I can tell you want me too and you know i'm right

Gah! Here's the truth!

I'm not okay that he's with her. I'm not okay that he told me he still have feelings for me. I'm not okay when he said he like her.

WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING?!

Why did i tell him that I'm gonna be fine when I'm not? Why did i tell him i want him to forget about me? Why the fucking hell did i tell him to be with her?

SHE DON'T DESERVE HIM, I DO!

Haha, i sound like a sore loser, but I'm not.

I didn't steal him away from her.

Rob said he'll stay, to never leave me. He said he'll take care of me, protect me.  HE PROMISED.

I guess i started pushing him away when he told me that it's not possible between us, since I'm in Singapore and he's in Michigan.

I DON'T FUCKING CARE ABOUT THE DISTANCE.

He told me, "TOGETHER FOREVER, NEVER APART, ONLY BY DISTANCE, NEVER IN HEART"

I remember all that because somewhere in me, within me, knows that he meant what he said.

I don't see the logic in him telling me he cares about me and then turn around and date other girls.

Yes, I'm nobody to him but what the hell was i thinking when i told him to date other girls when i clearly know that i want him.

WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING?!

NO ROB, I'M NOT GONNA BE OKAY EVEN THOUGH I KEEP TELLING YOU THAT I'LL GET OVER IT. YOU'RE A GREAT GUY, THAT'S WHY I FELL FOR YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE, NO MATTER HOW FUCKED UP YOU THINK YOU ARE.

NO ROB, I'M NOT OKAY THAT YOU'RE WITH HER. I'M NOT HAPPY, WHY SHOULD I BE? I'M NOT THE ONE WHO GETS THE GUY I WANT. I DON'T MEAN IT WHEN I SAID "BE WITH HAU, FORGET ABOUT ME".

NO ROB, DON'T TAKE ME SERIOUSLY WHEN I TELL YOU THAT I'LL GET OVER YOU. DON'T TAKE ME SERIOUSLY WHEN I TELL YOU TO FORGET ABOUT EVERYTHING.

This sucks.

He make me smile, blush and all giggly. WHY THE HELL DID I LET HIM GO?

He make me happy. WHY THE HELL DID I LET HIM GO?

ROB, I REJECTED OTHER GUYS BECAUSE YOU'RE THE ONE THAT I WANT. WHY CAN'T YOU GET THAT?!

I REJECTED OTHER GUYS BECAUSE YOU'RE THE ONE THAT I THINK ABOUT EVERYDAY. WHY CAN'T YOU GET THAT?!

I know all that don't mean anything to you, but it does to me.

You told me you'll wait, why didn't you?

WHAT DOES HAU HAVE THAT I DON'T? HOW IS SHE BETTER THAN ME? DO YOU REALLY CARE ABOUT HER MORE THAN ME?

TELL ME IF SHE MAKES YOU HAPPIER THAN I DID, i doubt it Rob.

I TRUSTED YOU WHEN YOU SAID YOU'RE A MAN OF YOUR WORD. PROVE IT TO ME.

Bring back the smile you took away when you left. I want you Rob, and it hurts me just to watch you leave.

Will you leave her if i want you to?