Day 26. What kind of person attracts you.

Haha, someone like James Dean! So charming and so suave!


If you guys didn't know, i have actually been in love with James Dean ever since i watched his biography during donkey yonks ago.


I don't find James Dean exceptionally good looking, but there was just something about him.


Haha, okay, lets not talk about James Dean. So, is it physically or not? Lets start with the physical aspect first? OKay, lets!


I am not the kind that goes for really really good looking guys. I find them attractive, that's why i like looking at them, but i have never been attracted to one. I mean, if guys take care of themselves physically, it's good. I just don't like those naturally chiseled jaw bones, with sharp noses and piercing eyes.


I like the kind of guys that are a bit geeky, a little bit socially awkward. I have no idea why, but i find them really interesting.

I like tall guys. They have to be taller than me when i'm wearing heels. I feel a lot safer with a taller guy. It's just my preference.I also like guys with strong arms.

I don't know. There is no specific type that i look for, you know? What about you though?

Day 25. Someone who fascinates you and why.

To be honest, i think people are gonna think i'm crazy, but it is actually Adolf Hitler.

Now, i am not one of those crazy people to be digging up his family history and what not, but i do feel like he was a very powerful individual.

I don't necessarily agree with his ways and i definitely do not give tacit approval to his actions with the gas chambers and what not.

I just feel like he was a very tactical person and also influential, in a way. He let his presence known and was just very assertive to what he wanted. He had a purpose and he went for it.

I don't know. He truly intrigues me. The kind of individual i would want to study in depth on. You know what i mean?

Haha, yeah. I know it's not really justifiable why i picked him, but i have always been curious about him ever since i started liking war histories. Haha

What about you guys? Who fascinates you?

Day 24. Your favourite movie and what it is about.

This is so easy. It is definitely "City Of God".

If i am not wrong, this is based on real characters and real events. In short, it is basically a crime movie based in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil. I think the time line is between end of 1960's and beginning of 1980's. In short it's just a story about drug lords, and their communities.

It's in Portuguese though, so you guys might want to see if they have it in English subtitles.

It is by far the best Language movie i have ever seen, other than that French movie. I definitely recommend this movie. Whether you're into crime movies or not.

Day 23. Pictures of 5 famous guys you find attractive.

In no particular order;

 James Dean

 Zacky Vengeance

Bruce Willis

 Ryan Gosling

Channing Tatum

Day 22. How have you changed in the past 2 years.

Other than the fact that i have stopped caring about those people who treat me as only an option, i think i have become more responsive to my own needs.

I have always put my family first before me, but i think i now know how to keep it balanced. I realized that i do need time for myself too, and that i cannot be selfish to myself.

I do love my friends, my family and my loved ones, but i have learnt to love myself first before anyone else.

There is no change in my trust area though. I am finding it too hard to trust people, as usual. Just, really not a good feeling to be wary of people all the time cause i get these thoughts in my head. Bad thoughts. It's getting a little bit overwhelming sometimes cause i don't know how to make it stop.

I mean, especially when it comes to guys and relationships. I try my best to be happy with the one i'm with and not compare him to the other guys who i don't want to associate myself with anymore, but it gets a little bit hard.

I want to be happy with the relationship and the guy, but when i feel like i am starting to get the hang of the idea that this guy makes me happy, i spazzed out.

I am trying though, one day at a time. So i'm just really lucky that this current guy is a patient one. Taking it step by step, trying to stop myself from thinking that everyone is just out there to hurt me. Yeah, it's gonna take some time, but i'm sure i'll be able to fight it.

So yeah, those are my little updates of what's happening in my head. Haha

Why not you guys tell me instead? I mean, those who do actually read my blog, if there is anyone. Tell me how i've changed over the years. How have YOU?

Day 21. One of your favourite shows.

TOO obvious! Haha

Day 20. How important you think education is.

Wow. VERY.

Well, to me personally anyway. I don't have the highest of education. I only have a Diploma. Even that, i had to work hard for it.

One thing maybe you guys don't know about me is that, i failed my O Levels terribly. It's embarrassing just even talking about it. I got 32 points, i think? I seriously just gave up during that period of time.

The funny thing is that, i loved school. I like going to school and i am one of those people who would do their homework in time and get good grades.

But when i was in secondary four, i just got lazy. Well, actually, i wasn't lazy. I just didn't bother, at all. I know i have to study, and i know i have to give it my all cause i feel like that's actually the start of the rest of your life, but i didn't care. I studied half an hour before the exams and just left a lot of the questions blanks.

I was really embarrassed when i get that kinda results cause my friends were all scoring with flying colours. They weren't the type to go out the night before the exams, they were the type who would meet up at the school or the library to study. I did follow them, but i seriously couldn't be bothered.

I got into Higher Nitec majoring in Engineering. I didn't like Engineering, but i am book smart, so i can actually just understand what's going on without liking the subject. I got really attentive during ITE, i tried so hard to compensate what i had lost during my O Levels.

I did score pretty well, and got recommended by the teachers to actually continue with my Diploma, so i did. I did well during polytechnic, all because i didn't want to feel useless like i did during my O Levels results.

So yeah, i think education is very important cause that's really your stepping stone to go out to the working world. But, don't get me wrong, experiences also plays a major part in surviving the real world.

It's really a mix of both, but i think education shapes you in a way. 

Day 19. Disrespecting your parents.

