An escape from the Afterlife

Argh! Okay, I've been writing this post for 3 times over and over again! Haha, cause everytime i try to backspace on something, the stupid explorer went Back instead. Gah technology!

I don't hate technology, i just think that sometimes technology is more of a hindrance! Haha

Okay, that's not my point in writing this post.

I think I've been talking about myself too much that i think it's time for me to put the spotlight on some of my fans! How does that sound to you? Haha!

Below are some of the fanarts that never fails to grab my attention! I'd like to thank them for taking some time off from their hectic schedule just to make me smile! Appreciate it lots people!

By my one and only Yusuf Gates! Loves the drawings he made for me! Look at it, don't you think he captured it well? Haha, or maybe I'm being biased! But well, i really do love the drawings Yusuf! Thanx alot! Now, not only does Avenged Sevenfold have their own drawings, SO DO I!! Tee hee!

Miin! Haha, i made him one of this.. See my profile for prove! Took him a long time to reply but hey babe, it's the thoughts that counts! Haha, thanx hun for the fan sign! I love it!

The Emo dude from Malaysia, Ian! Haha, the story began with me playing with his Pocket Emo Pet on his Friendster profile! And then he added me in his friends' list! Haha, the rest is kinda predictable don't you think? Hmmz, he call me 'Si Comel', which just means Cutie! Haha, i still owe him one! Tee hee!

The girl from Switzerland who originates from Philippines, Chaela! Haha, i used to have a crush on her cause she's just so cute! Don't you think so? Look at the lips! Sexay! Haha! She's a great friend and a great person at heart! ILY Babe!

Below is a poem from Adit! I think it's sweet that i become the motivation for one of his poems!

In Poetry Of Skin
"Why I'm nice, of course " said she, and laughed.
And her eyes were onyx glass.
"I'm nice," said she, and curled her mouth
And my throat was paper grass.
"I'm nice," said she, the little queen
As is established well."
"But who," said she, with lips a-pout
Should I my niceness sell."
"Who, which knave, which errant prince
What sensibility
Who, which fool, which lordly grace
which serendipity"

And she laughed her laugh and slowly said
"But who really knows these things.
Once night is done, and life begun
Who knows what future brings."
Perhaps such thought have little use
Just dust written on air
Perhaps I wish for flesh and lips
For kisses in my hair"

She looked at me, those dark, deep pools
"Tell me smart tongued sire"
"What indemnity should I propose"
"What should be my desire"
And in answer I did draw her close
My arms and legs akin
"Let me say," said I to her
"In poetry of skin"

Another featured fan is of course, Sophia! Haha, well I'm actually using this opportunity to promote her latest single, Jack and Jill! Haha, but the song IS dedicated to me so, she definitely have a space for my featured fan list! Thanx Sophia and Azuel! Tee hee

click here to listen.

Once again, i wanna say thank you to all fans! I really love you guys so much! I can smile off my bad day just by looking at your fanarts and fan signs!

Criss Irwin, Endika Vengeance and Sayangku Zack! You three owe me a song each! Haha

You think it's over but it's just begun

Just when i thought things couldn't get any worse, it got worse!

Haha, forget about the two retarded guys that i talked about below this post.. The worse have happen people, I've finally run out of ideas to critic about! Lol, not as serious as it sounds.. I guess I'm just too busy to think about stuff that doesn't really affect the world.. Though i do have good gossips in my blog, if i can say so myself.. Tee hee..

To be honest, I'm kinda lazy to update cause everything happened at the same time and then when i finally have time to write about it, something new happens.. You get what i mean? Anybody have that kinda problem before? Haha, didn't i say I'm doing an open call? Where are all the topics for me to bitch about!!?? Lol, not as interesting as mine i guess.. Haha, just kidding my beloved fans.. You know i love you for reading about my stagnant life in my half dead blog.. Haha..

I'm just updating so you people won't think that i already forget about you all.. NEVER OKAY! I'll never forget my friends!

Let me start off by thanking a couple or more people.. First of all, to you all who's reading this right now.. Yeah YOU! Thank you for reading.. I feel so loved! Haha..

Next of course, to Arun! Lol, first he taught me how to put a tagboard in this lameness of a blog, and then I audaciously asked him for another favour.. Thanx Arun for the Avenged Sevenfold songs you sent me! Haha.. Have you listened to them yet? Go listen!! Haha.. Hmmz, probably not your type yah! But hey, there's no harm trying something new!

