Tuesday, May 31, 2011

30 days music challenge

I am starting again with the 30 days challenge, this time, it is a music edition! Thanks to you all who sent me this.

day 01 – your favorite song
day 02 – your least favorite song
day 03 – a song that makes you happy
day 04 – a song that makes you sad
day 05 – a song that reminds you of someone
day 06 – a song that reminds you of somewhere
day 07 – a song that reminds you of a certain event
day 08 – a song that you know all the words to
day 09 – a song that you can dance to
day 10 – a song that makes you fall asleep
day 11 – a song from your favorite band
day 12 – a song from a band you hate
day 13 – a song that is a guilty pleasure
day 14 – a song that no one would expect you to love
day 15 – a song that describes you
day 16 – a song that you used to love but now hate
day 17 – a song that you hear often on the radio
day 18 – a song that you wish you heard on the radio
day 19 – a song from your favorite album
day 20 – a song that you listen to when you’re angry
day 21 – a song that you listen to when you’re happy
day 22 – a song that you listen to when you’re sad
day 23 – a song that you want to play at your wedding
day 24 – a song that you want to play at your funeral
day 25 – a song that makes you laugh
day 26 – a song that you can play on an instrument
day 27 – a song that you wish you could play
day 28 – a song that makes you feel guilty
day 29 – a song from your childhood
day 30 – your favorite song at this time last year

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Return of the Monday blues.

My first day of work starts tomorrow. Lets hope i don't screw up or anything.

I also hope that i won't get the "I don't wanna go to work" syndrome. I'll probably have it for a week. Please don't be late though. Eugh.

Okay, well, i will update my blog whenever i have the time to, okay? I'll be working shifts now, so it might be a little hard.

Eeps. Wish me luck!

Thought of the day: Who's to blame?

I'm just gonna put it out there and make this post short so i don't side track to other stories.

So, lets get personal.

I don't know about you, but i don't like to like someone. I mean, i don't like the feeling of liking someone. Don't get me wrong, if i told you that i like you then it's highly true. I just don't like how it's making me feel.

I get to two extremes of the situation.

I don't know if "distant" is the right word to use, but i get very fearful when someone i like shows interest back. I mean, there's mutual feelings involved right? I get scared. Just in case that person loses interest because of me being "fearful" or "distant".

Does that make sense to you?

Of course i'd appreciate it if the guy i like take the effort to prove to me that not every guy is the same, but how much effort does the person need to put in before he leaves after realizing that i may or may not be putting in that same amount of effort?

You know what i mean? Am i making sense? I feel like i am but at the same time i am not.

I am afraid to open up to someone just in case he turns out to be just like any other guys i have dated in the past. I feel like i push people away the moment i feel like things are getting too serious or if i'm falling too fast or too deep for that person.

I know what you people are gonna say. It is normal not to trust people and that trust should be earned and all that bullshit i have heard before. It is so hard for me to explain to you guys the degree of my fear.

I don't know if it's the fear of commitment or the fear of abandonment that's making me feel this way.

I mean, i do prefer long term relationships, that's what i live for. I don't like short relationships cause i feel like once i like someone, i don't mind investing my whole feelings for that person. It's just that when i feel like the relationship is going where we have planned it to be, i get scared. I get the feeling that things are moving too fast, that bad things are gonna happen.

It usually does cause i feel like i screw things up by pushing that person away and then he'll leave. It's like i am too afraid to let my guard down to even try to see if that person is worth letting my guard down over.

I've been treated pretty badly in some of my past relationships and the thing is, i let them treat me that way cause i feel like i don't deserve better than what i got at the current moment. I know i do deserve so much better than being lied to, cheated on or played on, but when i think about all the stupid things i do to push people away whenever i feel "fearful", i get insecure about the relationship as a whole.

I don't know if it's my trust issues cause i don't mind being rejected. It's just the leaving after all the things that we have gone through and the feelings that are gonna get hurt that's making me really scared of having a relationship.

It's so hard for me explain to you guys how i feel cause i'm not even sure what's going on with me.

That's the predicament i have at the moment. How do i explain all the above to this guy that i'm interested in without him running away? I don't want him to think that i'm being distant cause i do like him, but at the same time i don't want him to see how insecure i can get when i fall hard and make him leave.

Suggestions? 

F.R.I.E.N.D.S


This picture was taken in Sentosa over a year ago for one of our annual trip as friends. Linsy, Rehan, Sikin and I had a lot of fun on that day. This picture was either taken by Linsy or me, cause i was at an experimenting with Linsy's Oli Aremac phase. As usual, edited by me, cause i am bored. 

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Take me away.


