I think it's best i leave

I don't know how to react to anything right now. I hate fighting. With him. But lately, that's all we've been doing all the time.

Maybe it's me, maybe it's him but i feel like nothing's right anymore. I know it means nothing to him but it does to me. Everytime we fight, i feel horrible.

Probably I'm hoping too much from this friendship. I know i shouldn't but you people don't get it. I like him and me being a serial monogamy type of person just make me feel more.... foolish kinda. I like the friendship and all the little flirts we have, it's just hard to be just friends with him when i have feelings for him.

I know i shouldn't blame anyone but myself. It's almost impossible to forget him when he always make me so happy. You girls know what i mean? It's just that feeling you have when both of you are talking and even if there's a petty disagreement, you know that it's just fun play.

You people are probably laughing at me right now. I know it's just wishful thinking on my part since he's all the way there and I'm here. But i like him you know.

You people don't get it. Hell, i don't think he gets how much i like him. I'm freaking out at how much he made me fall for him. It's unfair.

Honestly once again, i don't know how to be just friends with him. I think it's best i leave.