Next on the list! Yusuf Gates! My very fervent reader! Arynne loves you! *cooed* Haha, never have someone manifest openly about his or her love of reading my blog to me! Thank you Yusuf for checking your email everyday just to see if I've updated my blog! Tee hee, you're the best fan a girl could ever have! And thanx for listening to my complaints every single day! Oh oh, and the drawings!! Go check out my photo gallery for the drawings he drew of me! I simply adore it!

Hmmz, who else should i thank..

Oh yah Isk! Haha.. HolyLeo's friend! Lol, i don't think he's reading but still! Thank you for the advices of course! He's the only person who tell me to do something by explaining and giving me the most sensible reason ever! Tee hee, appreciate it much!

Oh oh! Haha Chris! That Canadian cutie with the hot lips that i met from Facebook! Haha, he calls me his "Cute lil' bum" Tee hee, well let's just say he makes my imagination work a little bit.. Lol, it's mutual though.. Though he having a girlfriend and the fact that he's only 16 make me seem like a hoe, who cares! Haha..

Eric! Lol, that cute nerd in the glasses! Smart too i must say.. Haha, he's fun.. I met him from Facebook too! Imagine chatting for 7 hours or so from Monday to Friday kinda and still having lotsa things to talk about, without anything sexual at that! Isn't it fun!? Haha.. I have to be in the project lab by 8:30am, which ends at 5:30pm! Wow, how bored can i be but Eric accompanied me the whole way! Tee hee, thanx Honey Bear!! Haha.. And he calls me Sugar Bear! *Grins widely*

Gah, enough! Lol, nothing between us though.. We just happen to be two very single people who loves each other's company..

Haha, okay enough of the thanks giving! Goodness, being nice and thankful is a tiring job! Lol, just kidding.. I mean every word i said okay!

Wey hoo! Sooo let's start! Haha..

Chinese New Year is around the corner so i would like to wish all your Chinese readers "Gong Xi Fa Cai!" Lol, sorry if i misspell anything.. Don't forget to give me Hong Baos  okay!! *Smiles innocently!*

Wee, i can't wait for 7th and 8th February 2008! Lol no, not because I'm celebrating Chinese New Year! Finally, after so long! I'm gonna leave Singapore to go on a holiday! Wee, Sibu Island (in Johore!) here i come!!!

Gah! I'm so lazy to update.. Haha, I'll bring up the other topics another day! *Bluek!*

Another retarded guy

So, let me make this clear.. Haha, have i not mention in my post that i already think i'm ugly?? Like, not once, not twice but more than a dozen i think..

Yah? Didn't i tell you people that i'm ugly.. So what's your purpose in telling me that i'm ugly? Haha.. Seriously.. TELL ME SOMETHING I DON'T KNOW DAMMIT!

So here's another one of those guy with an unfinished conquest!

Email address: johan89_brd@hotmail.com

MusiC is in Me says: kimek arh flirtish...
MusiC is in Me says: muke mcm bapok sak
MusiC is in Me says: kau pondan erhk??
MusiC is in Me says: step tunjok tetek...
MusiC is in Me says: burok sak kau...seriously...

I wonder what's up with all these malay guys pretending to be hot stuff.. Haha someone explain to me please?

Some retarded guy

Here goes.. Haha i was talking to this guy in msn.. and he went all berserk when i don't wanna be his fren..

I just think since he wanna be so famous, i'll just make him famous since i know people do read my blog! haha

his email add: sulaimanidros179@hotmail.com

VR Boy says: so u want to be enemy come and be enemy
VR Boy says: face me!!!1
VR Boy says: well stupid mlys go and learn to be nice wth ppls 1st b4 we nice to u all mlys the population of mlys are now bad.... bodoh punye mly sial punye mly!!!!!! you bitch!!!!! waste my time talkin to a bitch like you you all mly girls cant make frens or wife only can use 4 sex that's all coz u all are a flirt flirt like u ur husband always go geylang while u at hm
VR Boy says: bye!!! bitch!!!

There you go.. Whatever yah, haha doesn't affect me one bit, and he keep thinking that i was angry..

Believe me, if i'm angry.. It'll be real.. Ask my friends :)

You had my heart, atleast for the most part

A good friend once told me that his sister thinks that men don't grow braincells until they're 30, and boy how true..

Some of you, especially Sophia, may have noticed that there's a certain someone's name under my 'Loves' category in my Friendster profile..

Well, I'm not gonna mention his name here but I'm sure that alot of you already know about it.. If you go to my profile now and check it out, it's no longer there..

Here's why..