I cannot remember where i got the original picture from. Whether i took it or one of my cousins or friends, i honestly cannot remember. I edited it though, so if you guys know who the original picture belongs to (if it's not taken by me or any of my cousins and friends), do alert me so i can credit the person.

Friday, May 27, 2011

Picture perfect memories.


Picture taken in Tioman during our snorkeling escapade!

Moral Dilemma: Fountain of Youth

Moral dilemma number six! [Link here]

"A man/woman (whichever is opposite your gender), is immortal, because (s)he and his/her family have drank from a fountain of youth, not knowing what it was. You are now in love with this person and have felt this way long enough that you know (s)he to be your destiny. However, the only way you can stay together forever is if you drink from the fountain of youth and become immortal, too. If you do this, however, your family and everyone else you know will grow old and eventually die, and you will never be reunited in heaven with them, or your loved ones that you have known, who have already died. On the other hand, if you don’t drink from the fountain, you will grow old and eventually die, and the person with whom you are in love will never see you again, and be condemned to an eternity of loneliness and only memories of you. What would you do?
(From Tuck Everlasting, by Natalie Babbitt)"

Whether i am in love or not, i probably wouldn't drink it.

Growing old is part and parcel of life. It's also what makes life journey more fun. The knowledge that we don't live forever let us appreciate the people around us more and the moments that we live for interesting.

Sure, eternal youth sounds tempting, but what's the good in that?

Over time, all the people who matter immensely to you will die. You'll just be there all alone, and sad and lonely.

Anyway, in the excerpt above, it keeps saying about the person i love but what if the person doesn't love me back the way i love him?

It'd be a waste.

Not only will you not be "reunited" with your family in heaven, you won't get the person you love either. That's depressing.

So yeah, i'd give the elixir of life a miss. There's no fun in living forever.
 

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Moral Dilemma: Photo Shop

Part 5 [Link to article]

"You are a developer at a photo outlet. There have been six instances over the past several weeks in which the same parents have taken film to you for developing. In those pictures you have processed, you have seen those parents with a little boy, obviously their young son. In three of those six cases, the child appeared to be injured in some way. One time, he had a bruise, one time he had a burn, one time he had multiple bruises and a cast. The first time you saw him with some degree of injury, you just thought to yourself, “Well, kids will be kids,” but, now that you have seen him this way three out of six times, you are starting to grow concerned that these parents could be abusing their child.

You know the policy at your outlet is to “Report questionable photos”, but you fear that if you do so, the police will take outrageous measures to try to “protect” this child. The parents could be totally innocent after all, but a child protective agency may take the child without any thought. This would leave the parents facing criminal charges, an expensive court case and possibly have to keep fighting to win their child back, even if found not guilty.
On the other hand, maybe the parents are harming their son and to not intervene would mean he will have to endure more of this cruel treatment, maybe indefinitely.
You consider asking his parents what the relationship is between them and their child, but for all you know, they might just lie to protect themselves.
What would you do?"


This is really simple for me.

I would firstly try to talk to the child, then the parents and see what really happened. If i feel like one of them is lying, i would definitely report it.

For me, it doesn't matter if it's abuse or not, but if you see that degree of injuries on a child, there's bound to be some questions.

Following the policy, i would report it without even thinking twice.

I feel like a lot of child abuse goes away unreported just because one is "unsure" about what's happening within the family. I mean, if you feel uneasy about something, you should definitely question it and if you don't get the right "feeling" from the answers or you still feel like they're hiding something, report it.

Let social service and the police settle it. You're just doing your job by report "questionable" photos, it is part of your work.

If it is indeed just a case of "kids will be kids", then good for the parents. What if it's not? You know, at least you have reported it.

So, i'd definitely say report it, doesn't matter what the outcome will be. If you feel uncomfortable at what you see, voice it out, you could actually save a life.

What would you guys do though?

Have a great day, my lovelies!

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Boredness. Do this!

Do it! Or not. Anonymously! Or not. Haha just humour me okay! Or not.

♥ ♥ = Im falling for you.
;) = I wanna hug you.
:) = I like you a lot
:( = I miss you.
:D = You’re sexy/beautiful.
;O = I want you, but can’t.
:P = I want you more than anything.

:* = Kiss me
:| = You annoy me
:/ = I dunno..
XXX= porn 
:*** = We should make out!
♥ = I want a relationship.

Friday, May 20, 2011

Thought of the day: Planking

Disclaimer: This is not me promoting "planking". It's just me trying to tell you guys how brain dead, i think, some people are for doing this.

If you guys have no idea what "planking" is, it's basically called the "lying down game". Though i have no idea why it's called "lying down" cause your face is basically on the ground. It kinda look like you face planted and then fainted or something.