To be honest, i have been rude to them before. I won't sit here and pretend that i have never talked back to my parents before because i have.

It's part and parcel of growing up. Being rebellious and going against what your parents what you to do/be/say.

One thing about me is that, i always apologize after that. I will feel super guilty about being so rude to my parents, that i will seriously just think about it every minute until i apologize.

I adore my parents to bits, that is not a secret anymore.

I think that people who disrespect their parents are either retarded or just seriously lacking in attention. I can never understand how someone can talk bad about their parents to other people. I can never do that.

Even if my parents did something that i think is against what i believe in, i would never air my dirty laundry to other people. They are my parents. If i am not happy with them, i would talk to them about it, instead of talking to other people about them.

Honestly, i would rather you kill me than ask me to disrespect my parents. I don't even care if my life depended on it. Like, that shows how much i would never want them hurt, especially not my by words and/or actions.

Disrespecting your parents should be punishable by law. For real.

Day 18. Your beliefs.

I do believe in treating others the way you want to be treated.

I don't like lying to others cause i know how it feels like to be lied to. I will try as much as possible not to lie to others cause i put myself in their shoes. If one day, I were to find out that they've been lying to them, how would i feel? I would definitely feel betrayed and i will never trust that person again.

I also don't believe in cheating. At all. To me, there is NO excuse for cheating. I don't care how neglected you feel, or how distant you think your partner is, once you think about cheating on your partner, all i can say is that, you should just leave them.

If you love someone, you would never even think about hurting the other person, let alone cheat on them. I would rather be dropped, than get cheated on.

It's not really an ego thing, it's just the thought that having to share the person i love with someone else, who possibly make him much more happier than me. Also the feeling of being led on. If you want to cheat on your partner, there is definitely no more feelings for them, so i would rather you tell me straight to my face.

I believe that my family comes first before anyone else. They are the ones that i would take a bullet for, or more. I cannot live without them.

What else.

I dunno, really. I am a very honest and straight forward person. I know sometimes i can be a major bitch to people, maybe that's why some of you don't like me. It's fine by me.

Day 17. Your highs and lows of this past year.

Before May this year, i was pretty much jobless and living off savings. I was so depressed, with zero self-esteem and i didn't even wanna care about anything.

I was really really down that period of time. It was so hard to score a job, it was even harder to find a job that actually meets with the criteria that you already possess. Every night all i did was get online and send in as many resume as possible.

Even when i get called up for several interviews, i get more depressed whenever i don't get a response. You all know what i mean? I'm sure people who have been in my shoes before know how it feels like.

Your confidence level basically went downhill. You literally hit rock bottom.

I don't really have that many lows this year. Mostly the fact that i didn't have a job the first half of the year.

Things started to look up when i got a job in late May/early June. I started to save up and everything, lots of things have been paid off. I also have started back with my child sponsorship, which made me so so happy.

And then recently, i started to get break outs. My family should know that i go through pains and hundreds of dollars just to check what's wrong with my skin. I have spent so much to get my skin clear up and it has been a while since it broke out.

Now, i am going back to Dr Foo to get my skin in order again. Hopefully it would get better soon.

There's not much lows this year, it's been great. Loving life, and loving the fact that i have my family around me and that i am still healthy.

Day 16. Your views on mainstream music.

Mainstream music is defined as "music that is popular and nonthreatening to the masses, eg, pop music, pop rap and pop rock",

Honestly, i don't care.

If a song is good, be it mainstream or underground, i'd still listen to it. That's how i am. If they make good music, i don't freaking care if they "sell out" or anything.

Now, don't get me wrong. I love underground music, but to me, if a band is good, i would want other people to know them too. Share good music.

Music nowadays are crap anyway. Why not bring those good bands that nobody knows about and then introduce them to the public.

Sure they get paid, but hey if they get paid for doing something they love, so be it.

I honestly don't know why people get so mad when their favourite underground bands become famous. I really don't get it. I don't mind.

I'll be honest, as much as i like metal, i still listen to The Fray. I also listen to The Pretty Reckless and Kings Of Leon.

They are all mainstream, but that doesn't mean they don't make good music. That's why people listen to them in the first place, cause they have really good songs and are talented musicians.

Note that i say musicians and not performers.

Lady Gaga, Britney Spears and the likes of them have terrible songs. Some sing so badly too. THEY are performers. I don't consider them musicians.

So people, to me, if they're good then they're good. If they're not, then don't listen to them. You don't have to criticize other people's taste in music.

Yup!

Day 15. Your favourite Tumblrs.

Actually, i don't really browse Tumblrs, so i don't have a favourite. Plus, i don't even have a Tumblr account. Haha everyone's so obsessed with it.

It's nothing special, i feel. It's just another way for people to get famous online. Bleah.

But either way, here are some that i visit frequently.

1) Trust no bitch. Ever.
2) Serendipity
3) Images and Words 

Day 14. Your earliest memory.

Okay, i won't tell you guys about the time i peed on the playground. Or the time when i tore my shorts climbing over a fence. Not even the time when i blamed my brother for the fact that i slipped due to me being careless. I have told you guys all that story over and over again, and even though i still think it's funny, i won't bore you all with it anymore.


Lets talk about another fond memory of mine. I was just telling this to my colleague the other day. I don't exactly remembered what age i was, but i was living in my old house in Serangoon, so i was probably about between 4 to 8 years old.

