Gahness

Present hunting for people till up to September.

Better start surveying now so i can save up enough to buy them all a good present.

Love you all to pieces.

I'll be your dream, i'll be your wish, i'll be your fantasy

I used to dream about a knight in shining armour riding his white horse to sweep me off my feet. But in my dreams, my knight wasn't in an armour but an Armani suit and his white horse is a Red Lamborghini Gallado Nera.

I know right, expensive taste.

The thing is, i'm not like that at all. Of course i will NEVER reject such lifestyle but i'm very realistic. Even though i love money, i'm actually a very simple girl. My cousin told me that i'm very picky when it comes to guys, that's why i haven't found someone yet.

It was a slap in the face cause it's not true at all.

Despite popular beliefs, for me, how a guy look don't matter. I don't care if people don't like the way that guy look, all that matters is that i like looking at him. He doesn't have to be Wentworth Miller gorgeous or as hot as M Shadows, he just have to be presentable looking with really gorgeous eyes.

Think Henry of Accounting from Ugly Betty. He's cute in a nerdy kinda way. Really nice eyes and most importantly, really smart.

I prefer guys with big brains than with a big penis. But of course, a combination of both will not be rejected. Haha, just kidding.

I don't know, i just want someone to make me happy. Make me laugh and just allow me to be my quirky self. Someone who's not afraid to disagree with me and someone to talk to. Someone who respects and share my hardcore straight edge lifestyle, someone who don't cheat and someone caring.

He don't have to shower me with expensive gifts. All he have to do is be himself and get me to have this feelings. Indescribable feeling. The fluttering in the stomach, the warm feeling in the heart and make me go on a giggling frenzy.

I don't think that's too much to ask. Maybe there's something wrong with me. I sometimes think that i'll never find my happiness.

Maybe, maybe not. We shall see.

I rock and you know it.

If i hear anyone talk bad about my cousins, my friends or me, i will tear your fucking ego apart.

Just like what happened to the PAKCIKS (old uncles) at the canteen. *smiles*

Current background photo

Alex Meraz, one of the Wolfpack for the New Moon movie.

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I was bored and was in Tagged and has lots of Gold. So i decided to put myself in the Top 8 Featured User of the site.

Then this happen.





P/S: As i'm doing this right now, emails are still pouring in. HELP.

Emo on a rainy day

Looking for someone you love is easy, but finding someone who truly loves you, takes an entire lifetime.

The Super-Awesome Team Of Rad Girls... NOT!

Mummy told me to learn swimming when i was a child. I refused cause i hated the way the squishy mud feels on my feet and the way they go in between my toes. I also hated the fact that i can't have my two feet firmly on the ground.

Yes, i freak out when i can't have my feet on the ground. It makes me feels unsafe and insecure.

Anywayz, the decision is finally coming back to haunt me.

Girls, i know we're truly disappointed for not being able to go ahead with the competition and experience but i'm sure we can come up with something too.

Pastamania outing? Paintballing? Kite flying? Cafe del Moar-ing? HAHAH

Anywayz, i still love the name. So i say we stick to it! Hehe

P/S: I have just been appointed The Super-Awesome Team Of Rad Girl's treasurer. Hmmmz could have something to do with the fact that i have like $100 with me now (supposedly to be for the competition but now, they're planning for a chalet), or also the fact that i'm with the accounts department. GROWL.

Sony Ericsson phone sucks.

The Sony Ericsson phone i'm using right now sucks eggs. Seriously!!

Yeah, the Agency department's network is pretty weak, but atleast my Nokia phone can still pick up the signal for me to sms and call.

But this phone. PFFFTT

Note to self: Throw the Sony Ericsson phone in the gutter along with my Nokia phone on the way home.

Yahoo me bitches!

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So apparently, as i was bored, i tried to Yahoo myself. So i typed in Arynne to see how many Arynnes there are in this world.