I honestly didn't know what planking was until i read up about it. I thought it's some kind of a jump or dance move or something. You know, like "walking the plank", kinda like a parkour move.

When i read about it, i found out that it actually originated in Europe and Japan in either 1997 or 2006. The term "planking", however, was fabricated in Australia and the fad went viral in 2011.

So "planking" is you lying face down with your arms to the side of your body, with your legs straightened out and everything. It's usually done in public places and then having someone photograph it for you.

I mean, reading from the definition of what "planking" is, it sounds pretty fun. Even though you might look stupid when people happen to catch you doing it or on photos, but it's something you do for a laugh with your friends.

Now i don't want to say everyone who does it is stupid, but i mean come on, at least try to "plank" safely.

I guess it's okay if you guys do it on a chair, or on the edge of a bed or something that isn't too high up in the air. Three feet off the ground is fine, but not 7 storeys high.

Now, there have been one death and one coma case linking to this planking craze. I don't wanna call them dumb cause i'm actually talking about human lives here, but it really does sound stupid.

If you guys don't know what i'm talking about, i'm gonna link the two articles [here] and [here].

I am not trying to stop people from planking, cause i might do it one day with my friends or something even though we might look terribly foolish. What i am trying to say is that, try to plank responsibly.

Don't do it when you're drunk, don't do it on a moving vehicle or on top of a high rise building. You're not only holding your own life in your hand but also those around you. You might succeed doing the planking on some dangerous place but the others might not.

I seriously think planking should be banned and whoever does it should get fined. But hey, i am only one voice and there are groups on Facebook and everything that actually encourages people to do it and take photos and post it.

I don't know, what do you guys think about planking? Share your opinions or your thoughts.

Have a nice day, lovelies!

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Thought of the day: Going vegetarian

Yes, people, you read it right. I am indeed going vegetarian. 

Now, now. Before all my friends start freaking out or anything, i am not gonna go cold turkey on meat and just go full-on vegetarian. 

I am perhaps gonna start small and slow. I have a lot of disciplining to do cause i do love my meat. I am a huge fan of seafood and i do love my chicken. After that beef encounter in New Zealand, i think i might have found my soul mate. 

Yes, after a taste of that delicious beef, i have to say i kinda prefer beef to mutton now. Oops, sorry Mother! Haha we grew up on mutton, that's why i never touched beef before i get to New Zealand.

Back to the point.

I am gonna start really slow with th transformation process. Probably one week of vegetarian diet every month for three months, and then i'll gradually decrease the interval. Two weeks in every month, maybe? Then just have meat on every Sunday? Well, i don't know for sure if i want to give up meat indefinitely, but we shall see.

I don't know. I don't want to sound too ambitious so i am gonna see where this one week in a month thing will go. I am probably gonna eat fish a lot though, and hopefully i don't crave for red meat a lot after cutting them down. 

To be honest, i know nothing about being a vegetarian. Sure, they don't eat meat, but what else don't they eat? I don't know if i can give up milk though, i need my milk! Sorry! 

Of course i need to replace a lot of vitamins and proteins that can be found in meat. I am just trying to find substitutes for them, so i am reading up on my vegetables and fruits. I do have some vegetarian recipes and outlets that friends recommended, so we'll see. 

If any of you guys have advice, words of wisdom or just recipes for me and even places to eat, i would appreciate those support so so much.

I have to start with myself though, so after that, i hope my family and friends would help me along with it and be supportive. 
I'll keep you guys updated on when i'll start on my vegetarian diet and then maybe update you guys on it at the end of every week and we'll see how i feel. 


Leaving me words of encouragement might help, i hope. Hehe 

Have a nice day, lovelies!

Moral Dilemma: Plagiarized report.

Part 4. [Link to article here]

"You are head of a student council at a high school, and are faced with a difficult decision regarding a grade-twelve girl’s risky, last-resort choice. This girl is an honor student. All through her academic years, she has obtained straight A’s, has many friends and has never been disciplined by the principal. However, near the end of her grade twelve year, she fell ill with the flu and fell way behind in her school work. She missed three weeks of class, which resulted in her having to rush a report that would be worth 40% of English, a required graduation subject in her curriculum. She was so desperate about the report that she went online and passed off a report she found on that subject as her own. Her English teacher caught her and has referred her to you. If you enter on her academic record that she plagiarized, she will likely not be eligible to be accepted into St. Steven’s University, a school she has dreamed of attending all through high school and needs in order to fulfill her academic and future dreams.
What would you do?"

