Gimme something to do dammit!

I'm bored. Like seriously bored. Haha, bored to the point where i laughed when my peanut butter crisp fell into my portfolio. It'll be so cool if i just left the crisp there but it'll probably attract ants. Haha

I'm bored. I just gave some of my friends in my phone list missed calls just to irritate them. Haha, I'm a retard.

Oh my goodness, i miss having all those drama with my girlfriends. Meeting them this Saturday! Woohoo. I'm gonna flirt my ass off at a sign on any hot guys. But if there's none then nyeah, I'll flirt with myself! Hahahaha

K, I'm done!

P/S: This marks my 200th post! Yay me!

We're all going to hell!

FORGIVE ME FATHER FOR I HAVE SINNED.

Violet's 7 layers chocolate filled birthday cake was gooooood. I'm going straight to fat camp!

Haha

I can be your addiction if you wanna get hooked on me

I WANNA DRINK PAPAYA MILKSHAKE FOR BREAKFAST, LUNCH AND DINNER EVERDAY!

Ha, long story. Inside joke! Haha

I lost my final fight to disease, I feel that this is where it ends

So here's the thing, i think i did blogged about Mages eating the same food time and time again during lunch. And today, I'm supposed to blog about how she changed her lunch menu (from the normal egg, hashbrown and sausages to fishball noodle soup), but i totally forgotten to bring my USB cable so therefore no proof. Gah! There should be a picture accompanying this paragraph but pardon my absent-mindedness please. Thank you.

P/S: I'll try to update this part again once i get the pictures up! Tee hee!

[Update: 12th July 2008, 0002 hours]

As promised, prove of Mages' change of lunch menu! Tee hee!

[End of update!]

Anyhooooo, I've been having this bad lower abdominal pains so being the paranoid hypochondriac that i am, i begin googling my symptoms. I found this website (but can't remember the URL, sorry) that will list down all the possible diagnoses just by selecting your symptoms from a list.

Of course, when it falls into the hands of an illness-stricken emotional wreck like me, it turns out to be more of a liability instead. I mean yeah of course, it's cool and all to have the possible causes listed down for you but really, do you want it? Haha, i got scared really and just became more paranoid.

It's like, "Maybeee, just maybeeeee i could have that.. or that.. or that.. ahhh!"

I told Sally the reason why i keep dragging my making an appointment to the doctor is because I'm scared. I keep playing all the worse-case scenarios in my head and try to prepare myself for any kinda news but honestly, i don't think it's enough. Sure, it'll be fine if i have just some gastritis or something but what if it's something serious?

Sally told me to define this something serious. So i said "What if the doctor told me 'You might just as well enjoy what's left of your life.'?". As usual Sally thought i was exaggerating but can we know for sure? So she told me to just go with the flow.

I'm here now to tell everyone my decision. I think I'm not going to the doctor for a check up. Since Sally told me to go with the flow, i think I'd rather just let nature take its course.

If there's nothing wrong with me, the abdominal pains and lower back pains will eventually go off. If not, then nyeah, you know. We'll die eventually. Am i being a little too pessimistic? Haha sorry about that.

Oh i don't know. I know i should go but it's just that I'm a little scared. What if it's bad, you know? I want someone to be there for me to hug me and tell me that everything's gonna be fine (even if it's self-evidently not).

Anybody wanna accompany me? *pouts*

P/S: I know who i want to accompany me but he's wayyyyyyyyyy back in Michigan! Lol, k I'll shut up now! *innocent grin*

I'm my own worse enemy

There are some guys in school that don't like me. You know what? They show it too. There are guys in school that make fun of me. You know what? They're not discreet about it.

Enough about the guys, cause you know why? Because i don't give a rat's ass about what they think of me. It's not as if they're the one's gonna be writing my appraisal form. And another thing is because i don't really care, really. Please, am i supposed to be effected by their behavior? I don't think so, they've barely step onto my life, let alone left a footprint.

And you know what? It's not my fault that they think they're better than me (or anybody else for that matter). I don't know what kinda kick they have hating me but hey, atleast they made me the center of their world. Cooool!

Yes, once again. Forget about the guys. I'm just writing about this to show how stupid some of the guys in my school are. Who cares if any of them happen to read this, definitely not me!

Nyahaha. Before looking at other people's bad side, look at yourself first okay? Thanx! *smiles*

Oh dear, i missed my secondary school friends! I'm just in contact with with Sally and Belle. Sometime with the people in MSN and some of the people in the same school as me now. I'm thinking of planning a gathering or something with the secondary school people. We'll see yeah.

Anyhoo, haha hot gossip! I'm not gonna tell you people though, just to those who matters. And I've already called those people! Tee hee

Yeah anyway, my MP project is so over! Had final presentation yesterday and i think my group did well. There's a few bloopers here and there but it's all good. Haha, it's cute that i was the one briefing the group for the presentation instead of Nic (since he's the leader and all) and no one briefed me! Boo hoo! Well anyways, i think we did really good. Hope it's good enough to pass though.

Went shopping with the girls again. Yeah, the same girls i went shoe shopping with. We went for tunch (a word John came up for tea time plus lunch) at Bugis as John was driving. Here's the thing, we gave John alot of opportunity to enhance his friendship with Winnie but it didn't seem like he's seizing the chance. We let Winnie sit in the passenger seat, we let them face each other during tunch and we even left them alone for atleast 15 mins while we purposefully took our own sweet time to decide on what to eat. But nothing seems to be happening with them! Haha, we're just playing matchmakers that's all. They look kinda cute together too actually.

