We've all been lost for most of this life, everywhere we turn more hatred surrounds us

My blog's dead! It's been a while since i last blog. I have so much to blog about but there's hardly any time for me to. Everytime i come online, it's to pass groupmates research materials or to do a report.

I'll try to find time to blog. Seriously, i need to blog. Blogging is an outlet for me, to express what i think and how I'm feeling that very time. It's like an alternate friend. For those people who blog, you should know what i mean.

Anywayz, i haven't been wanting to go home early these few days. Go to school early, stay in school till night time but still refuses to go home. I haven't eaten dinner at home for a good whole week! I eat breakfast in school and dinner outside with the girls. I don't know, i just don't look forward to going home as much anymore.

It's just filled with negative aura, my house. It doesn't feel like a home anymore, it's like there's something there that is feeding on my energy. You all get what i mean? It's crazy cause i prefer to be in school than at home. I don't want to feel like this but there's always arguments going on in the house and it's effecting me.

I've been very short tempered, i blow up at the slightest thing and shouted at every schoolmate that pisses me off. I know it's starting to seem a little overbearing but it's just all these problems I've got and having so many deadlines don't help with anything.

To be honest, i can't solve the problems on my own. I have to admit that i need help, badly but who else can i depend on? There's no one i can truly depend on, not my family and definitely not my friends. Gotta agree with me, they're not gonna be around forever to help me and they too have their own problems, probably much bigger than mine. I have no one to depend on but myself.

Another reason why i don't want people to help is that i know it's my problem. I have to deal with it on my own. I don't wanna trouble anyone with my problems because i know i can never help them with theirs. I'll work it out eventually. If i don't, I'll live with it. Myself, and not troubling anyone.

Thanx Robert, Alistair, Christopher, Zohren, Allysa and Ryan for everything. You all have helped me enough, it's time i work this out on my own.

I'll deal with it... eventually.