Well, i guess she's not THAT smart if she think she's gonna get away with plagiarism. What? Did she really think she's gonna fool the teacher in charge and the teacher will not notice it? 

She's an honor student, she should know the rules and regulation. It doesn't matter if you're sick or anything, cheating is cheating and i'm pretty sure they're more stricter to good students.

Okay, now, back to me. What would i do if i had to deal with this?

I don't know. I definitely wouldn't just ignore her actions, cause it would obviously look bad on me. I have to be partial and fair to everyone, and not give special treatments to the "good" ones. Besides, she knew what she was doing and she obviously know what her consequences are if she ever get caught. 

Now, what i would suggest is that, she redo her assignment that has to be submitted on the day itself. Of course, the teacher would have to agree with it. I wouldn't go straight to the Principal. I guess it's only fair. 

Since she's a smart student with straight A's, and she only did it as a last resort, i'm sure she could come up with something even better than the plagiarized report. 



Well, that's what i'd do anyway, so if you guys have any idea on how to handle this situation better than me, don't be too shy to comment.

Have a great day, lovelies!

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Moral Dilemma: Friend's Wedding

Part 3. [Article linked here.]

"Your best friend is about to get married. The ceremony will be performed in one hour, but you have seen, just before coming to the wedding, that your friend’s fiancee has been having an affair. If your friend marries this woman, she is unlikely to be faithful, but on the other hand, if you tell your friend about the affair, you will ruin his wedding. Would you, or would you not, tell your friend of the affair?"

This is a very delicate situation, in my opinion. It involves other people's lives. Not just one, and i don't think it will be a life changing experience for me, so i guess it's good to handle this with full of tact and sensitivity. 

Of course i won't go around accusing the bride of cheating in front of everybody. That's just embarrassing and not classy. 

Here's the thing about me, if you guys don't already know, i am fiercely loyal to my friends. I am very protective towards the people i care about, and if this is my BEST FRIEND we're talking about, there is no doubt that i will be on his side and want him to be really happy. 

I wouldn't want anything bad to happen to him, be it in the present and especially not in the future, if there is something i can do about it. 

Firstly, of course, i have to really be sure that the bride is cheating. So yeah, if i have that thinking, there should be evidence. I wouldn't say somebody is doing something if i don't see hard facts, and as you can tell, us girls are REALLY good at finding out things. Haha yeah, even from other females. 

So yeah, if i am really sure that the bride is cheating, then of course i would tell my best friend. That's what friends do, they tell you the truth even though it's a little bit bitter to swallow. 

Lets sidetrack a little bit;
Say, in the near future, the best friend found out that the wife has been cheating and somehow he found out that you knew about it and didn't tell him. I don't know about you, but if my friend had hard evidence that someone i love is doing things behind my back that would hurt me and not tell me, i'd be real upset at the friend too. 


Same logic. 

If you want my answer, i would definitely tell him about it. It's better to tell him now and not go through with the marriage, then have him hurt somewhere in the near future. 

Being said that, i would probably pull both the bride and the groom aside and tell them what i know and that they should talk about it, explain what's happening. It's really up to them if they wanna continue with the wedding or not. 

I wouldn't even think twice about it. I'd tell him in a heartbeat. I cannot stand cheaters and even the act of cheating itself. It's disgusting and people should be punished legally for that. 

Have a nice day, lovelies! 

Thought of the day: Public toilets

I don't know about you guys but i have an irrational fear of the public toilet.

Okay, I wouldn't call it a fear, actually. If i had a choice, i wouldn't wanna even step in a public toilet but sometimes you just can't hold it in so i need to be really sure that the toilet clean, with no smell whatsoever.

I don't think it's just me, but i'm sure you people know what i'm talking about. Dirty public toilets are nasty. That's why i don't get why people sometimes wouldn't flush the toilet after use, or do their business messily and not even clean up after that. 

What do you expect people to do? Clean it up after you before we do our business? Jeesh. 

Now, thank goodness Singapore's toilets in leading shopping centres are top notch. I can't say the same about some budget shopping malls though, the smell gets pretty overwhelming sometimes. 

See, i don't know how people can even do their business in these type of filth ridden places. I will gag the moment i get in the toilet if there is even the slightest hint of bad smell. 

My nose is THAT sensitive, that's why i stay away from public toilets most of the time. 

Now, the reason why i am writing this is because public toilet was one of the topic of conversation during the family gathering. 

If you guys read my previous post about the family gathering, the problem we had was finding a clean toilet. Be it at Changi Point or at Changi Beach Park itself. 

I avoided the toilet like a plague and i tried my best to hold in all the pee until Kak Yan asked me to accompany her to the toilet to change. Once i see the toilet, i remembered that i needed to pee so i tried to check out the cubicles anyway. 