Here's what happened.

I was at this phase where all i wanted to eat was instant noodles. I don't know why, but it's so good. Even now, i still have that phase. All i want is instant noodles or cup noodles.

Anyway, back to the story.

The thing is, back then, i was a pretty fussy eater. I love spicy food but i did not like a lot of vegetables, a lot of Malay traditional dishes. All i wanted was instant noodles.

So my Mum have been slaving over hot stove after coming home from her night shift, and she asked me if i wanted to eat. As usual, i would ask her to cook for me instant noodles and i was throwing a hissy fit cause she wouldn't cook me my noodles. Haha i guess she got angry and started chasing me with a bamboo pole.

Haha, yes, that bamboo pole we use to hang our clothes out to dry.

Ahh, i only remember vaguely what happened but i still think it was pretty funny. I was probably afraid back then, but it's a funny memory.

What about you guys? What memory do you guys have when you were younger?

Day 13. Somewhere you'd like to move or visit.

I will post some pictures of places i'd like to move and/or visit. The only catch is that i won't mention the places. You all have to guess it!

Here goes.

Day 12. Bullet your whole day.

Day 12. Today is the 15th, that's like three days ago! You know what that means? It means i really have been slacking off in terms of blogging! Haha it's okay, nobody really reads it anyway. I do it mostly just for fun and it takes my mind of off things. Being in customer service, you don't really have much time for yourself, you have to be on your feet all the time willing to serve customer so as to please them.

It's weird, cause i've never been a people person, but many colleagues have said that i look very comfortable being around people. Okay, that's another story for another time.

Lets see, 12 of October is a Wednesday. I was working the night shift on that day. So my typical routine for night shift weekday would be.

1) wake up and roll around in bed
2) whatsapp with love
3) check Twitter and Facebook via ze iPhone.
4) take a shower and get ready for work
5) prolly complaining on how hot the weather is or how slow the train is
6) get to work, punch time card, check roster and then check/send email
7) change into uniform and customer pleasing mode ON
8) work, work work, work
9) get back on train to go home
10) take a shower, wash my face, brush my teeth and SLEEEP!

Haha and that's the story! 

Day 11. Put your iPod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.

Day 10. Discuss your first love and first kiss

Wow, they say you can never forget your first love cause when shit happens, it's gonna hurt a lot.

The thing is, i was only a child. Even if it was only a crush, i would still call it love. I was a young girl, i know nuts about love.

Thinking about it now, i probably wouldn't call it love, but back then i thought it was. Like i said, i was only a child, what the hell do i know? Haha, okay maybe a calling myself a child then would be exaggerating. I was a teenager, but if you guys knew how i was back then, you guys would seriously think i'm childish.

Anyway, back to the blog post.

My "first love" was with a guy, the type that you people would actually expect me to like. He has tattoos and multiple stuff. A guitarist. Haha you all know how much i love guitarists.

Basically he's just the typical bad boy in a band. The type all girls would drool over, but avoid. You know? I was just a typical teenager who would fall for every person who looked like a rockstar. Haha

There's not much to talk about, really. He was really nice. Mischievous soul, which i like. It was one of those good relationships that i would rave about. Haha yeah, old story though.

My first kiss was bad. I didn't know where to turn, teeth knocking, tongue all over the place. It was so bad. Haha seriously. Oh, the awkward moment after that. Not sure if you wanna laugh about it, or just be mad and keep quiet. Haha, but it was all good, no one expects the other party to be an awesome kisser the first time. Haha

I didn't even practice before that. You know how people kiss their own hand, or pillow to practice? I didn't do any of that. I was such a kid when i was a teenager. I didn't think about boys or on that curious phase to date. It was all about the fun for me!

Okay, short story, and not really interesting but it was a bad one that i wish no one would remember. Haha what about you guys? What happened on your first kiss?

Share!

Day 09. How you hope your future will be like

Wow okay, big question. Haha

We all don't know what the future holds, but i guess we can hope. Of course, once you hope, you have to actually move in the direction you wanna be in and not just hope for miracles to happen. You have to work for it, honey. Mhm.

Anyway, yeah. I don't ask for much, i just wanna be happy. Haha once again, everyone's definition of happiness is different. For me, happiness is not owning that new gadgets, or buying the latest product trends, or having expensive brands for irrelevant things.

For me, happiness is being able to be with the one you love. Being able to still see your precious family when you wake up. Being able to enjoy that little moment of bavardage with your girlfriends. It's just really depends on the standard you set for yourself, really.

I would love to own a car by then, but if i don't, i wouldn't be too worried about it. You know what i mean?

I just want to be able to say that i have lived the most of my life. Have done all the things i am capable of doing, at least once, if not twice.

I also want to be able to support myself and also hopefully my family? Haha yeah, i am not afraid to say that in the near future (not necessarily NEAR, haha), i do want to get married and have kids.

I just, yeah, basically just fulfill what i can and just live the most of my life left. I am pretty happy at the moment, so hopefully it would drag on to the future. 

Day 08, A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life

I haven't achieved a lot of things that i want yet, but mostly i am very happy with my life. Although some people might say that if you're contented with your life, how are you gonna improve on the quality?

Simple. Just do your very best. A lot of people compare their lives with others and that's what make them unhappy with their own lives. Instead of being thankful for what they already have, the compare what they don't have to the people that do have. Of course you're never gonna be happy with your life if you keep thinking that way.