I just feel stupid having feelings for someone i have not met.. I hate thinking about him and having to worry about how he's been.. Sometimes it just feels like worrying about him is a full time job, the only difference is that i don't get paid for it.. I hate having to think what he's up to and everything..

I really have to say that long distance relationship is really not for me.. Here's what i know about long distance relationship..

One important factor is of course, communication.. 

Sadly to say, we don't communicate much.. Except for the first two weeks into it, then yeah he called me everyday and message me without fail.. After that, it just went downhill..

He won't text unless of course, replying to me.. And he seldom calls.. Of course, i don't blame him.. Overseas phonecalls are not cheap and i know he's busy with work and all.. But so am i.. Why izzit that i can spare 5 minutes to ask him how his day have been while he can't do the same for me?

Haha, here's the funny part.. I admit, i was cold towards him the first few days we get to know each other.. He told me, so i tried to change as he wants me to be more loving.. When i am, he calls me needy..

I don't mind all that, really.. But seriously even if i am needy, what's the problem? What's the point of having a boyfriend (since you call me your gf and all), when i can't be loving or act a little needy sometimes? Pfft never mind!

And another point is, trust..

I know i ought to be shot for saying this, but i don't trust him all that much.. Believe me, i have trust issues.. 

Probably it's because everytime i wanna be in a serious relationship with someone, he turned out to be a fucking jackass!

But then again, it's not all my fault.. Have you seen his female friends!? They look like fucking pornstars.. Hot with big boobs! Lol, yeah.. With the kind of lifestyle they have in UK and with what everybody have been telling me, i guess i kinda feel a little fucked up about it..

Maybe you can blame it on my paranoia but the way he's been treating me is different..

I told Sophia about our little argument the other time..

Sure there's something credible about what he said..
Him: I said i love you once, don't need to say it 50 times a day
But i mean come one! Here's my reply..
Me: u know.. sometimes a simple "how you doing" makes a hell lotta difference

I want somebody who appreciates me and treasures me.. I want somebody to protect me, somebody to show me that he really wanna be with me.. 

Gah! I know I'll be making a fucking big mistake if he turns out to be sincere but for now, I'd rather not be surrendering my whole heart to him..

But I'm not saying that I've never had feelings for him.. I did, hell, maybe i still do.. Ha, i have no idea why I'm talking about him..

He's probably no thinking of me at all.. Or whatever.. Jeesh!

Argh! Abrupt end.

Like me, mother fuckers you've been at it for too long

First of all, I'm not even gonna apologize for not updating my blog.. Why? Cause you all know how freaking busy i am..

Was fucking pissed at my fucking supervisor for asking me to redo the fucking car model after the fucking production.. Like, WHAT THE FUCK!?! You get what i mean? Okay, so i wasn't really mad at him, but i was fucking frustrated that he even fucking think about asking me to fucking redo that fucking model!

Lol, my groupmate Nic just pointed out how many f-words I've used in the last paragraph! Sorry about that young readers, i was just trying to convey my frustration during that time.. But I'm okay now :)

Wow, it's like already the third week of 2008 and guess what??

I'M AN OFFICIAL 2008 VIRGIN!!!

How? Slutty enough for you people now that i have aired my dirty laundry in public?

Lol, like seriously this year, I'm like a total innocent.. I've not hold hands, kissed, or even had sex with a guy.. Not even a girl! Haha, just kidding friends.. No, but seriously i have to say i kinda enjoy being a virgin! 

So, anyone wanna do the honour?? Lol, no thanx! I wanna wait for the special someone, whoever that person might be.. Might be you, you, or you.. Hey, whoever reading it, might be you too! Jeesh, I'm talking CRAP!

What's on the agenda?

I think i made too many overseas friends in Facebook that I'm neglecting my local friends in Friendster.. Lol, no.. I love both of you group of friends the same okay!

Of course I'd love you guys even more if you actually say HI to me when you bump into me outside, not just smile and act all shy.. Tee hee..

To all those who said hi, I LOVE YOU!

Haha, jeesh.. Can anybody buy me a Ed Hardy merchandise? Lol, okay ignore me! I'm just so lame today..

Okay so, I'm doing an open call.. Next time, if somebody want me to talk about some freaking topic.. You know, just wanna know my thoughts about something or anything, feel free to drop a suggestion on my Tagboard..

Lol, thanx to Arun of course.. Thanx to his tutorial on his blog, i manage to put up the most important thing in a blog.. Lol, please seriously, feel free to love me or hate me..