Oh my god, you could get sore eyes just by looking at the filth. I told Kak Yan i'm gonna hold it in till we get home cause there is no way i am putting my butt near the toilet seat. I told her i felt like we could get gonorrhea or something just by sitting on it. 

Listen, i know gonorrhea is a sexually transmitted disease. Although not likely, but if a male's genital made contact with the toilet seat, it is possible for gonorrhea to spread. But then again, it was a female toilet... But still, it was dirty. 

It's so dirty, you wouldn't even know what kind of bacteria is breeding on the seat. 

It's just not how it smells like that puts me off. It's how some people do their business and just leave the whole  cubicle just filled with their feces. I didn't see it of course, if i did, i wouldn't have been able to eat or anything. 

One of my cousin, i can't remember who accompanied one of my auntie to the toilet and she said she saw fecal matter all over the floor and the seat of the toilet bowl. 

It's disgusting, i don't know how people can even do that. They probably couldn't hold it in any longer and didn't want their butt to touch the toilet seat. Even so, i mean, do something about it and not just leave it there for the whole world to see. 

Now, it didn't used to be like this before. 

The old toilet used to be really clean, cause we had to pay 20cents to get in there and 30cents to shower. I really didn't mind paying for it cause at least there was someone in charge of it. So you'll know that it'd be clean. 

I think a lot of people complained about having to pay that's why they didn't continue with the fees when they build a new toilet.

It's annoying. The people using it are not taking care of it. I wouldn't mind having to pay as long as there's someone in charge of it and make sure that it's clean. 

What about you guys? Do you all avoid the public toilet too? Tell me what you guys think. 

Have a lovely day, beauties!

14052011, Saturday - 15052011, Sunday

Disclaimer: There is nothing to learn about me in this post except the fact that i enjoyed myself whenever I'm with my family. There may be boring parts and events that don't make sense to you in this post cause it's just what happened on the family gathering.

I woke up at 7:30am on Saturday to make my usual sausage cheese roll since everyone always wants the cheese rolls whenever we have a gathering or going for a picnic. I don't mind though, it's pretty easy.

So yeah, i finished the whole large batch of 30 sausages in about one and  half hour, and it's was barely 9am when i was done so i kinda went back to sleep for a little bit.

Fast forward.

We gathered at Linsy's house to group up and just to get all the things in the car. When i was there, half of the people weren't ready. They're always like that though, that's why i always come later than the time they asked me to.

Anyway, long story short, they were late. VERY late. It was a weekend and the weather is pretty unpredictable the past few days, and we're going to the beach. It is always packed during the weekend, and everyone's gonna be wanting a shelter just in case it rains.

So after we sort out all the transportation and after all the things are put in the car, we were on our way. Haha well, Wan, Linsy, Rehan and I anyway.

We took a cab to Changi Point cause Wan was hungry and we wanted to get some paper plates and plastic cups for the food. We wanted to order a birthday cake anyway cause it was also a birthday party for my Mother and Kak Effa.

Got a table at one of the food centres over at Changi Point and we finished eating when it started raining. We suspected that the others who took the car haven't reached to the destination yet and they obviously haven't found a shelter so Linsy called them.

So Linsy called Kak Yan and asked them where they were and started this whole story how we're already at Changi Beach Park and there's no empty shelter in sight, and that we also got drenched in the heavy rain. Haha it's cute cause all Kak Yan said was, "Well, what do you want us to do about it?". Oh, i love my family.

So while waiting for them we went to get some things for the picnic and ordered a cake to celebrate Kak Effa's and Mother's birthdays.

After getting all the stuff, the four of us went to Changi Beach Park and saw them pulling in the carpark. Woohoo, carrying heavy things in the rain are so fun.. NOT, especially when i'm wearing some frictionless flip flops. I was making the most noise during that time cause i almost fell twice! Haha, wouldn't that be a sight. Not surprising though since i am such a klutz.

So, anyvanhoozle, we found a shelter and everyone just started settling down. The boys were building the tent while the girls are sitting down and talking over a very cold cup of fruit punch.

It was dang humid, even when it was raining, the sun was up. It's crazy the heat wave in Singapore lately. I had on tons and tons of sun block on the face AND the body. Sun is my worse enemy, only cause i don't like getting tanned.

There was so much food. I'm pretty sure Linsy's mum thought we were going to war or something. I am not kidding, she cooked so much food that she can pretty much feed a whole army battalion.

I am gonna say hi to everyone who is still reading this post at this point of time. You guys probably have no idea what i'm talking about. This is just me rambling about the family gathering.

