30. Look back on this last month and talk about it.

There's really not much to talk about cause this month is pretty slow for me. 

I don't think we had a huge outing that is worth talking about. I mean, we had a small get together at my house but it's not one of those impromptu "oh lets stay out the whole night" kind of thing. 

Sikin and Rehan went to Kuala Lumpur so i am still waiting for my scarves. Haha 

Yeah, pretty much this month have not been THAT interesting. I've had a lot of interviews for job and everything. Phone interviews, countless. 

What else happened? 

Oh, Nomination Day was exciting. Now i have to wait for the speech for my area of vote. I got my polling card. It's my first time voting so i kinda feel a little bit nervous at the same time. It's a huge responsibility i think. Even though my vote is not the only vote, but it's kinda cool to know that my vote is gonna be part of what makes Singapore better, or worse, depending. Haha, but i have confidence Singapore is gonna survive anything. 

Well, maybe except nuclear attacks. Which i am happy to know that surrounding neighbouring countries are absolutely against us having a nuclear power plant in Singapore. I am thanking them for disagreeing to it. Haha

Yeah, sidetracked.

I told you, this month have been really slow for me.

Oh, we got free monies from the Govie, which is awesome. Questionably a move of integrity (or lack of) on their part, but hey, if they're willing to give us free money, we'll take it!

Yeah, i got my marshmallow chocolate fishes and chocolate pineapple bites, FINALLY. It's from New Zealand, so i guess that's why it took a little while to get here. It's awesome though, that it's finally here. Got a little smashed but it's still edible so i'm good. I can't stop munching the chocolate fishes, they're so good.

Of course, the highlight of my month was possibly watching The Royal Wedding. I watched it three freaking times just so i could look at Prince Henry of Wales. Yeah, i'm that bored. 

I'm assuming you guys had a better month than me, so tell me what you guys did. Have a lovely day all!

29. If you could be doing the same things you do now, only in your own way, how would a normal day in your life go?

Here's the thing. I woke up early today because both my mum and my brother was telling me to cook. So i got up, cooked, took a shower and spent the whole day watching The Royal Wedding.

Did you guys watch it anyway? The Abbey was gorgeous and majestic. The people have really fancy hats on, i liked it. Prince Harry, of course, looking as fine as always. Prince William looking very smart and manly. 

Did you see the dress Kate Middleton was wearing? Very sexy yet modest, classy and elegant at the same time. It was a beautiful dress for a very beautiful lady. 

Grand wedding too, but yeah, i'm not gonna go in details about the wedding since 3/4 of you guys probably watched it since that's all they're showing on television and live streams. 

So yes, back to the blog. 

Since i am not working right now, all i do at home is cook, clean my room. Look for a job mostly and blog. I don't know what to tell you guys. 

Haha, if it were up to me, i'd rather be writing articles for a magazine or something but i don't think i'm up to THAT level yet, so i'm just trying to write reviews and blog posts and everything. Who knows right? One day people might like my writing and offer me a job as a journalist or something. 

Right, i am not working at the moment, so i have a lot of time. 

I would actually much rather go to a third world country and help out. I wouldn't call myself a humanitarian but i just like helping people. 

But if you all want me to be selfish and answer something that will only benefit me, i'd like to go for a holiday. To Rome, back to Belgium and New Zealand. 

Maybe to London to meet Prince Harry. Haha


Have a lovely day, all!

Somewhere i belong.

Right, can't sleep at 3 in the morning and i have a lot of photos and quotes to work with. Why i came up with this? I have no idea. I think i'm just feeling a little bit off for the past few days. Haha, i actually really really miss New Zealand and the people there.

Credits:
Place: Somewhere in New Zealand, i can't remember WHERE exactly.

Picture: Taken by me,

Quote: I can't remember where i took this from, but it's from one of the tumblr sites.

Click on image for bigger view, please! :))

28. Would you rather someone tell you the truth up front but gently, or be lied to to spare your feelings?

Isn't this a huge old debate? 

I know some people would rather be lied to than having their feelings hurt. Makes me wonder about these people who don't mind being lied to. Do they lie too? 

Huh. Good question, don't you think? 

As for me, i'd rather be told the truth. Be it gently or smack-in-the-face truth. Sure, they say the truth hurts but finding out you've been lied to, kinda makes it a little bit more painful. 

I mean, if you don't care about who told you that lie, i guess it's okay but nothing hurts more than being disappointed by the people you thought would never hurt you.

They say treat people the way you want to be treated. I really do not like being lied to, that's why i always tell people what i honestly feel even though it might seemed a little mean at times. 