As i was typing Arynne, Yahoo gave me suggestions to my very own online names. HAHA, how awesome is that.

P/S: There's an Arynne under the Bipolar support group. HAHA

XxxX

Amidst the fights, the laughters and the tears, i fell in love.

Someone said i need to grow up.

Robbie said i'm a self-centred egoistical spoilt bitch and that i need to grow up. He also said, "bout time someone told you to get off that high horse".

But think about it. If someone can't solve a petty argument by being reasonable and starts insulting, and in return blame someone else for being petty, which one of them is the one who needs to grow up?

You all be the judge, i'm not even gonna pin point anything cause i don't wanna care anymore. You think i'm a bitch? I'll show you a real bitch.

Anyway, my graduation ceremony was awesome. I know i promised pictures, but i'll try to upload some of it by tonight.

Love you all for wishing me a congratulation for my graduation. Love you all even more for being with me every step of the way.

Hmm, this inspire me to write a speech. HAHA, look out for it lovelies!

XxxX Whoop Whoop XxxX

Guess what people!

The time has finally arrived. Tomorrow is my graduation ceremony. I wonder if everyone's coming. Oh well, Nic isn't coming cause he's got field camp i think. Darn the army! HAHA.

Well Nic is one of my groupmate. He's the one who always tell me, "Even if you go down, atleast it's with honor" HAHA. Yeah, he's really fun.

Yes Nic, i still owe you chicken rice. When you book out, you call me, i cook for you okay! Hehe

Well, i'll see you girls tomorrow! Love ya!

I believe...

.... that all arguments/misunderstanding/fights can be solved.

We just need to get our priorities straight. In this very topic, your priority is me and mine, you. You left last night feeling good, so did i, so keep it that way.

That post was done when we were having our argument, which i believe we have tried to made it work. So don't start again, please.

Sometimes...

.... i wonder why i even try.

No matter how much i sacrificed something, open up or even the little things i do, it's never appreciated.

So tell me again, why the fuck am i even trying.

Nyaha!

HELLO VALERIE!

Loves

Bought new shoes









Satay satisfaction (the guy is my guitar guru; Uncle Joe)

haha

HI ROBBIE.

Boo thinks i'm sexy, haha but i think he's the sexy one.



Wuv you boo XxxX

ARGHHH

I'M HAVING LIKE THE BIGGEST CRISIS WITH MY SKIN RIGHT NOW!! I WISH I COULD JUST PEEL THIS SKIN AND LET NEW SKIN TAKE OVER.

FUCKED UP SINGAPORE WEATHER!!

I see through your eyes, all that you did was love

It's 10th of May everyone! You know what that means, MOTHERS DAY!

First of all, i would like to wish all mothers a Happy Mothers Day, may your live be filled with more happiness and proud moments.

No matter how much we hate to admit it, mums do have the tendency to ruin our lives during the first half of our childhood and dating life. I remember how my mum forbid me to have guys calling at the house so i have to sneak the calls in my room or use my mobile phone.

Thank goodness my incoming calls were free.

I used to get nagged for the smallest things. And no matter what right or wrong i do, Mummy is always pointing out the bad points.

I used to hate my mum for controlling my life. Even though i used to go home straight after school, read in my room, there's still something wrong that i did in her eyes.

It's frustrating even to not have your mum there all the time when you're growing up and you look around, everyone's so happy with their mums. It's a sad environment to grow up in, yeah but i can't really blame her for always being missing when i need her there.

No matter what happened, i still love my mum to death. No matter how much she tried to ruin my life, i still care for her.

I know that everything she did, and put me through is for me to develop myself as a person. As someone with values and principles. For that Mummy, i thank you.

I thank you for making me the person i am today. I thank you for sacrificing your time and needs just to meet mine. I thank you for every little thing that you do, that i am never appreciative for. Thank you for the meals, the house and the clothes, and the money you have spent on me just to let me achieve my dreams.