I am happy with my life, but i still think there are room on where i can improve on. I do it cause i want to, not because i don't have things that other people have. I don't care about those other people, and their material things.

I have to say, ever since i started working, i have been very satisfied with my life. Tiring to earn the money, yes, but when you know that all the things you buy is from your hard work and sweat and tears, it's all worth it.

I am pretty lucky. My parents took care of all the necessities ever since i was young. Even when i was in polytechnic, my parents paid most of the things i need. I feel bad, of course, for troubling them. That's why now that i am working, i feel so happy with it cause it is all me.

I don't need to depend of my parents for the things i want anymore. I also get to support them with whatever little i have. I get to save up for things i want, for trips or even just for nothing.

It's really fulfilling for me to be living my live for myself. I love my parents to bits, my friends and family, but actually having to control your own life by yourself, is very satisfying.

Day 07. Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.

I was born on December 14th, so that makes me a Sagittarius.

To be frank, i don't believe in horoscopes, even though i read it. I mean, there are MILLIONS of Sagittarians out there and obviously the general overview of what makes and/or define a Sagittarian may not fit with every single one of us. Of course, there are coincidences where a certain trait fits you to a t.

Nevertheless, lets go through what we know about being Sagittarius and i'll see if it's applicable to me.

Whenever you read about Sagittarius, a lot of websites emphasize our need for freedom. I might agree. I, personally, do not like being constraint. I also do not like schedule or a time line for me to do something. You know what i mean?

I like socializing and being around people, but i don't like to be in crowded places. It annoys the heck out of me. Mostly cause of the stuffiness, plus, some people smell so bad.

Sagittarius are also curious people. I love learning about new things, experience new cultures and get to know new people. Which is also a Sagittarius trait, which is being friendly.

I am very friendly, but some people can't stand me. I don't know why, maybe cause they find me bitchy? Only cause i'm honest. I am no-nonsense type of person when it comes to honesty. The think is, i am REALLY nice, but once people start to insult me, i do fight back. I guess that's where my fire sign comes in.

I like traveling and i get bored really easily. I need to constantly do something. I don't like desk-bound jobs, i like a job that enables me to meet different people and be in a lot of situations.

Well, i am very generous towards my loved ones, and i am very protective of them. I am fiercely loyal.

Haha, well, if you read most of the traits of a Sagittarius, those mentioned above are part of it. There are, of course, traits that are relevant. Some don't really apply to me.

Like, easily trusting people. I am not like that. It is really hard for me to trust someone, even if i have known the person for years. I am also not patriotic, like how a Sagittarius person is assumed to be in a lot of websites that i read. I like my country, but i don't feel like i would want to die for my country selflessly.

Basically i just explained with basic traits that i think fits me and what don't. It's all very general anyway, our personality and traits, though some are inborn, there are many more that we learnt through experiences.

So yeah, just take some time each day just to get to know yourself better. You might surprise yourself.

Day 06. Write 30 interesting facts about you.

Well, some facts may not be interesting cause you have to admit it, these things usually don't come when you think about it. It will suddenly come to you after a few days. Haha either way, the following are what came into my head at the moment of this blog post.


1) Not everyone i know in real life knows my real name
2) It is not a secret that i like firemen, but i was genuinely sad when the firemen in Singapore are not as hot as the ones in the calender. Haha
3) I do not like the taste of mayonnaise.
4) I am a chocolate addict. Sugar addict, more like it. I cannot live without candy.
5) I have tried going cold turkey from sugar, even tried reading a book about kicking sugar addiction. FAILED!
6) Carmen Electra was my first ever real same-gender crush.
7) I am very much in love with James Dean.
8) Yes, i have dreamt about marrying Bruce Willis.
9) I like cooking but i don't like to eat.
10) I feel guilty after i eat, which resulted in me not eating for a few days.
11) I don't take promises from people seriously anymore. If they fulfill it, then cool. If not, then meh, expected.
12) I don't like following trends.
13) I feel like people who follow trends really have no sense of originality or even confidence cause they need to be assured that they are being accepted by society by wearing things that have already been approved by the masses.
14) I don't like dead bodies.
15) I don't bear grudges but once i don't like you, even if i have forgiven you, i still won't like you.
16) I don't take criticisms to heart cause i feel like the people who insult others are just a bunch of loveless attention seeking brats.
17) I am not one to apologize when i am not proven wrong, but once i am wrong, i WILL apologize and i mean it too.
18) A lot of people told me before that their first impression of me is that i am a snob. I'm not, I'm actually very friendly.
19) People always say i look nice and innocent and a total sweetheart. They obviously don't know how bitchy i can get.
20) Even though i like metal, i still listen to other genres.
21) I like snakes and bats. I am not afraid of creepy crawlies but i HATE lizards and rodents.
22) I search my symptoms just to see if i have an illness.
23) I always feel like i will die before 30.
24) I like reading horoscopes but i don't believe in it.
25) Be it Christians, Muslims or others, extremists piss me off.
26) I am pretty much gutsy. I pretty much will try EVERYTHING at least twice.
27) I have issues with not having my feet on the ground.
28) I have trust issues that i am currently working on.
29) Sometimes i push people away to see if they will indeed stay.
30) I cannot live without my family.

Day 05. A time you thought about ending your life.

To be real honest with you, i have NEVER tried to end my life.