I feel like it takes too much effort to lie. You have to remember the lie, really. Then it'd be just lies after lies after lies. Don't you people get tired? Do you even remember what you guys say sometimes? 

For me, it's not what it's being said that pisses me off, it's just the act of lying. The lie itself doesn't bother me, it's the fact that someone would actually lie to me, as if i'm not worth the truth. 

Lets just put it this way, if people have the courage to ask you a question seriously, just have the courage to answer back the question honestly. 

Have a nice day, lovelies!

Most dangerous job.

If you think you have a sucky job, imagine having to do this.
Disclaimer:
Not for the faint of heart or for the people with phobia of heights. 

27. Is there a friend you are worried about? Why do they have you concerned? Do you think they’ll be okay?

Isn't this a sensitive issue for me to bring up cause it's ultimately not about me? It's who i'm worried about and even asked why i'm worried.

I mean, sure the question is directed to me, but i mean, it's really about some other people i'm gonna talk about here. I am not sure if i should answer this question.

I guess i should since i have already accepted this 30 days questions challenge. Who came up with these questions, seriously? I am gonna answer this but i am not gonna mention any names or any particular incident and things like that for obvious reasons. 


People might not like me talking about them in my blog. You know, some people don't like their dirty laundry publicized so i am just gonna talk about some things that i might be worried about, i guess.

Yeah, basically there are a couple of people i am worried about. I don't know if it's something serious but it could be if they let the things eat them up emotionally.

There are a couple of people i know who have really bad self-esteem issues and they're one of the most beautiful people i know. Not just in terms of looks, but also in their behaviour and mannerisms.

Sure, the attitude could maybe improve a little bit but they're overall very great people to be around with.

I find it really sad that they don't believe in themselves and that they even bring themselves down sometimes which i think is really unhealthy both mentally and emotionally. They just don't have confidence in themselves. It's worrying to see that and i can't do anything about it except remind them that there are a good person.

Also another thing that got me kind of worried is that they feel sad about things that they shouldn't care about. I know that it's a common thing but it's the self-blame that got me feeling really uneasy.

There was a point in time where i used to blame myself for everything that happened and i felt really worthless. I was pretty much in a depressive mood all the time and i didn't smile as much. That's why i tend to feel sorry for the people who does it.

There are really good people and i don't think they should let things around them to affect them that strongly, especially when it's not their fault. They know it's not their fault, but they still blame themselves for it and try to dig at all the things they did wrong. 

I don't know what to do about that cause all i can do is be there for them whenever they need someone to talk and just remind them that they have a good heart and that they shouldn't feel too bad if something wrong happened.

Okay, one more thing that really got me worried is when someone gets really desperate for attention. Wait, desperate could be a strong word but i mean, someone who wants to be in a relationship just because they're lonely. Beautiful girl, good mannerisms and smart but doesn't know what she deserves.

It's hard to talk to her about it cause we don't talk that much anyway. We used to tell each other everything though but i think it's because it's the teenage stage so now she doesn't want to share anything else with me. I sure hope she have supportive friends. 

There are more to be honest, but i don't think i can just sit here and talk about every single thing that worries me and not feel bad about the people i'm talking about. I think they're gonna be alright though cause they are a somewhat strong individual and have amazing friends who got their backs. 

Have a good day, lovelies!

26. Talk about a moment where you were truly happy. What was happening? Who were you with?

I know i say this a lot but i have a very blessed life. I am not boasting about it, i am just very content with everything i have. So with a great childhood, except the depressive moods phase, and all great outings i already have, it is pretty hard to pick just one moment. 

It's like when i feel that being in Disneyland was the happiest moment of my life, i also have the New Zealand trip which i absolutely loved. The trip to USS with the friends, just being able to travel and go all over the place. 

I have so many childhood memories of outings, picnics and birthdays that i can say was one of my happy moments. Being a child, there's not much things that you troubled by so it's not really that hard to be happy. 

Of course, i'm just saying this from how i was brought up, my childhood without mental, physical or sexual abuse. 

So i guess i am gonna pick a particular moment that doesn't involve being young and happy all the time. As a adult, we have so many problems and troubles to think about that makes being happy or feeling content really hard. So being happy without faking it gets a little rare sometimes when you're too into your thoughts. 

You know what, i should start telling myself that it's okay to just jump into the post instead of rambling on and on and on for the introduction. Haha, lets start anyway. 

The moment that i picked is probably the family outing to Sibu Kelong which happened in 2007. Wow, who would have thought it was that long ago. Don't get me wrong, i do adore all the outings i have with my family and friends but this is probably what jumps out to me the most. 

I was with my family, of course. A couple of friends and some close family friends. It's really not that fancy, cause it's a Kelong.