By evening time all the family were gathered but we ran out of ice. Dang it, i know, of all times! It was majorly hot too. So Kak Effa, Kak Yan, Linsy, Rehan and I went to Changi Point to get some other supplies and ice, and also to take the cake we ordered. It was actually for Kak Effa but she didn't know that cause i said it was for Mother.

We had two cakes. Haha, was a miscommunication between Kak Yan and Linsy. I think Linsy told Kak Yan to buy it and then someone told Linsy to buy it and they didn't really confirm with each other and both ended up buying it. It was all good though cause there were so many people at the gathering, even though only 4 families were involved.

Okay so the five of us were at Changi Point and Linsy had to pee and we went around to find a clean toilet. Seriously, the toilet deserve their own blog post for the amount of filth they carry.

We got to this bakery and i had a sweet tooth craving and i saw all different types of puffs and eclairs and Kak Effa was literally just blocking me and stopping me to get any. So we stopped at Subway to have my forever craved for peanut butter cookies and a huge cup of drink shared between the 5 of us. Linsy finally found a toilet she could go to without having to hold her breath.

Yeah. another story for next time.

We got back to the camp site and gave everyone their drinks. Other than ice, we bought some coconut juice, sugar cane juice with lemon and some hot drinks for those who doesn't like cold drinks. We decided for the two birthday girls to cut the cake and everyone got a slice, or two, since there were two different cakes because of the misunderstanding that was told above.

We ate a lot, we talked a lot. Once there were four conversations that were happening concurrently. A whole lot of shuffling going on. Haha it was funny cause not all of us were able to shuffle. Aunt Maz, Kak Effa, Kak Yan and I continued dancing to some random songs even after some of them have went home.

I had the best work out that week! We were so sweaty and our cheeks hurt from laughing so hard. It was mad fun.

Linsy slept a little bit earlier than all of us, but she was looking for food when she got up. Hilarious face ever! Haha she'll sit in front of the food section and was looking around and she said she was making up her mind on what to eat. That's how much food we got. It's crazy.

By night time everyone was pretty much bloated and tired. I had a very bad heart burn and i couldn't breathe cause i can literally feel my lungs going cold. Must be all the sugar cane juice with lemon i had. I had like 3 of those and lots of fruit punch.

So, the guys was fishing and almost all the ladies were asleep except Kak Effa, Lylie and I. Lylie was looking at the guys fishing so Kak Effa and I talked about a lot of things and planned for events with the snoring of the others in the background.

i think about 3am, Kak Effa and I went in the tent to try to sleep. I couldn't sleep AT ALL cause the mosquitoes were feasting on me. I couldn't stand all the itching so i went out of the tent. The mosquitoes then feast on Kak Effa, and she too went out of the tent.

I think by this time Kak Yan was awake cause she wanted to pee badly. I accompanied her to the toilet, but oh hell no, it was so dirty that we held in our pee. Kak Effa went back to the tent and ignored all the mosquitoes cause i think she was pretty sleepy.

Kak Yan and I were still thinking on how to relieve ourselves from the torture on the almost bursting bladder. Kak Yan's hubby volunteered to drive us all the way to Pasir Ris just for the toilet. We took the opportunity to pee as well as wash our oily faces.

It was the best wash EVER. Haha you think you'd never appreciate a clean public toilet huh. Well, i did. I appreciated it so much, and the cooling water on my face that i almost cried. Haha, well yeah, i'm a drama queen.

We went back to the campsite and Kak Yan had supper while i just sit there trying my best to sleep but i couldn't cause my wind pipe was pretty much stuck.

I think i slept for a little bit but i got woken up every ten minutes. Cik Nah woke up and talked to me, and then she told me to accompany her to the toilet to take a shower. My mum then woke up and talked to me, then yeah, i just couldn't get to sleep.

I think i finally get to sleep at around 7am, for half and hour cause everyone was already awake and making so much noise. I am a very light sleeper so i can hear everything even though i am asleep.
I woke up and we all started talking about our childhood, about the old days when our parents were younger. We also tell ghost stories. Haha we didn't do it at night cause Changi has a very dark history and there's been a lot of ghost sightings there.

I had fun. I think we all had fun. Oh, we had a weekend cat. We named her "Latchmi" cause it was a black cat, so we assumed it's Indian. Haha, Rehan is a crack up for coming up with the name. The cat just hung around at our campsite so we decided to adopt her for the weekend. Hehe 



We don't have family gatherings often, probably once in three of four months so when we plan for one, we really make full use of the time and catch up.

I really had fun, i wouldn't change anything. I survived the public toilet! Haha yay me.