Haha okay, enough about them. I shouldn't care too much about other people's love life, i should care about mine! It's totally non-existent so let's not talk about it. Haha

Back to shopping! Bought two jeans from Bugis Street and then proceeded to Dhoby Ghaut to ransack This Fashion. Haha, we were really going through every inch of that store and tried on alot of clothes and stuff but in the end, i just bought a jumper. It's really cute! I love it, haha!

Abrupt end!

I'll catch up with the blog soon! Nyahaha

Bye people!

How i miss someone to hold, when hope begins to fade

I just want everything to go back to normal.

Where being in love don't matter. Where material things are just worldly possessions. Where being happy mean lying on the grass and looking at clouds float by.

Being happy is one thing, but staying happy is the hard part. I don't know, it's becoming harder and harder for me to stay happy. The pleasures of favourite things are there only for a second and then it's gone, just like that.

I don't know what i need to stay happy and motivated. Even friends, yeah they're there and I'm happy. After that, then what? Okay so i said Rob makes me happy but, it's just been different. He's different, maybe even me. It's just, not like last time.

School's my escape for unhappy things but it's been stressful and full of two-faced people making use of each other. Not my lecture mates, but i mean other people, their negativity is affecting me in a way.

I just NEED everything to go back to normal.

So really, what's the recipe to stay happy? Anybody nice enough to tell me? I'm all ears.

Colour coordinate with 'dem shoes, yo we divas but we ride like big boys do

So i totally blew my ICC lab test. Don't ask, i got 4 out of 10. Damn the pressure function! I so wanted the stupid water limit paper. Whatever, this always happens to me. I wanted to study the function in i didn't cause i was being lazy and was just irritated. Nah, it was nothing. I was doing my project judging presentation slides but the computer was super laggy! So i was trying to save the file and send it to my email to continue it another day but the stupid computer wasn't cooperating. It keeps freezing and at the same time, my groupmate for Automation project was complaining non stop about the other group mates and it was annoying the fuck out of me! I just told her to stop talking, slapped the LCD screen twice and continued with what i was doing.

Went to have early dinner (or late lunch, whichever way you look at it) with the girls at Flavours @ IT. I begged Mages to accompany me to Bugis to pierce my lip/tongue but she blatantly refused cause she's scared of the procedure i guess. Anybody wanna accompany me?

Anyhoo, the girls were totally against the idea of me having my tongue but I'm gonna do it anyway. I'm thinking of doing it this weekend but i just remembered that i have a presentation and an interviewing skills assessment this month and i believe i still need my oral skills. Haha, i don't wanna fail just because i can't talk properly due to the swollen tongue. So maybe end of this month? Be patient Robert (haha, just kidding)!

Mages told me to cancel off the idea as i won't be able to eat for 10 days after the piercing but i told her that it's fine since i wanna lose some weight anyway, and then Mages started lecturing me about eating only once a day which have caused me some abdominal discomfort. She even did some re-enactment of me crouching down and applying pressure on my tummy. It was hilarious but the pain was really unbearable.

I used to have it when i was younger but the doctor gave me some pills and i was fine after that. And then a few years back, i started having this gastric attacks but the pain is totally different from what I've been having lately. I started having sharp tugging pain at the left side of my abdominal. It's been a few months but these few weeks have been frequent and each time it lasted for hours. It have this sudden attack kinda thing and it's really annoying cause i can't walk, if i do, it'll aggravate the pain even more.

Let me describe the pain to you like how i described it to all other people. It's like someone stabbed me with a really sharp and cold blade and twisting the blade repeatedly before leaving it there for 3 hours and then pulling it out very very slowly. Yes, that! I know, i watched too much gore movies.

Mommy and Robert have been telling me to visit the doctor but i refused cause i don't wanna find out that i only have about 3 more months to live. Or worse, i have to go for immediate surgery and then the surgery turn out to be a failure and i die. I know, I'm thinking too much and they're right to ask me to see the doctor but I'm a little scared i guess. Miss me when i die okay!

Didn't feel like going home straight last night so went shopping with the girls. We're supposed to follow Mages to buy her shoes for presentation but we being girls and all just tried on the shoes too.

There's this shoe that i tried and it was gorgeous. When i found out that the shoes only cost twenty bucks, like oh my goodness, what a bargain! Haha. I was contemplating buying those shoes so the girls decided to go show window shopping first. I saw alot of other pretty shoes but the shoes i tried on the first time was still on my mind. I can literally hear the shoes calling out to me.

"Arynnnnnneeeeeeee, buyyyyyy meeeee", the shoes called out and i can see my name all over the shoes. So i decided to buy it. I was super happy, i was telling my friends that I'll even sleep with the shoes last night (but of course i didn't).

Wanna see my shoes? If you look close enough, you can see my name written all over it. Haha just kidding!

WinnieC told me to write about Mages' eating habits. Haha, I'll try to sum up what we talk about in one paragraph or less. Basically, WinnieC noticed that Mages have been eating the same food everyday. Sausages, hashbrown and egg. Want prove? Haha

Nyahaha! Enjoy!