If you have no idea what a kelong is, it's this form of offshore platform built predominantly with wood and you usually find them in the middle of the waters. I think you can find them mostly in Malaysia, Indonesia and probably Philippines.

I wouldn't call it a resort cause it's hardly anything there. It's basically one big giant platform with huge bunk beds, a kitchen, a dining area and some toilets. You pretty much have to do your business in this toilet with just a hole on the ground and it's open to the sea. So yeah, pretty much you can tell when someone's in the toilet. Disgusting. 

It's pretty scary cause we're in the middle of the ocean and it's pretty much an abyss of dark waters and you can't see that far at night. There's not much to do cause we have to use a small boat to cater for island hopping. 

I know it doesn't really sound as fun but it was really a close encounter with nature. Just you, your family and the ocean. The family pretty much was always together cause the place isn't that big and we're always fishing together, eat together. 

The seafood feast were great. I liked it a lot and yeah, we did wonder where the fishes we eat came from since you know, our business were all dumped in the ocean and everything but i am gonna go with them having a fish farm specifically for consuming. 

We got a lot of fishes though, which is fun. We seat around and talk, joke around and play games. 

It was just a two days, one night thing but it was very fun. It was an experience of course. I am definitely spoilt when it comes to hotel rooms. I never been on a backpacker's hotel before or even a budget one. So being there with no toilets and no mirrors was an eye opening experience for me. 

It was memorable and enjoyable and i had lots of fun. 

I'm gonna give you all links to the pictures that we took during that trip, so feel free to look around. [Album one] and [Album two]

Have a nice day, lovelies!

25. What do you think it means to be a good parent?

I actually ask myself that question all the time. I mean, i obviously have no idea cause i don't have children, except dear daughter that i'm sponsoring but that's a whole different thing. 

All i can do for her is write letters to her and buy her some things. I don't think i'm really spoiling her since they're not exactly expensive things and i don't buy her things all the time. I only get her letter once a month or once in two months, depending on what's going on there. 

Aww, i miss her, i should write her another letter. 

Well, anyway, back to the question. What does it mean to be a good parent? 

This what i'm actually afraid of. I see all the people who are parents and whenever i see something bad about them, i'd promise myself to never do those things they do. I am so afraid that i'd be a bad parent to my future children. 

Honestly, i am still wondering what makes a good parents. 

I guess when they're still kids, it's not so much of a problem cause they haven't really have that much things to talk back about. I'm not saying that it's easier to deal with infants/toddlers, i'm just saying that it's easier to track where they are cause they are there, as compared to teenagers. 

With that said, i think it is up to us how our children turn out. Yeah sure, there are certain traits that the children are already born with, but how they treat other people and how they deal with things, it's all up to us. They learn from what we do, so i think firstly, to be a good parent is to really watch what you do in front of your kids. 

Don't spoil them, of course. This is something that i am really afraid of. I love kids, and i think i might get my future kids whatever they want. 

I think it's good to actually let your children make their own choices so they can learn the consequences of each other their choices, and at the same time be independent and intuitive. 

Oh my god, people reading this are probably thinking i talk a lot of crap. Haha only because i don't know what makes a good parent. I don't even know what you need to do when it comes to parenting. 

All i know is that my parents have worked so hard and taught me so many things for me to be the person i am today. Yes, that's true, i am not perfect but i am thankful at how i turned out. 

I am not saying my parents are perfect parents, cause i see some mistakes they have done before but i feel like they are good parents to me cause my brother and i grew up with strong beliefs and moral values. 

People say, "Spare the rod, spoil the child", but my parents have never used the cane on us and we turned out fine. They believe that if you constantly use the rod on your children, they start to feel immune to all the beatings and become more rebellious. 

They imposed strict regulations when it comes to studies and mannerisms but they do reward us whenever we do something good. They do compare us though, but i think it's just so that we would do much better than what we have put in. 

I do appreciate my parents a lot for what they have done and sacrifice to make us good people. I don't know what actually makes a good parents, but i would say my parents did a darn good job with us.

24. Are you more social or independent? Why do you think that is?

You know, when i think about the word "social", i think about gatherings, parties, and/or a reunion of some sort. So i was a little bit confused when i first read the question. I was thinking, "Can't someone be social and independent at the same time?".

By definition, "social" means seeking or enjoying the companionship of others. In other words, friendly or gregarious. "Independent" means not relying on another or others for aid or support.

See what i mean when i told you how i got confused about the question? No, seriously, can't someone be friendly and not relying on others at the same time?

Should the question be changed to "Do you prefer to be around people or by yourself more?". I don't know but what do you guys think? I just think that people CAN be friendly and independent at the same time.