I'm not gonna care or bitch about people hating me, but.. Just that having haters make me more famous.. *so typical lol*

Which brings to the next agenda on my blog.. Haha, i feel like I'm in a meeting.. Bear with me people..

I have a feeling some of the Engineering chicks hate me.. Lol, i don't know why but everytime i walk beside them, they give me this one fucked up look.. Most probably cause i don't smile but hey, if you wanna be friends with me and see how friendly i can be.. JUST SMILE FIRST!

Don't be in your own stupid cliques and start talking bitch cause you have no idea what a diva i can be..

Well, I'm not saying that they're gossiping about me but what i meant was.. Don't act all sorority on me.. Please, don't treat me like one of those scene kids, cause honestly.. SCENE KIDS HAVE NO SELF-ESTEEM.

All this Hair-Core, Fashion-Core bull craps are nothing but labels.. If you people don't want other people to judge you, why label yourself? Make sense? Ha, whatever..

Wearing Fred Perry doesn't make me a Hardcore kid. Wearing eyeliner doesn't make me Goth. Hating My Chemical Romance doesn't make me a loser. Listening to Avenged Sevenfold doesn't make me a poseur.

GO FUCK YOURSELF!

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just a test!

Gave me your hand but realize I just wanna say goodbye

Well hello everybody! I'm sorry i have not been updating my blog.. Especially to Sophia, who have been coming here to check if there's any new gossips.. Lol..

Been super busy with my prototyping projects, as everybody already know that.. But then again, i guess being busy doesn't mean i can neglect my blog and my loyal readers.. Okay i tell you what, i will try to update as often as i can and try to revive my nearly dying blog.. Sounds good to all you fans?? Tee hee..

Actually, frankly speaking.. I have no idea what to write about.. I'm thinking of writing about XiaXue but lol, i hope it won't invite any unwanted attention.. Well, actually there's nothing bad i wanna say about her, since everybody knows she's like my blogging role model.. She's my Blogging Goddess..

Okay, let's just be brief then.. Here's what i think.. I think people who hates XiaXue either have something against brutal honesty or the fact that she has integrity.. You all get what i mean?

One thing i LOVE about XiaXue is that she's not afraid to tell people what she thinks even though, it can be a little offensive at times.. That is one thing i learn from XiaXue, and that is to be honest and straightforward about a particular topic that you wanna talk about..

It make sense right? What's the point of commenting about something if you don't wanna write truthfully.. 

Lol, i think that's why most of my friends got pissed with me whenever they read about themselves on my blog.. No seriously, when I'm not happy about something.. When i think somethings unfair, I'll say it out.. I'm not somebody who will keep her feelings to herself.. Say things that people wanna hear.. I am not like that at all.. Infact, i am the complete opposite of a people pleaser.. 

Well whatever it is, I'm sure you people already know that by now if you all have been following my posts..

Just in case you don't know or have not been following my blog, below are some points of which i have been writing about.. Lol, for more details PLEASE READ! *smile widely from ear to ear*

1) I HATE STUPID PEOPLE!
Well everybody knows that, that's why i HATE Paris Hilton.. IF she don't know that car runs on petrol, i don't even wanna think about what else she don't know..
Jessica Simpson too! Who the hell in the right mind would think Tuna is a chicken??
What's up with all these blondes?!

2) SMELLY FOREIGNERS SHOULD DIE!
When i meant foreigners, i meant those Bangladeshi, China people.. No offense cause this is nothing racist whatsoever but come on!! Take a shower once in a while you know.. Lol, my friends told me that they don't think they smell bad cause everyone of them smell the same.. But seriously, when everybody else around you look so fresh and smell as good as the flowers blooming, you have to think there's something wrong with the way you live right? Do you people agree with me or am i on my own on this? Lol, whatever.. I'm anti-bad smelling people! *smiles*

3) WEAK WOMEN ARE A DISGRACE!
Well, you all know that.. I think we women should stand up for our rights.. No, I'm not a feminist but i just hate for our kind to be bullied..

4) THERE IS MORE TO BGR THAN JUST SEX!
*enough said*

There you have it.. I know there's alot more but why spoil the fun when you can just read it.. Haha

Take care my lovelies!

Now that it's done, i've realized the errors of my ways

First of all, i wanna wish you all a Happy 2008 and may this year be better than the year before.. Bla bla bla, yada yada yada.. You all know the routine.. Pfft..

My purpose in writing this blogpost is to say thanks to those deserving people.. So, it will be a short one *Smiles*

Thanx Hazel for being my first cheek kiss in 2008!

Thanx Amy for being my first hug, the first person i see and my first present in 2008!

