconsiderate creatures residing her on earth, all over Singapore even! Gah! I know i seldom complain, yeah right haha, but i mean this kinda idiocy shouldn't be tolerated at all! Pardon me for being so ignorant by not explaining what the freaking hell I'm bitching about.. I'm talking about those passengers already on board a crowded bus.. I mean, i think it makes perfect sense to move in to the rear of the bus so that other people can board the bus.. If you're not someone who use your common sense, there's like signs everywhere telling you to move in! Can't you even read??! Please, i can't believe stupid people still exist.. Okay so, maybe some people are superbly illiterate, which in some cases totally understandable.. But they can't be deaf, can they?? Bleah, every freaking morning i have to bear with public orgy, strangers with horribly bad body odour and bus driver shouting for the passengers to move in to the back of the bus.. Not only then, some perverts trying to take advantage of the occasional bumpings and grindings!

You know what else peeved me, the fact that some people don't even have the basic courtesy to bathe in the morning! Goodness! Messy dandruff filled hair, smelly armpits and oh my goodness, didn't even brush their teeth.. What the hell with all these people! Sorry to say but most of those people that usually do this kinda filthy and tragic habits are immigrants.. I think Singapore should have one new law.. "To enter Singapore, you have to atleast bathe once a day to take public transports!" Okay, I'm being lame but seriously! How can they stand not bathing one whole day!? Oh, and haven't they heard of cologne!! Bleahness of the idiots..

Oh by the way, i just realized something.. There is no such thing as paranormal disappearance or alien kidnapsion (a combination of the words kidnapping and invasion, but bleah you guys should probably know that by now!). Haha, long story believe me..

Woohoo! I can't wait for 15th December! A group of friends and me are going ice skating on the day to celebrate Shelly's 20th birthday and Arynne's (that's me!) 21st birthday! Haha, bleah i can't skate for my life but i can roller blade though.. I only went ice skating like ONCE and it totally sucked.. Anyhoo, it's gonna be fun seeing them fall on their cute little bums.. Everyone reading this, you're invited to join too provided you bring presents! No presents, no skate! Haha.. See how thick skinned i can be! Shameless Arynne!

I bought skinny pants.. Amy's not liking hers as much cause the pants doesn't hug her legs like Violet's, Sally's and mine! Tee hee, well actually we bough SUPER skinny pants, gah me! I bought black and blue, Violet bought maroon, Amy and Sally bought black.. Next colour: probably purple! Haha.. Weirdly, i don't dare wear skinny pants cause I'm like bottom heavy.. Tyra Banks and Beyonce are my skinny pants role model! Haha, since they say it's okay so i guess you just have to have the confidence to carry it, and i know i sure as hell have that!

Anyway, i miss him and i think he knows that.. Not gonna tell you guys who..

Abrupt end of today's post!

A little paranoia goes a long way..

Let's start this post with a little fun fact about me.. Right now, at this very moment, I'm wearing two bras.. Haha, i know it sounds weird but the black bra I'm wearing does not fully cover my assets.. I don't know why,lol.. Maybe it's high time that i change the cup size of my bra.. Whatever, do i sound perverted right now? I don't think so right, cause I'm talking about my own body.. Though i think, most probably I'm attracting perverted old men with all these posts.. Haha, whatever..

Anyhoo, I'm supposed to update my blog a few days ago but everytime i start on that particular topic, it makes me cry.. Please don't ask me why, but i very  much like to thank Amy, Az and Herman for listening to me moan and bitch about that very trivial but serious matter.. Lol, I'm contradicting myself again.. Anything man!!

Well what is this topic about? I'm not gonna tell you, infact I'm not gonna tell anyone else.. Just the three of them know is already enough! Too much people knowing about it, the higher chances that particular guy will know my predicament.. Well, I'll talk to Mikael and complain to him about my problems but he has stopped calling me.. Call me paranoid, but i think he's avoiding me.. Oh well.. Anyhoo, i still miss him..

As you know, SOME people can be such blabbermouths (not particularly hinting at anybody).. Let's just keep it shut.. Peace my peeps.. Haha

Yes yes, i know this post was probably a waste of my blogging space which can be used for much more important stuffs, like for example talking about me! Lol, or just bitching about bitches who thinks they're too hot to handle but apparently not.. Pfft, do i make sense? Kudos to those who understood.. Haha

So this post is to basically remind everyone to think of me even though i may be too busy to entertain anyone.. Well, unless you're my other two group members or my supervisor, it's gonna be very hard to get my attention nowadays.. Haha

But, seriously i just want to tell you guys that i didn't forget you all and that you're in my mind every second of the day..

So let's mention a few names so that you know I've been missing you guys a whole lot.. Violet, Sally, Belle, Amy, OJ, Shelli, Az, Herman, Tsaelah, Reychelyy, Lynn, Mikael, MariaLey.. Once again, i just wanna say that I've missed you guys alot alot alot..

Haha, and dear friends, ILOVEYOU!!!

No fancy colours, or style.. but still love you guys!

Just tonight you'll be mine and it's gone..

Wowz! How long has it been since i last updated my Friendster blog? Haha, i know it's pathetic but I'm just too lazy to create a blog in blogspot or blogdrive or any other blog domain.. Used to update my multiply blog but oh well too bad, i don't use that thingy anymore..