I have gone through so many deep valleys in my life, so many drama and so many bad experience, but i can safely say that i have never tried to kill myself.

Well, i guess i am one of those lucky people who can bounce back when they hit the bottom. I feel like i am the master of my own destiny. I control the situation i am in, not the other way round.

Yes, i do get depressed. Yes, i do feel like i am nothing. Just an insignificant little part of the population. I do feel like i have lost everything before, but i just pulled myself out of the rut.

I feel like running away from your problems or even ending your life is actually a cowardice act. There ARE people who cares, even though at that point of time, you don't think they do.

You just need support. Try looking for it around your family that loves you, your friends that adores you and those loved ones who couldn't live without you.

Don't do anything irresponsible, even though you feel like it will end all your problems. The ones who have to deal with it are the people that you left behind. That loved you truly and unconditionally.

Honestly, if you think about all those things and people that fills your life with care and concern, and kindness, you can go through anything. 

Day 04. Your view on religion.

Me answering this question is not to make some of you people angry at me. It's just me voicing out on my opinion, as usual.


As per normal not many people will agree with me, but with that said, i DO NOT want you people to come preach to my face about it.


I really don't.

Now, before you people bash me, i would just like to say that i do believe in God. I do thank Him for all that i have, for all the days i could still wake up in the morning and spend time with my loved ones.

I, however, do not have faith in religion.

I know what you guys are gonna say? How could you believe in God if you do not have faith in religion? Well, because to me, there is only ONE God. He is the creator, He is the merciful. Just one.

Okay, to be fair, i don't really have a problem with religion cause each religion actually teaches us the same thing. Respect, discipline, honor and definitely responsibility. There are, of course, other values that religion teaches us.

What i actually do not like, is when people interpret certain verses in their respective holy book the way they want it to be, and totally misconstrued on the real meaning of the verse/holy book. Really, just. It is really hard to keep my faith in religion with the people around it trying to twist every single thing the book teaches.

Maybe one day, my faith in religion will be restored again, but till then. *smiles*

Day 03. What are your views on drugs and alcohol

Well, to be honest, i find the people doing both to be brain dead.

I mean, some people drink one glass of wine per day or they don't drink irresponsibly and doesn't really hurt anyone. That's okay with me.

But there are people who drink cause they can't do anything without drinking.

Same goes for drugs.

I don't care if you do it, just don't hurt other people in the process. That's what they don't realize. They may think they're just having fun but having excessive of either and/or both things hurt the ones you love.

You may not be abusive physically, but mentally, you're basically raping them.

I am not gonna judge those people who do them, but i have seen first hand what both things can do to a person and their loved ones to even be curious about them.

I can honestly say that even though i wonder why people do it, i have never been curious enough to try. It's stupid, really.

Besides, i have my own natural high to even be bothered about those things.

So all i can say is, if you wanna drink, drink responsibly. Don't do drugs. Seriously, it's not worth it. 

Day 02. Where you'd like to be in 10 years.

Simple.

I want to be married to a devoted man with 4 great kids living in a cozy, homely place.

OR

Be a world traveler.

I don't mind either way. Haha.

Day 01. Your current relationship, if single, discuss how single life is.

Apparently, according to Facebook, i am engaged to that guy mentioned above. Haha well, you know what they say. If it's on Facebook, then it must be true.

Haha, i am joking. No ring. *hint hint wink wink* Hahaha.

Nah, trying to take things as they come. Comes March, we'll see what happens.

Not going into details, cause there are spies on my Facebook and Twitter. Yup, there are some and they don't like to see me happy. Haha

October's 30 days.

Random youtube video part 14

I don't care if you people try to be all cool and call the next video lame. I find it real amusing and i could watch it so many times in a day. It actually helps me not think after a whole day of thinking and working and dealing with people's noses in my business. So yes, i hope it does the same for you. ENJOY!

Random youtube video part 13

This song is stuck in my head. Anyone wanna serenade me? I will marry you. Haha

P/S: THIS cover specifically, not the one by N'Sync. Haha



OR

Sing this next song for me too, and i'll marry you if you ask me to. Hahaha, i'm just kidding. But yeah, i want someone to sing this song for me. *smiles*

Random youtube video part 12

I am subscribed to them on youtube and i also follow them on Twitter.

Possibly because i love reading about random facts that i don't necessarily need in real life. Haha i don't know, i just like fascinating facts, that i can throw out there during conversations. Hahaha

Anyways, enjoy!

Random youtube video part 11

Nothing to say except this song is stuck in my head, so enjoy!

Random youtube video part 10

Relieving fond childhood memories.

I remember having to go to bed cause i have school in the morning and struggling to keep awake cause the show is usually at about 11 at night.

I love watching this show when i was growing up. It was a really interesting show for me, and i have always liked this kind of genre.

So, i am gonna post a video of it and i hope you all enjoy The Twilight Zone.

 

Random youtube video part 9

I watched Final Destination 5 with the girls yesterday and as you all know it, i like those kinda movies, even though it gets repetitive at times.

I like watching horror, gore and such. I feel a little bad though cause Rehan said her heart nearly stopped. Haha, she's exaggerating i know, but she really doesn't like watching these type of movies.

So i'm just gonna post some Happy Tree Friends for you since that cartoon reminds me so much about Final Destination. Haha enjoy!

Random youtube video part 8

I am practically brain dead today. I don't feel like having any intelligent conversations and/or watch any intelligent videos/movies.