I don't know what to tell you but i do like being around people and i am very energetic. At the same time, ever since i was younger, i learnt to tend to things without anyone's help. Well, unless i really HAVE to ask someone.

Uhh, i'm not going through my childhood stories in depth, but my Mother worked night shifts when i was younger, and my Father would sometimes work late into the evening even though he's working morning shift, so usually it's just me and my brother at home. 

Our classes are usually in the morning so when we get home, my Mother would be there tending to our food but we're always left alone most of the time cause she'll have to catch up with her sleep. 

Even now, when i have problems or things that i need to solve, i would just do it myself. I guess sometimes it's just me not wanting to trouble other people. Well in all fairness, i feel like i make a better decision when i don't have everyone shouting at me and telling me what to do. 

I don't ask my parents for financial aid anymore cause i'm either working or have savings, which comes in handy when you're not working, believe me. Haha, i should know, i've been living off my savings.

Well, i am still living with my Mother though, so i guess i still need her for certain things. I don't pay rent, but i do give her monthly "allowance" and i do my own groceries if i want to cook for myself. I also do my own laundry and clean my own room. I buy all the things i use on my own, so yeah.

On the other hand, i like socializing. 
I like making new friends. I like to go out, i like having fun. I warm up to people very easily so even if i just met you, i'd still be talking non stop. I feel like there are some things that are more fun when you're with people.

I don't like being in crowded areas though but mostly it's cause i'm claustrophobic. 

Well, why don't you guys be the judge? Which one do you think i am? More social, or more independent? 

Beauty update: Dr Wu Hydrating Gel Cleanser with Aqua Collagen

Disclaimer: I am in no way or another associated with the company or brand mentioned in this blog post. Item featured is bought using my own money and i am not being paid for the product placement and views on product are of my own.

Okay, so two weeks ago, i bought a new type of cleanser since my favourite facial cleanser ran out and it's only available at Raffles Skin Centre, so i just tried to get something at the drug store instead.

I might go back to Raffles Skin Centre though, just to get stock up on my favourite cleanser, cause it's really good for my sensitive, acne-prone skin. Especially in this humid weather in Singapore. 

But yeah, enough about that, i am just here to update on this new cleaner that i've been using for two weeks now. For those of you who have no idea what cleanser i am talking about, i made a first impression review and i'm gonna link it right here so you can click on it and see what i think about it. [First impression review] 

So lets continue. I don't want to make it into a long post cause it's just a small update. 

On the previous post, which i have linked up there, i said that it gives off a little scent. It's kind of a lavender, rose water scent. I'm not sure if it's one of the ingredients in it but from what i know, lavender and rose water kinda freshens up your skin and neutralizes your red spots. 

I'm still really loving how it lathers and foams up so well. It really leaves my skin feeling very soft and moisturized. You know how my eyelids and around the areas of my mouth were very dry and peeling? I can actually see my skin not being as scaly as before. 

This product also claims to unclog pores, and some people know that i have some white heads around my nose and i usually exfoliate like crazy. This cleanser really helps with preventing the pores from blockage, so i don't have to exfoliate more than twice a week now. 

The bonus question is, does it break me out? 

Well, i did have two or three little breakouts, but i'm not sure if it's because of this product or if it's because it was that time of the month. Though, i did think of it as my skin purging out the extra sebum that was left on my skin. 

I am not breaking out anymore though, so i don't think it's the cleanser's fault. The cleanser does help with reducing the redness of my breakouts. 

So these two weeks, i am kinda liking this cleanser. It really does what it say it would do. I'd repurchase it if i ever run out of it. 

P/S: Don't forget to clean off your make up every night and drink lots of water and moisturize your skin whenever necessary!

23. Explain your life plan for the next month, then the next year, then three years, then five years.

Life plans. Isn't it weird how easy it is to make plans but it's so hard to follow through with it? I mean, self-discipline is one thing, circumstances is another.

It's like destiny. The power which appears or is thought to control events. Even though you know you're fated to be something, you have to do something about it to make it happen and not just sit there and wait. I mean, i'm sure when things like that happen, we wouldn't think about all our past actions that actually helped us be at that place at that time. 

You get what i'm trying to say? 

So yeah, anyway lets just get back to the blog post, shall we? Even though i have no idea where i would be even in the next week, let alone the next 5 years. Lets just try, ok?

In the next month, i really hope i would get a job. I'm serious. I've been to loads of interviews and everything, some did get back to me for other important documents so i guess i have to wait a little bit more for them to get back to me? Yeah, but mostly just try to score a job. I knew it was gonna be really hard to get a job but i didn't know it would be this impossible. 