I reached home at about 1:30pm, almost 2pm and i showered. Best cold shower EVER, and then went to bed. I slept the whole day plus half of today. Even have the time to power nap and i'm still sleepy.

RIDICULOUS!

So, if you readers have read the whole post, i wanna say you better stretch now just in case you get knots in your calves.

Have a lovely day, gorgeous people!

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Thought of the day: Selective friendliness

This post was typed on Notepad on May 13th 2011, Friday at 6:23pm. 

It has to be done cause i was having one of those "thought of the day" moment. That's what i usually do in my blog when i first started out. I blog random topics, sidetracked topics, because my mind tend to wander and i blog whatever my mind is thinking about at that particular time. 


Okay, this is what happened in the bus today while i was running my errands. 


I was in the bus, sitting and minding my own business, while all my groceries were in front of me. I had my brother's chicken cutlet rice on my lap so it doesn't need to get on the floor. So i was just sitting, right, enjoying the view of the world outside the bus and this old person sat next to me in the bus.


Well, okay, he's not THAT old. I don't know, i didn't really see his face, if i have to guess by the voice, i would say late 30s or early 40s. I don't know, maybe late 40s. Haha, that's still old, okay!


So anyway, he sat beside me and he didn't even accidentally pushed me or anything and he was saying sorry. I thought i wasn't paying attention or anything, so i just said that it's alright and continue looking at the outside scenery.


For a few minutes, i was in my peaceful box and was just staring into space. He was talking to his son or whatever. The son was making a hell lotta noise in the bus, but i guess he's a kid with a friend, so meh, it's fine. 


My thoughts were interrupted by this banjo talking to me. Commenting on the smell of the food that is obviously wafting through the air. I just gave him a half-assed smile while still looking out the window. He kept talking to me, saying how hungry it made him feel with the weather being super nice and everything. 


I don't know what it is about this uncle (i'm just gonna call him uncle cause my uncles and dad are around his age), but i wasn't in the mood to reply or anything so i just kept looking out the window. 


He left me alone almost halfway through the journey, which was awesome. You know how girls are able to use their peripheral view, i could obviously see him checking me out from the corner of my eye. I just rolled my eyes. He then started talking again asking me if i lived nearby. I ignored him the second time, i guess he got the idea and stopped talking. 


You see, i am usually a very friendly person and i would try to be nice to everyone. I don't know if it was the weather that made me feel very lazy to socialize. I was really just being a snob to him. He probably deserved it if he was trying to flirt. 


So it kinda got me thinking. Was i being unfriendly and irritable to him because i was feeling lazy or for the fact that he was old, ugly and perverted? 


Well, i couldn't say for sure if he was a perv, but his son was just beside him with his friend at the seat behind and he's just there trying to hit on me. Maybe he was just being friendly? I don't think so cause he kept on looking at me from my head to my toe. Plus, he reeked of cologne, like he broke the whole bottle on him. It's so bad.


Listen, i know i said i like older men but it's the "George-Clooney-Bruce-Willis-Sean-Connery" kind of men. Not the "im-with-my-son-and-im-flirting-with-you-cause-you're-obviously-younger-than-my-wife" type. You get what i'm trying to say? 


To be honest, i feel kinda shallow. It seems like i am only friendly to people who are relatively nice looking and not some dirty old men or guys who try too hard. 


I am not sure where i am going with this blog post, to be honest. 


I feel like i'm a friendly person and people have said that i'm a really nice and friendly person, but is it only to good looking people? I guess i am pretty lucky that most people who hits on me are pleasant looking. Well, i don't know if i know anyone who is not nice looking. Hmm.


Do i choose my friends based on their looks? 


Eeks, that's not so nice of me. Maybe they're all good people to begin with, that's why they look glowy outside? I'm gonna go with that. Don't get me wrong, my friends (real life, Twitter, Facebook) are all gorgeous looking, i just wanna make myself feel better. Haha


Oh my god, am i shallow? 


I don't know, in a way, looks do matter. It's there to grab your attention. You don't have to be ridiculously good looking, but nice looking. Smart outlook and all presentable. 


I have no idea where i'm going with this, so i'm just gonna end it here. Haha

Thursday, May 05, 2011

Moral Dilemma: Robin Hood Robber

Part 2. As usual, the article will be linked. [Article here]


"You have witnessed a man rob a bank, but then, he did something completely unusual and unexpected with the money. He donated it to an orphanage that was poor, run-down and lacking in proper food, care, water and amenities. The sum of money would be a great benefit to the orphanage, and the children’s lives would turn from poor to prosperous. Would you:
a: Call the police and report the robber, even though they would likely take the money away from the orphanage, or
b: Do nothing and leave the robber and the orphans alone?"