I am gonna let my brain rest and be silly.

Anyway, this next subscription was actually to Happy Tree Friends. Those cute little animals that gets brutal accidents. Haha yes, i used to laugh at that a lot. I don't know, i find it SUPER funny!

But anyways, i think they have stopped showing Happy Tree Friends, and now they have all those new other shoes on Mondo Media.

My favourite show now on that channel is Dick Figures. It's good cause i don't need to use my brain to watch it. It's just blatantly funny without even having to think about the joke. So enjoy!

Random youtube video part 7

I honestly don't know why i am subscribed to this. It is a little bit offensive with the dirty sexual references and everything, but i actually enjoyed this.

Especially when i go home after work and then all i wanna do is not think and unwind myself. You seriously don't need your brains for this, well except for the movie references that they have at the beginning of the series.

It's funny in a dry kind sense of humour, so if you are all smart and won't even leave your brain for a little while, you might not enjoy this.

But here's their latest episode, you be the judge. Enjoy!

Random youtube video part 6

I was in the kitchen with Mummy helping her cook dinner while we do our crazy antics and i was having a Nutella banana sandwich when i started having this mood to listen to R&B songs and the most randomest song just popped up in my head.

Enjoy!

Random youtube video part 5

Even though i love my metal and my rock, i still love listening to other different type of genres.

I don't actually like people who says they listen to ONLY metal cause it's not true. Metal is made up of so many influences. Anyway, we all know that heavy metal is a genre of rock, so i believe it is okay to be open to different types of music.

I mean, as long as you like it, who are the others to judge? Yeah.

Anyway, i love different types of genre. Especially if the band is funny, in personality and in lyrics. So this next song will pretty much speak for itself.

I used to sing this song all the time. ALL. THE TIME. I'm not kidding. I used to sing it in school, in the bathroom, to my friends and my family, EVERYWHERE.

I don't care how old this song is, it still makes me laugh. A LOT. So enjoy!

Random youtube video part 4

This next guy don't need any introduction.

He is a personality all on its own, don't you think so? Yes, i am talking about Ray William Johnson.

I like the way he present the three videos of the day, and he's hilarious! If you watch him, i'm sure you all are fans of him too. So yeah, enjoy!

Random youtube video part 3

There are two songs stuck in my head at the moment. The funny thing is, when my head is playing one song, the other song just injected itself into my brain. Hahaha, but nevertheless, i want to share those two songs with you guys! Enjoy!

Random youtube video part 2

This video was in 2008, and this video is in my Favourite tab on YouTube.

Haha, i don't know, i really find this funny. I love watching Shane Dawson sometimes whenever i get bored and need something to laugh at.

He's always funny, even though it's in a lame kind of way. He's got all these characters, with different outrageous personalities, so he makes me laugh A LOT.

Anyhoo, check out the video, haha i love the nerdy part. Couldn't stop laughing.

Tee hee, have a nice day!

Random youtube video part 1

"What do you know about bacon, haters?!"


I don't think i need to introduce you all the the one and only Sauce Boss.


Haha, i'm pretty sure you all know who i'm talking about. Especially if you love bacon and bitches. Haha, i'm kidding.


I'm talking about Epic Meal Time of course.


The thing about them is that, even though it's disgusting the way they incorporate ALL those meat and booze, i actually enjoy watching them. Though, yes, i do feel like barfing whenever i watch them eat. It's majorly disgusting,


If you all are subscribed, or have even watched them once before, you all know what i'm talking about.


I am actually always wondering how they're not massively obese by now. How are they even able to come up with these kind of ideas and stuff? I'm pretty sure they're high or something while filming their videos.


Haha, so yes, i am an avid fan of Epic Meal Time, even though i wouldn't even think about eating what they make. No offence to all vegetarians though, cause they're hardcore carnivores.


I've gotta get me some of their t-shirts! You can find them here.


I'm gonna leave you all with a video of what made me subscribe to them in the first place. Enjoy!

September's thing.

I think this September, i am gonna stop the 30 day challenge for a while and pay a tribute to YouTube.

Haha, yes, you read me right, folks. A whole month of youtube on my blog. Weee. I am on youtube every single day. I'm sure you all are to. Be it to watch music videos, or some funny clips or make fun of people's misery, we go to youtube.

Of course sadly sometimes it feels like i am living in Narnia since youtube banned certain videos to be shown in some regions of the world.

Either wayyyy.

I am probably gonna post video of the day, or a video from some channels that i am subscribed to. Maybe even go to my "Likes", "Favourites" and "Playlist" randomly and pick a video from there to post on my blog.

That way you guy can know what i do on youtube every single day. Haha

My youtube channel: http://www.youtube.com/user/ArynneVengeance

Day 30- Ways you believe you have grown over the past thirty days.

People say you learn new things about yourself everyday.

Be it how much you can tolerate annoying people, or how easily it is to ignore someone who's pissing you off.

This month for me, i guess is pretty challenging because it was the fasting month. And it's my first time working two shifts. So it's kinda hard to actually be with your family for break fast. I also have only 10 minutes to eat cause there was only one person to man the counter.

Also, i find out how patient i can get with people. Everybody knows i am the most impatient person in the whole world. IN THE WHOLE WORLD. Being the fasting month and all, i seriously had patrons testing every last ounce of patience i have. But, i just suck it up and toughen it out cause it's what i chose to do.