But yeah, i can't wait for the General Elections though. I'll be a first time voter, so that's very exciting to me. Can't wait for the Nomination Day and all the speeches that comes with it. 

In the next year, well hopefully i'd have enough money by then to go to America with my family, or else i'd be stuck at home all alone while they party in the USA. Haha, yeah, pretty much that's what i'm looking forward to for the upcoming year or so. 

I am also looking at schools that offer small time courses for certificates and all that kind of things. So hopefully by then, i'd make up my mind. I'm just thinking of taking as much small courses as possible. From customer service to event management and everything in between. Either way, a lot of things are pretty related to each other.

In three years. Wow, that's a long time to think about. I'm just here to learn, to see where my choices take me. Hopefully by then, I've been around a lot. Err, i meant traveling wise. I'd like to go back to Belgium just to see and learn in depth of the cultures and people there. Haha, lets hope i don't get a culture shock wherever i go.

In five years time, lets hope I've already have a career by then. Something i really really wanna do with all the work experiences and contacts I've made over the years. Well traveled too, of course. I cannot forget that. I want to go somewhere far at least once a year. 

Oh my god, i'll be 30 in 5 years time. Haha wow, hopefully I've met the love of my life and planning to have kids or already have kids by then. Haha noo, i'd be too old. 

I guess that's about it. Basically i just want to go back to school, travel, do some volunteer work while on a traveling mission. Have a career by then and hopefully a family.

Even if we plan things, there are also external factors that will interfere with what we're trying to do. So you have to have really strong self-discipline and never ever give up no matter what happens. Thing may or may not work the way you want it, but whatever it is, know that it is for the best and it is your choices that bring you where you are. 

Just keep in mind what you really really want out of life and work towards it. Have a nice day, lovelies!

Hen's Party 2009

Me failing epically at trying to make a video picture thingie by using Windows Movie Maker. First attempt, don't judge! Haha

Credits:
Song- What'ca think about that by Pussycat Dolls Feat Missy E
Pictures- Linsy, Rehan and Sikin

When lovers become strangers.

22. How do you think people see you? Be a little negative and a little positive.

Wow, this is like asking a song writer about the songs he wrote. Of course he's gonna say good things about his songs!

Haha, same as me, of course i'm gonna say all nice things about how people see me. I'm awesome, can't you tell? 

No, for real though, i am not sure. 

I know some people don't like me, but i have no idea why. It could be the fact that i'm just too honest about things or the fact that they have no idea what kind of a person i am. I seriously do not know why people don't like me. 

There are some girls who go "You make it so easy for me to hate you right now." but they never ever tell me why it is so. I want to ask why but at the same time i don't care if people don't like me. So i really have no idea why people don't like me. 

Haha, i'd like to think of myself as a nice person. I give it my all to be a good friend. A lot of people say i'm pretty easy to get along with so it really makes me wonder sometimes why some people really don't like me. 
They tend to think really different things about me compared to how i really am. Probably because they heard some things about me that are not true. I don't know. Haha i really have no idea. 

Some guys call me names because i don't entertain them. I mean, i don't mind being on cam with you and everything, but don't flash me or ask me to flash you. I have no idea what they heard about me but i will never do that. Ask people i've cammed with, i never do those kinda things and i block those people who flashed me. Yeah, so i guess some girls think i'm a whore, just because they think i do these type of things on cam. 

Haha, i feel like all i'm repeating is "I don't know why people don't like me.". 

It's true though, cause i get along with a lot of people and people always think i'm nice and easy to talk to, fiercely loyal and all sorts. So how is it that a small group of people see a different me? 

It could be jealousy, like most people say, but i don't see anything of me that anyone should be jealous about. So yeah, why don't you people enlighten me. 

For people who do not like me, just leave me a comment to say why you don't or something? Haha if you even read this. For those who do like me, leave me a comment too or some sort. 

It'd be interesting to hear it from the horse's mouth itself. So everyone have a nice day!

21. Look back. Why did you choose this challenge? Do you think it says anything about you?

Why i chose this challenge, i am not sure. I have a bunch of 30 days challenges that people give to me so i just go through it randomly and pick it.

I've done this type of challenges before. Other than having to update my blog everyday, i feel like some of the questions are actually relevant to what i do everyday or how i think or feel.

Some are get-to-know-me questions and some are really in depth of why-i-am-how-i-am questions. Although there are some really private things that i don't share with my readers, i am honest with all my blog posts.

Does it says anything about me?

Well, i think so, cause i'm the one blogging about it, right? People get to know me through my blog other than just talking to me. There are just so many things that we can talk about, and just these challenges give me a theme on what to talk about.