I love you Mummy, more than you ever know. I know i sometimes say i wanna live with Daddy and never come back again, but you know i never mean that I can never leave you Mummy, i can never lose you.

From the bottom of my heart, i say this one more time. I love you to death, and i'll do anything to make you happy.

Valerie, you're forgiven. Hehez!

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BORED

I'M FUCKING BORED. haha

*speechless*

After all the things they helped with the country, this is how you repay them? America's fucked up man. Seriously

P/S: I don't care if it's rude to say that, they're truly fucked up
P/P/S: Keep your fucking opinions to yourself.

*yanks* *cursed*

Haha, what the hell is my title all about? Let me tell you this, i broke my fingernail yesterday.

I know i know, nothing new.

Well, i broke my fingernail yesterday, but the thing is, it broke at the skin area. Yeap yeap, i though i'd just ignore it cause eventually the nail will grow longer and then i can just cut the tip off, you know what i mean? Instead of painstakingly trying to get the nails off the skin.

Boy, was i wrong. I guess it got caught on MattSanders and Mr Doraemon or whatever cause it broke even more and was eating into the skin underneath my broken fingernail.

Well, i went to the toilet to pee, haha, and the nail kinda got caught on my shorts while i was pulling it down. I screamed! It hurts so bad, so i looked at it. It was kinda hanging, like with only the piece of skin holding it intact.

So when i got out from the toilet, i kinda tried to clip it with the nail clipper but i ended up clipping my skin instead. So i thought, "what the fuck, i'll just yank it out".

It took me three tries to fully pull the fingernail off. I guess i was being a pussy the first two times cause i thought it will hurt so bad. So the third time, i took a deep breathe, close my eyes and just pull it out with all my energy. It started to bleed a little, so i kinda poured this Axe Brand Oil on it.

Stupid thing to do, really. It burns like fuck.

"FUCKKKKKKKKKK, SHIT SHIT SHIT.", that's what i shouted, in the middle of the night. I was just cursing for like 5 minutes before my finger went numb. Then i cursed some more cause i can't feel my finger. After that, it started to pulsate a little. Which then, i calmed down and went back to sleep.

Haha, yeap. I still have the fingernail, with the skin attached to it. Wanna see? Haha, i'll let you all see for S$2 per peek! HEHE, kidding.

Anyone? :~blimey!

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I LOVE YOU MUMMY!

One of my presents for my mum is to post her in my blog. It's just gonna be one of those post i'm going to have for mothers since Mother's Day is coming on the 10th May, Sunday and her birthday falls on 12th May, Tuesday.

She wouldn't know i'm sure but i want to show everyone how lovely my mum is when she's not nagging. Haha, just kidding.

The picture was taken on 12th December 2008, Friday, in the Konsortium Express holiday bus on our way to KL. I know that's not a good picture of me. I look tired (what do you expect, we need to wake up early in the morning and i can't sleep at night cause i was so excited for the trip) and chubby (i have no idea why i look chubby in this picture, but i like my cheeks though, just not the nearly-there double chin) but i love how my mum was attempting to kiss me and we both look like we're having fun.

Do heart the picture and comment on it!

P/S: I love my mum to death even though she gets on my nerves sometimes.
P/P/S: See Chris, i told you i have bad pictures of me too! HAHA

Miss my lovelies!

I miss my girlfriends so very much!

Norehan, Noorasikin, Siti Suhaili, Nurhannah, Nurhaslinda, Nurhasni. HAHA, sorry, had to do it! The temptation of using your full real name has finally gotten to me.

Well they did say the only way to resist temptation is to give in to it. HEHE

Anyhoo, i still owe all of you an Ah Chew Dessert treat.

P/S: I WANNA GO TO THE DIRT BIKE EXHIBITION!!

To whomever it may concern

BEING UNROMANTIC DOESN'T MAKE ME UNFEELING OR A PLAYA!