And, of course, i realize that it's so much easier to not care about a person. Especially if all they've ever done was hurt you and played mind games with you. I have completely stopped blaming myself for what this particular person is feeling and/or doing. Also i have stopped trying to make amends with this person cause i could not stand the childishness any longer.

Oh, and also, i like kids. LIKE. A lot. I want kids. Haha just kidding.

But basically these past 30 days haven't been THAT challenging, so there's not much to learn from everything. Haha take care!

Day 29- What you live for.

Well, i dunno, but i like to help people.

Be it strangers, or other people. My own family, of course. But i like to know that i'm the one they come to when they need help.

It's nothing about pride really, but when i help people, i actually feel a sense of accomplishment. Like my existence really mean something and i'm not just wasting space on Earth and air.

You know what i mean?

Day 28- A moment you remember being completely happy in and a description of why you believe you were. What is your definition of happiness?

I have a lot of happy moments. That's one thing about me, even when i have a problem, i would most definitely treasure every single moments i have with my friends, family and loved ones.

Let me see, i guess it has to be when i was on a holiday with my family to Disneyland. Yeah, it is indeed the happiest place on Earth.

My parents recently divorced during that time but it really made me forget slightly about the horrible incident. I really did just let go and be a kid, even though i was already 12.

I had so much fun just having no responsibilities, be reckless and just be a child. It's the most incredible feeling in the whole wide world.

That's why i always remind myself to think young. Have a sense of humour of a kid, everything is much funnier that way.

Happiness is just about accepting what you have and not worry so much about the things that don't concern you. Being around the people who cares about you and those who would be by your side despite the good or the bad.

Happiness is just being yourself and not care about what other people think about you. Be comfortable with yourself and everything will rest easy.

Just have fun, break the rules, live like a dare devil. But be safe, of course. 

Day 27- Your definition of the meaning of life.

Life. I like my life, that's why whenever i hear people saying that life is boring, i am tempted to ask why.

Life is everywhere, in my opinion. It's in school, it's in the work place that you go to every single day. It's in books, it's in objects, in food, in people.

Your friends, your family and your loved ones, that is also part of the meaning of life.

I really do not understand how people can find life boring. It's not just about planned events, it's about the unplanned too.

The broken hearts, the tears, and everything single thing, that is the meaning of life. Your memories, your actions, the consequences.

They are all different depending on what you do, and it's one thing that is interesting, i feel. The lesson learnt, all the friends you have lost throughout the years, all the new ones you've gained.

That is life. So seriously people, why do some of you think that life is boring?

It's everywhere, and everything, so just enjoy it.

Day 26- Your definition of love.

Well once again, a backdated post. Why? Cause yesterday i had this topic on my screen the whole day. I honestly do not know what to write here.


But then again, the moment i read the title of this blog post, i thought about my dad.

You see, the thing about my dad is that he doesn't say that he cares about you, he's one of those few people that actually shows that he cares.

When i was younger, my father took care of me, solely because my mother worked night shifts. So it's not really a wonder that i'm more closer to my dad.

I used to have a really bad case of asthma when i was little and i am very sensitive to a lot of things. Even the smallest amount of cold drinks could trigger my asthma. I couldn't laugh a lot either cause it will cause me to wheeze.

You see, i always get attacks at the wee hours in the morning, where the air gets colder. When that happened, i couldn't sleep, i couldn't do anything. I couldn't sit, couldn't stand, couldn't even lie down cause i seriously felt like dying. My father would wake up every single time just to make me a hot cup of tea and rub ointment on my back and throat.

He would actually just stay up and help me get comfortable until i actually fall back to sleep.

He also used to pick my brother and i up from school every single day and he would bring us little treats. Like our favourite candy and a bottle of our favourite drinks.

Even though he doesn't say it, i know he cared about us, and genuinely loved us. So yeah, that's my definition of love.

Sacrifice, concern and trying to make the one you care about happy, that's what i see when i look at him. 

Day 25- Something you would do if no one stopped you or if you knew you wouldn’t fail.

Haha this is so cool.

Attempt at a mass suicide. And keep all the open minded, smart and beautiful people.

Haha, i'm kidding. Sorry, i shouldn't joke about that. Things like this is really happy everywhere around the world and i am being insensitive, so i apologize.

Hm, what would i do if no one stopped me and if i knew i wouldn't fail?

I don't know, i want to think of something crazy but i can't at the moment. Probably try to build a time machine and go back in time just to marry James Dean. Haha

He's so hot. Was. Was. Sorry, but James Dean is the definition of hot. Tee hee.

I don't know, like, i can't think of anything at the moment, maybe when i do, i'd edit this post.

How about you guys though? Share! :)

Day 24- Something you did as a child that other people remember you for.

Okay, from what i remember from them telling me is that, i LOVE dancing. Well, they love to make me dance. Even when i was little, when i just learn how to stand, they would make me dance.

Now, the thing is, it's not the normal dance. They will sing this one random song and then make me shake my body.

I'm assuming it kinda looked like i had the fits cause i was a chubby baby. I don't know. It's cute, i guess.

Yeap! I wish they had video me doing that, but ah well! 

Day 23- Most awkward first impression you feel you’ve ever given

Hm, this is hard.

I honestly have never had any awkward first impression. And if i do, then i don't remember.

Hm, i really don't remember. Mostly cause even when it's awkward, i become very thick skinned and do or say something stupid/funny/annoying just to break the silence.