I am pretty opinionated when it comes to certain things, and it explains further on why i feel that way or why i do the things i do.

Yeah, that's what i think anyway, that's why i love doing these 30 days challenges and i get positive feedback about it from those who read my blog. 

If anyone of you wanna do these type of challenges or have any other 30 days challenges for me, just leave me a comment, 

Have a nice day, lovelies!

20. Again, pick a song that projects the mood of your week or day.

Pardon all the sexiness that is going on in the video. I do like the brunette girl though. K, sidetracked. 

I just have a lot of depressive moods lately. Outbursts of random low moments. I'll be happy one minute and in tears the next. I think it's just me letting out frustrations so i should be alright! 

19. If you could be anywhere in the world, but you had to be there for a certain cause, where would you be and why?

And there are no limits or budgets or anything and i am for sure safe?

Well firstly i would like to go to Myanmar. Why? Cause i would like to help them build a school and try to help them with school supplies. Books, pencils, chairs and everything. 

I think it's obvious by now that education is really important to me. I cannot stress how much i feel that you need education. I know it doesn't necessarily gets you far in life but it's really an important stepping stone, especially to the younger ones. 

Secondly, i would like to go to Africa. I know it's dangerous there. Not just some of the people, but also the environment.

I'd like to go there to help them with their hygiene and irrigation. Teach them what they can do with all the natural land they have. I bet you, if they have clean water and access to some of the machineries and farming tools, they'd be awesome. 
Yes, i did study agriculture during Geography class! Haha
I don't know, maybe sex education lessons should be good for them too. I am not sure if it's because they are poor or just too loose about sex, but i think trying to tell them about sexually transmitted diseases and everything is mandatory.

I know things like that have been done and is still going on within those countries, but i would really like to help. It seems like too far of a stretch for me to achieve those goals, cause i obviously don't know where to go to talk about all these assistance thing. 

So, if anyone's reading this and you know what i have to do to help with those situations mentioned above, do drop me a comment or message me of Facebook. Something like that. 

Have a nice day all!

18. Talk about your extended family. Why do you think they are the way they are?

Extended family. I guess this includes your grandparents, cousins, uncles, aunts, and other people. I think second marriages are also included here and also children's spouses and such. 

I used to think that they have to live together to be an extended family. I guess i am thinking the old fashion sense of the word where three or four generations live under one roof. Well, for everyone's sake, i hope it's a big house with more than one bathroom. Haha

Well anyway, lets talk about MY family. I don't call them extended family cause we're all just very close. My cousins, my aunt, uncle, well some of them. I'm not close at all with my father's side cause i didn't grow up with them. 

Sure, we have had some sleepovers and some things like that, but somehow when we grew up, we grew apart. Kinda sad actually cause we have this very great memories of sleepovers. I don't really know what happened, but i think there were some misunderstanding between families. Their families and mine, and to be honest, the relatives beside my dad doesn't really like my mother that much.

Well, except my late grandfather, and my late uncle and late aunt. They're nice people. They passed away though, sigh, i do miss them.

Now lets talk about the people i am close with. Basically the family on my mother's side. 

We grew up together. We went through a lot together. People see us being so close but they have no idea the kinds of problems and dramas we went through together. I think that's what makes us so close and inseparable.

Yeah, we do have our moment where misunderstanding occur, and of course, the families stopped talking to each other for months and months, but somehow we still managed to pull through. 
Honestly, each and everyone of us have gone through a lot of growing up when we were just trying to have fun by being kids. We all have our own stories to tell, each one of us. I cannot tell you how much i am so proud of everyone of them and i love them so much. I cannot bear to lose them at all.

Yeah, we're still very close now. I love you family. 

17. Who was the last person you kissed? (If you are still with them now, pick the person before them.) What would they say if they saw you now?

Who was the last person i kissed?

Haha, i haven't been kissing a lot of people lately. It's just so hard to find someone nice. It's like, when you think you found someone you can actually talk to without having any sexual tension between the two of you, he'll do a 180 degrees and just be a full on jerk. So yeah, i'm kinda just taking my time in finding the nice person to plant these lips of mine on. Haha.

Well if you're talking about kissing, and just kissing, then it has to be this guy i know from a friend. It was like a couple of months ago or something. We talked after that but i think both of us are pretty busy so we didn't really keep in contact now. Haha or he's just giving me the axe, and not wanting to talk to me anymore.

Well, to be fair, i haven't hung out with that group of friends for a bit. I have decided to cut down on my late nights cause it's not that healthy. He'll probably just say hi and ask me how i am or something. Probably pretended as if nothing happened. Haha guys.