I have to say that this is a big dilemma on my moral values, of the life lessons i was brought up upon, and of the conscience of knowing what's right and what's wrong.

Firstly, before i get on anything or before people start accusing me of things, i wanna say that i absolutely do not condone the act of thieving. Secondly, i believe in people earning their keeps.
I know the best thing to do is probably to call the police, since the money are ill-gotten anyways. 

I may have to go for the second choice. I know, it's bad. Here's why. 

1) Banks have insurance anyway, so they'd definitely get back all the money that have been stolen.
2) It's for the orphanage. 


You guys should know that kids are my biggest weakness (yes, bigger than my candy addiction), especially when it comes to orphans. 

I just think that they deserve so much more than what they have right now. Well, i'm sure being an orphan isn't easy, and they have to deal with the loss or the abandonment that was being forced to them. 

I am sure they are strong people, but everybody needs a hand once in a while. 

So yeah, i don't think i'm feeling guilty at all with my answer. I'd say ignore the bank, leave the robber and the orphans alone. They need the money more than those arrogant people anyway. 

What about you guys? What would you do? 

Have a nice day, lovelies!

Tuesday, May 03, 2011

Moral Dilemma: Doctor's Sick Patients

Like i said in the previous post, i have stopped doing the 30 days challenges for the time being cause i'm just tired at the moment. 

I am, of course, gonna continue blogging but just random intervals. 

So, this blog post is just what i would answer to one of the moral dilemmas that can be found in an article. [Moral Dilemmas article] This is gonna be just how I will answer it, so you don't have to necessarily agree with it. 

Lets start.

"You are a very skilled doctor with five dying patients, each of whom needs a different organ in order to live. Unfortunately, there are no organs available to perform any of the transplants. It just so happens that you have a sixth dying patient, suffering from a fatal illness, who will die sooner than the other five if not treated. If this sixth patient dies, you will be able to use his organs to save the five other patients. However, you have a medicine you can give to this sixth patient that will cure his illness and he won’t die. Would you:

a: Wait for the patient to die and then harvest his organs or
b: Save the patient even though the other patients won’t get organs.
If you chose to administer the medicine, would you still do so even if the medicine will not cure the patient, but, instead, delay his death to some short term future date or time after the five patients will have died? Why?"

This is exactly one of the kinds of things that i imagined a doctor would go through. The kind of responsibility each decision holds. 

Wouldn't it be easier if the sixth patient was an organ donor? Even so, he actually need to die first before being able to go in his body to get rid of the organs. 

Haha, picking an option is not as simple as i thought. There are so many things and factors to think about.

I think firstly, i would definitely ask the other family members for opinions. Even though it doesn't help with the decision. 

You know, there are so many complications that comes with transplanting organs. The blood types must be matching, the tissue must be a match too. Not forgetting life expectancy, severity of conditions, influx of diseases and also family support play a huge part in the decision. 

On one hand there's this medication that will cure whatever sickness the sixth patient has, and the other hand, it's the lives of 5 people. 
It's like the life of one person versus the lives of five. Of course the logical thing to do in this case is to save the five lives, but it's actually hard to decide. 

What is the blood type or tissues don't match? What if the body rejects the organ? What if they get diseases after the transplant? 

So many things to think about, it's making me confused. Haha when i started the blog post, i had an answer, now the more i think about it, the harder it is for me to decide. 

Okay, i actually wanted to save the sixth patient since there's a medication that will cure the patient fully, particularly because of the questions i asked above. If the pill doesn't cure anything and just delays the death, then i shall go for the transplant. 

If you tell me there are no risks in the transplant and it's proven that the organ transplants will be 100% success, then yes, i will help save the lives of the 5 patients. 
Yeah, i've made up my mind. I better stop now before i start thinking more and the whole answer gets complicated. 

Besides, i'm sure the sixth patience would want the same too. He's helping the lives on 5 people and in a way, he is still around. 

K, abrupt end. Have a nice day, lovelies!

P/S: Go ahead and tell what you guys would do.

Monday, May 02, 2011

On a rest.

Will resume the next 30 days challenges after this month.

Taking a little break, been pretty tired. I might blog something. Once in two days or three days depending.

So don't miss me too much.

Thanks for everyone who does read my blog though, i really appreciate it so much.

I used to just write blog posts for myself so that's why if you guys read the older posts, it's more personal. I never thought i'd get that much readers, especially not from other countries.

So, to my readers, if you all are reading this, thank you thank you thank you so much.

I will continue blogging so don't worry so much. Haha

Have a lovely day, all! :))