Just a random thought on a Monday night

Surveys shows that men cheat more than women.

Maybe true, maybe not. I was just wondering, is it because men got caught more than women? I mean, come on, admit it. It doesn't show in any survey or any science experiment on which gender is most likely to cheat.

It doesn't mean if you're a man, you cheat more than a woman. It also doesn't mean that if you're a woman, you cheat any less than a man.

I think it comes down to who get caught the most.

Maybe men are more careless when it comes to hiding their evidences. As for women, we're more detail oriented, so that's why we take extra precautions if we ever did cheat.

I think, being female, we rely on our gut instinct more.

If we think our partners are suspecting something, we might stop the affair for a while and let things go back to normal. Our instinct also tells us if our significant other is cheating. Yes, all female have this so called 'power', we just need to listen to it more often.

Sometimes we're too caught up in the moment that we forget to listen to what our instinct is telling us, hence, stupid things happen.

In short, girls are more feelings-oriented than guys. That is why guys appear to be insensitive, when they're actually not. But then, that's another story for another time.

I'll try to stop sidetracking, and go back to my point. CHEATING.

Surveys also shows that men are more likely to cheat if they have this; CARS. Expensive cars, i might add. The same surveys also shows that they will see what type of cars the guys drive before they decide to be "the other woman".

Makes me wonder. Who's to blame?

We definitely can't blame the car, as it's an inanimate object, with no brains. Should we blame the guys for showing off their expensive cars? Should we blame the girls for being so cheap and materialistic?

A little bit of both, i should say.

Sure girls flirt with you, and your car or bike, and they may make some proposition which you can never refuse. But think about it, if the guys never really agree to the sexual advances of the girls, will the secret rendezvous happen?

Hmmmm, wonder indeed.

Clash of the graduations

So everyone knows that my graduation falls on the 20th May 2009, Wednesday. Who would have thought that my brother's graduation falls on the same day too!

Uh oh, i think we might have a problem.

So i have no idea which one my parents are going for, if they're going at all. Of course i want my parents to be at my graduation ceremony, and i'm sure my brother wants the same thing to.

What happens now? Haha, rock paper scissors? *grin*

Haha, nah, it's fine. If my parents wanna go to my brother's graduation by all means. I don't mind.

My poly mates are thinking of having dinner after the graduation. I guess why not, unless my girlfriends decide to come down and surprise me by waiting outside my school (or inside, either way) to have dinner with me on the proudest day of my life. *hint hint wink wink* HAHA

Yeah, either way, it's fine with me. Now the problem is, my outfit. My shoes, my bag, my hair, my make up. My speech. Haha, okay, no speech. I didn't really get 4.0 GPA.

But anywayz, i have no idea what to wear, how to do my hair, and my make up. I hope all my classmates are going though, i miss them lots. Yes, even the guys. HAHA though i don't really talk to the guys that much.

Yeah, come to think about it, 3 years in the same damned class as them, i know nuts about them. I have no idea what they're favourite colours are, when their birthdays are. Wow, it's true what i said then. I'm only in school to study and not to make friends.

Hehe, i sound like someone i will beat up.

Being friends with the girls is inevitable, really. We go lunch together, go out shopping together, insult other people together. But with the guys, the closest i ever get with them are when we're being put in the same project group together, and occasional lunching session.

That's about it. How sad.

Oh well, it's done anyway. No use reminiscing, it won't bring me back. Tee hee. I do love studying though, that's what i found out.

Well till then, see ya lovelies!

Am i awesome or what

And the Justin drama goes on.

First he sent me this. The little kitty is cute and all. I think he's trying to play on my soft spot. Whatever though. Haha (click thumbnail for bigger image)




Then he did this. (click thumbnail for bigger image)



P/S: Actually, i'm not mad anymore. I just like being a bitch.
P/P/S: Fafa, there you go, his picture. Haha, sorry for not sending it to you sooner.