If you all are talking about a full on make out session, then it will have to be my ex. Haha i'm not gonna name him here cause i'm pretty sure you all know who it is. Yeah, it was nice just being with him that time.

What will he say if he saw me now? Haha i am honestly not sure. If you guys know who i'm talking about, you can go ask him personally. I think he's just gonna be really shocked if i suddenly appear in front of him one day. Haha it's not as if we live a block away or anything. Yeah, he'll probably be too shocked to say anything. Haha

So yeah. K bye! Haha

16042011, Saturday

As if going out on Friday isn't enough, i have to have another thing going for me the next day. 

So bear in mind, i slept at 3am on Thursday night (technically already on Friday), woke up at 7am that same day, and was out of the house by 8:30am. I reached home on that day at 11:30pm and with the cold showers and everything, i just couldn't sleep so i pretty much slept at 2:30am that day. 

On Saturday, i got woken up way early, like 11:30am cause Mother and Brother was shouting at each other about God knows what. I am a very light sleeper, even when someone walk past my room, i can still wake up. Imagine the shouting! 

It feels like i was having a hangover. Not that i know how a hangover feels like cause i don't drink, but the room was pretty much spinning. Even when i close my eyes, i could feel the room spinning. Every single noise was a loud thud to me in my head.

So i woke up to take a shower, cause i obviously couldn't go back to sleep with the kind of ruckus that was going on in my house, just outside my bedroom door. After my shower, i had breakfast. Breakfast was a chore. The sun was shining way too brightly and i told my mum close the kitchen window, and she was like, "The weather is pretty gloomy, there is no sun." and she called me a vampire. Haha

I guess i blogged a little bit. Rehan and Sikin then came to my house and brought a long some DVDs. Watched "Dalam Botol" for a bit, but the story was too slow. It's about these two gays, but the movie was pretty boring. 

While changing the DVD to another movie, Linsy came. 

When the four of us get together, you know there's about to be some serious stuff happening. Haha, nah, i'm just kidding. We're just very loud individually, so when were together, we're louder. Linsy and Rehan kept betting against each other about Ant and Dec or something. 

Of course, they googled the right answer and Linsy won so she started tickling Rehan the whole time. I think Linsy's goal was to make Rehan pee in her pants, but it didn't work, cause Rehan was shouting so loud, i had to stop them just in case my neighbours start to wonder what's happening.

I think at one point of time Sikin got tickled by Linsy too. I can't remember what but i think it has something to do with touching each other. Haha yeah, we're perverted that way. 

So got on cam for a little bit. The girls said hello to Phillip, and then chatted for a little bit before i had to go. 

Played Charades and Linsy was the one who had to act out the words. Haha she is the most entertaining person ever. She gets frustrated every time we tried guessing the word and it's totally different from what she was acting out. 

I think they left at around 11:30pm, but we had fun, even though we stayed in. 

Haha, you know, i used to blog about my day in details like this. I'm not sure why i stopped cause i like blogging about my day. I know people don't really like reading about it, but eh, if i have an interesting day then maybe i will do this more often. 

Have a nice day all!

15042011, Friday.

*burst out in Rebecca Black's song* It's Friday, Friday. Gotta get down on Friday. 

Get down i did. Haha well, not the vulgar sense of the word. I was just out the whole day. From 8:30am and i reached home at about 11:30pm. 

If you guys didn't know, i had a morning interview at 10:30am but i went out at 8:30am and met Suesy at Khatib MRT Station at 9am. I didn't get to see the cute teller. Haha k, never mind about him. 

Morning faces. (I look like i'm closing my eyes ?_?)

Anyway, thank you Suesy for accompanying me to my interview way early in the morning even though it was your off day. Haha, but at least we did have fun right?

Speaking of fun, along the way, we wanted Hannah to join us after that, but she had a meeting to attend to, so we decided to meet after that. 

So, anyways, Suhaili and i were obviously bored in the morning. Not to mention tired and hungry. I couldn't eat though, cause i was super nervous. To keep ourselves entertained, we went on a learning journey with Hannah. Suhaili and Hannah both have "watsapp" so they were both messaging and sending each other pictures of the things we were up to at the current moment. 

Hannah kept asking us what we were doing out so early and we didn't tell her where we were so we sent her pictures of things to give her clues as to where we were and what we did. Hannah sent us pictures of her destination and her surroundings of the meeting. It was actually really fun.

So Hannah kinda figured out where we were. We were at the library for my interview. The interview actually went well. There were three people and they were all very friendly despite the morning faces. So, i kinda relaxed a bit when i got in the interviewing room. I was the second interviewee, so i guess they weren't so tired yet. 