Thanx OJ for being the first voice i hear in 2008!

Thanx Violet for being my first laugh in 2008!

Thanx Paris and Shelly for being the first two hands i hold in 2008!

Thanx girls and guys for the awesomely rocking outing for the end of 2007 and the start of 2008!

And of course not forgetting..

Thanx Lynn for the first message i receive in 2008!

Thanx Paul for being my first smile in 2008!

And congratulations Paul for being the first person i think of and my first tear in 2008!

Nights coming fast, suns going down but keep away from me..

Here's the thing, i know i should reminisce about 2007 before the new year.. But then, it doesn't really matter cause i was super busy for the past few weeks that i didn't update my blog.. I hope it's not dying though cause i owe all my blogging inspirations from my ardent readers *smile*

Speaking of inspirations, I'm gonna rip this blog post off Sophia cause she listed down all her monthly adventures in one blog post to show what she was up to during the year 2007! Haha, hope you don't mind Sophia that i copied your idea, but it's super organized!

Well, below are the adventures or some lame random miscellaneous things i was up to with my girlfriends and others.. The outings below are not in dately order.. Haha

JANUARY
Outing: 
1) Girl's Shopping Outing with Sally, Belly and Violet.. I spent $200+ for 2 bags, 2 pants and 2 tops.

Miscellaneous:
1) OFFICIALLY become a Wentworth Miller Whore!!

FEBRUARY
Outing:
1) Largest family picnic EVER!

Miscellaneous:
1) Got screened by Police Officers while hanging out with my punk friends.. He thought i was 16!!

MARCH
Miscellaneous:
1) Recaps on Prison Break Season 1 THRICE!
2) I OD-ed on Prison Break!!
3) Poly exams and holiday

APRIL
Miscellaneous:
1) Went to the gym with Violet twice a week
2) Finally with Ryan!

MAY
Outing:
1) Airport chilling with Amy, Shelly, Violet and OJ
2) Billabong shopping trip with family

Miscellaneous:
1) HUGE argument with Mummy about religion
2) Start of a new semester in school (2.2)

JUNE
Miscellaneous:
1) Ryan's mom being a BITCH!
2) Had a secret admirer
3) FIRST and LAST lesbian crush

JULY
Outing:
1) 1st July Shopping Outing with Hazel, Amy and Violet
2) Violet's 21st birthday celebration at home

Miscellaneous:
1) Fought with Ryan, but made up the next day
2) TOO honest for my own good

AUGUST
Outing:
1) Newton Circus seafood outing with Shelly, Paris, Amy, Violet and OJ
2) Free movie outing with Amy and Violet

SEPTEMBER
Outing:
1) Puasa outing at Victory with Paris and boyfriend, Shelly and boyfriend, Violet and Amy and her friend
2) Fish & Co outing with Violet, Hazel, Abg Dy and his friend

Miscellaneous: 
1)Got my results!

OCTOBER
Outing:
1) PDR @ DXO
2) Pizza Hut outing with OJ, Amy, Violet and Shelly
3) Hari Raya outing with Paris and boyfriend, Shelly and boyfriend, Amy and Violet

Miscellaneous:
1) Met Mikael for the first time in 2 years!
2) Got to know Paul *in case you all don't know, I'm grinning right now.. haha*
3) Start of a new semester (MP/SIP 3.1)

NOVEMBER
Outing:
1) Carl's Jr outing with Amy, Shelly and Violet

Miscellaneous:
1) Got irritated by smelly foreigners in the bus
2) Got to know Joel
3) Got to know Sophia *she gorgeous yaw!*
4) Got to know Fyna

DECEMBER
Outing:
1) MY 21st birthday celebration at Earl's Swenson with Amy, Belle, Violet, Sally and Hazel
2) Ice skating outing at Fuji Ice Palace with Paris and boyfriend, Shelly and boyfriend, Amy, Hazel and Violet
3) Vivocity/Sentosa Amazing Wheelchair Race with Paris and boyfriend, Hazel, Shelly and Violet
4) Banquet outing at Harbourfront Center with Paris and boyfriend, Hazel, Violet, Shelly and Amy
5) New Year's Eve outing at Old Parliament House Padang with Paris and boyfriend, Shelly and boyfriend, Violet and OJ, Amy and Hazel

Miscellaneous:
1) Bought Freshkon Alluring contact lenses and FreshLook green contact lenses
2) Got to know HolyLeo
3) Fall out with Mikael
4) MISSES PAUL!

So there you go, my mischiefs in 2007!