Anyway, add me in Facebook k! Lol, Friendster kinda sucks.. *oops haha* >>http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=521708226<< there, my url for Facebook or just add me >>beautiful_nitemare@hotmail.com<<

Haha, well.. The reason why I'm updating my blog right now is because I'm having my break and well, it's the only time when i can surf the net.. *1 hour only boo hoo!*

Ha, I'm having my MP/SIP now and it's like a real working experience cause you are given a project and you have to work on it with your team mates for the coming 19 weeks or so.. Argh! Can you imagine, sitting infront of the computer from 9am to 5:30 pm and not doing anything except research, designing and other such lame ass activities that you only do at a job you totally hate?! Yes! My predicament everyone.. Pfft, so frustrating don't you think so? Okay so I'm babbling shit right now, most probably because i don't have a good sleep.. I slept at around 2am and i have to wake up for school, bright and early at 5:30am.. Lol, i don't think it's even bright.. Still dark, VERY dark indeed.. Pfft..

Well, anyway.. BOO to everyone who wasn't at DXO to support all those ass-rocking bands.. Haha, well of course i came to support Piece De Resistance (PDR) but hey, there's a couple of bands who i think i may grow to like.. Like Valentines Letter.. Seriously local bands lover, check them out.. They'll rock your shoes right off your feet.. LITERALLY! Haha..

Here's a lame but definitely a story to tell.. Well, i was wearing this checkered pumps to the gig and it was perfectly alright *ask Violet, she'll vouch for me* but after the gig, the freaking shoe tore from the seams.. Seriously, i didn't realize i was walking in Marina Square with a torn shoe, i only realize it when i was already in Yishun waiting for Amy's bus number 858 to come.. Pfft, well hopefully nobody saw! Haha..

Anyways, about the gig.. PDR was fucked! In a good way that is.. They totally rocked.. Haha, i was so excited when they sang their second song 'Scaretactics' cause that's my favourite of all! All songs are original mind you, no rip-offs.. Well, what can i say.. They not only rock as a band but individually too! Haha..

Bloopers-filled band, but still managed to get it together.. "Hey you guys, you know it doesn't matter if you guys miss your singing cue, skip a beat while drumming or dropped a note while strumming on that guitar.. It's rock, you should have fun.. If it's perfect, you're gay!" Yes, I'm quoting someone but hey, it's true isn't it.. Haha.. Rock shouldn't have rules and rock definitely is not perfect.. So yeah, don't be nervous, have fun and most importantly just rock! Haha..

Well how good are they? I didn't throw a chair at them and i can't stop banging.. Lol, i think Amy was irritated cause i was sitting beside her and she was trying to take a video of the band.. Haha, hilarious antics they have on stage.. Lol.. From OJ's volume misery, to Min's embarrassing 'discoveries' and of course to Musa's outrages performance.. It worked out totally in the end..

Well, we left after Valentines Letter's performance cause i don't wanna stay for those Ninja Kids' performance.. Haha, don't ask me why i can them Ninja Kids.. If you were there, you will know *bluek*!

After we left DXO, we went to Marina Square cause i promised Mikael to drop by and say hi.. We were supposed to head to Beach Road for our dinner but of course my beloved girlfriends decided to eat at Pizza Hut, where Mikael was working his shift, cause they heard that Mikael will give us discounts and free stuffs.. Haha.. Well, atleast i can get to look at that eye-candy Mikael longer..

Tick tock tick tock, it have been 2 years since i last saw Mikael.. Wowee, that long huh?! I don't know, somehow he looked different.. More radiant, maybe because he's happy being in love.. Haha, don't know man.. Whatever it is, he looked good.. Haha

So after our meal, we were tremendously stuffed.. I think i can hear the zipper of my pants popped.. Lol, okay not really but you get the idea.. Mikael decided to 'surprise' us with desert.. Haha, blueberry cheesecake with strawberry ice-cream.. Whhhaaat?! Lol, those two are my most favourite desert ever, how am i supposed to say no!!?! Lol, i think he's trying to make me gain weight again.. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.. Anyway, i loved the cheesecake.. Haha, damn OJ for opening up his big mouth!!

"Ina, tu dia bagi kau cheesecake tu!" OJ said.. Weyy!! Watch your mouth okay.. Haha, no but seriously Mikael was being nice.. Lol, i have never seen him this shy before.. EVER..

"Is he ALWAYS this soft-spoken?", my girlfriend asked. "Soft-spoken!? I think he's shy.. haha", i replied. Lol, i think i may have snuck in a couple of flirty stares at him, or more.. haha.. Damn, he looked good! I ain't denying that.. Haha..

Anyway, after the food we decided to go home of course.. It was nearly 10pm.. Pfft.. How long do we need to eat a slice of pizza!! Haha.. "I think we better make a move before he keep stuffing us more with free stuff", Amy said.. Of course that 'he' she was referring to was Mikael.. Haha, took the bill, paid and left.. Haha, yes LEFT after saying BYE to Mikael.. Very rude right me! Lol, i was shy okay.. Seriously don't ask me why, i keep blushing everytime i look at him.. "Arynne and shy doesn't go together", Violet HAPPILY commented.. Haha, pathetic i know..

Well, of course i u-turn back to Pizza Hut to formally say bye bye to him.. He asked for forgiveness as it's the hari raya month.. And he wanted to take a picture with meee!! "NooooOO!!", i was thinking.. Haha, i look so tired, stuffed and feeling so flirty.. Haha.. Okay, stop it! But eventually i took a picture with him.. We said bye, and he gave me a hug.. Lol, i may have stopped the time for a whole one to two seconds.. Haha.. Taking in the moment, which may or may not come ever again..

So, i went back to my friends and guess what?! My tears suddenly rolled.. I don't know why or how it happened, but i was suddenly crying.. Wootz, i can't believe I'm admitting it on my PUBLIC blog.. Haha.. Maybe i did too much mistakes to him.. Hmmz, i guess i should start atoning for my sins.. Haha..

K lah, it's nearly 1pm here.. So i think i better get back to my research.. PUHH!!

*Sorry, no fancy colours or style today.. I'm too lazy! Haha*