So anyway, it was the basic "so tell me about yourself, weaknesses and strengths" questions at first, and then they asked me scenario based questions to see what i'll do in the situation. They liked my answers so i guess that's some brownie points for me! 

The interview wasn't as long as the one i had at the MOM, but it went just as great and they asked me if i had any problems with being based at the Jurong East library. Haha, i hope they're not just teasing me, cause i desperately need a job. Teehee.

By the time we got out of the library, it was already about 11 plus in the morning, so we decided to get some food since we were starving. We walked all the way to Parkway Parade from the Marine Parade library. We thought it'd be a long walk but it was alright, just a little bit humid. 

We had KOI, and it was good. If you all don't know what KOI is, shame on you. Haha it is only the best bubble tea store in Singapore. I don't know about the other countries though but it's really famous in Singapore. It's pretty good, i've had it a couple of times before and i have to say, it really lives up to the hype. We ordered Ovaltine Milk Tea but yeah, they gave us Cacao Berry Milk Tea instead. Grr. 

We then went to Banquet for brunch. I had sliced fish soup with macaroni. I am usually able to finish soupy food, but i didn't finish like 3/4 of it, so i just ate all the fish and the greens instead. I think it's because we had KOI before lunch. Bad idea. Haha and i forgot to tell Suesy that i didn't want pearls. Those things are just blank carbs, maybe that's why i was so full during brunch.

Me with lunch.

Do you know how long we sat at that place? I think it was until 1pm or so, just talk and keep watsapp-ing Hannah. We decided to just walk around Parkway Parade and find Hannah some birthday gifts since her birthday is coming. 

So we kinda spent around half an hour in each shop just trying to find some things to buy for her gifts. We decided to get a lot of small things and not just one huge thing for her present, so it we treated it like a treasure hunt. I think both Suesy and I got extra excited when we got into this shop that sells ALL things Lego. Even the costumes and everything. It was awesome, kinda like relieving our childhood, since we both love Lego.

Some cute things and Korean band items.

Speaking of Korean band, there was this shop that sells all the famous Korean people's items. Yeah, i can't stand being in there. Why? Cause i am no fan of K-pop and i have NO idea who those people are and they all look the same! Suesy got sidetracked looking for her stuffs instead of Hannah's present. Haha.

Yeah, so we finished shopping at 4:30pm and we weren't THAT tired but our feet were screaming for help. We've been walking non stop and my bag were freaking heavy by then. Seriously, and we had to meet Hannah at around 6pm at Bugis. We thought Parkway Parade and Bugis junction were pretty far so we decided to waste time on the bus, but it's only about 15-20 minutes away on a bus ride. Can you believe it? Haha well, the bus went on an expressway so yeah, that's the reason. 

So we got to Bugis and walked around the place. I had a sushi craving (once again) and so we had sushi while waiting for Hannah. We bought some gummy worms and gummy bears to fill out Hannah's cute little gift pack. We got a text from Hannah saying that she's already on the way to meet us, We were literally looking at the watch every 5 minutes and counting down the time. Texting Hannah to hurry up and everything. Suesy even sent her a picture of me "sleeping" to make her feel guilty so she'd rush right over. Haha

Me pretending to sleep.

Finally Hannah reached Bugis and we met up and went straight to Zam Zam. So anyway, we ordered a lot of food, and we didn't really polish it all off cause even though there were 4 of us, it was a huge serving.

Us with ze food.

Linsy decided to join us last minute. She came and started eating and we didn't really have the chance or the heart to tell her that what she's eating was actually deer meat. Hannah, Suesy and I were basically looking at each other and smiling pretending as if nothing's wrong. It was pretty nice actually. It tastes like beef but a little bit sweeter. It's okay if you wanna indulge yourself once in a while cause it's pretty expensive but i liked it. So anyway, when we were dividing the bill, i let her see what she was eating, and she gave us the most shocked face EVER, and called us evil. Haha

Linsy's expression when she found out it was deer meat.

After dinner, we decided to give Hannah her present. She was super excited about it cause she got her Korean band items. Haha, i don't get these Korean band thingy.

Don't they look alike? Hehe

We didn't wanna go home, so we decided to just go somewhere and talk. Hannah kept talking about Ayman (her son) and our end-of-the-month meet up again when she suddenly screamed! I looked over at what she was screaming at and i literally jumped out of my seat and just took my things and ran to the other side of the place. Why? There was a rat. I think it ran across from under our table to the other side of the place. It was disgusting. Eugh. 

So we went to McDonald's to continue with our discussion for our Karaoke meeting. Can't wait though! We're gonna have so much fun for sure!

Linsy and Suesy!

Hannah and I!

Isn't it cute that we're all wearing glasses? Haha, i'm kidding!