You people out there, if you all have met me before, tell me if our first meeting or your first impression of me was awkward.

I don't know, i have never felt awkward before. I mean, in terms of first impressions.

I'll think about it, and get back to you all later if i can think of any. Ah well.

Oh, i dunno. Maybe when i met my friends in New Zealand when i went up there to visit some of them. When i was being introduced by a certain someone to everyone else, i just stood there smiling.

I didn't know if it's a custom to hug them or shake their hands. In Singapore, we usually shake hands during first meetings but they were all hugging each other, so i just stood there. Smiling, like a shy little girl. Haha

There are some too that i wanted to talk to but we didn't cause of some ridiculous reasons, so yeah, i just stood there. Smiling and giving a slight wave.

That's awkward right? Haha, i feel like it is. Is it? Oh well. 

Day 22- Someone you would give your life up for without question.

Day 21- Your favorite medium of art.

Okay, from what i learnt before, there's the Paint Media, Drawing Media, Sculpture Media and Less Traditional Media. I think these are all art terms but i am not too sure, i only take art for 2 years and even then, i failed miserably.

I seriously missed the art genes in the family. Everyone in my family can draw, paint, and other wonderful things, except me. Haha

Either way, i think i like print making. Most paint media, i supposed. Colouring. I love colouring. Haha i sound like a little kid, but that's what i love.

I love repeated patterns so i guess my most favourite medium of art would be print making.

Day 20- A band that you immediately liked and the song that made you like them

Day 19- A passage from a book that has touched you

This is actually a hard one, cause honestly, i haven't read a book that have actually touched me or make me have strong emotions towards it.

I mean, you all know what type of books i read. Thriller, psychological suspense, detective books and even documentary.

I like books, i love to read, i have read a lot of books and i have tons of books in my cupboard that is overflowing at the moment. It is everywhere in my room, but i have never had a good paragraph that actually made an impression on me.

Honestly, i just think it's the type of book i've been reading. A lot of it are actually fiction, and all made up. Except the documentaries of course.

I'm still in search of it, so if you all have any book recommendations that you think i would like or just want me to venture into a different genre, please feel free.

In the mean time, how about sharing yours?

Day 18- A picture that makes you feel

A picture that makes me feel... what, exactly?

Just feel? A rush of emotions when i look at it? Bad emotion or good emotion? One that has lots of memories? Or just something that make my heart string twitch?

What?! WHAT ARE YOU ASKING FOR?!

I chose this picture cause i like sweet things and pretty things distract me. Teehee!

Day 17- What you want to be remembered for.

Actually, i don't care so much if the people i don't know don't remember me. I don't know, i have never wanted to be "famous" in a way. I've never sat down one day and went "I wonder if people i don't know are gonna remember me if i did something something", you know what i mean?

Hm, i don't know. I really want to go to Myanmar or Africa to go help them build a school, but since i can't, i dunno.

Errr, actually if people wanna remember me, i hope it'd be nice things. I don't mind the mischievous things i do, like playing a prank of my family members, or doing random things to strangers on the streets.

I guess i wanna be remembered for being gutsy. A risk taker. Doing things i want to do without worrying so much about what people are gonna say or think about me.

Yeah, that's how i try to live my life anyway. Afterall, we only have one life. Be a fun person, but also a good person.

Do whatever you want, you know, but don't deliberately hurt someone with your actions or your words. Yeah, i guess that's it. I wanna be remembered for always taking a chance even though there would be a possibility that i might fail badly.


What about you guys? Share something with me. 

Day 16- Something that you want to do within the next five years.

To sum it up in a nutshell, i wanna travel, go back to school and have kids. Hahaha

But in case you guys haven't been reading my blog, i'm gonna link the same questions i had gotten before. It's pretty much the same cause that's really what i want? Haha

Link here, here and here.

Day 15- A moment, phrase, or song that has changed your life the most

Well, i don't want to get too personal but it has to be the day i found out my parents were getting a divorced.

Yeah, i can't remember exactly what happened though cause it's really not something i want to remember or tell people about but it's a memory, you know.

Basically all i can say is that it was a tragedy. Well, for me anyway. My world literally crumbled. I was just there trying to make sense of what happened right in front of me.

There was a lot of shouting from my parent's side and a hell lotta crying from me. I was hurt and confused. I remember thinking how selfish they were saying all those mean things to each other. All the accusations and all the hurtful words. How can the two person i trust the most hurt me like this?

I was really really hurt though. It broke my heart so much that i didn't even wanna be around them, or just people in general.

That incident did change my life. Both in the positive and negative way. But that's another time for another story. When i feel like it. Or if you guys are lucky enough for me to consider trustworthy enough for me to tell you the story.

Till then, take care!

Day 14- Best mashup you’ve ever heard

So far this is the only one that have been on repeat on my Windows Media Player. If you guys have other great mash ups to recommend to me, just leave a comment or such.

Have a nice day. Toorah

Day 13- A memory that never fails to make you laugh

Haha well, i have told this story so many times before. In my blog, and even in real life.

If you guys have followed my blog then you all know which memory i am talking about. Haha it is none other than me accidentally peeing at the playground, on a rocking horse, in the middle of the day.

Yes, people, but that is not all. All that bladder bursting laughter was all thanks to none other than my own cousin, Linsy.

Ahh, the memory is still fresh in my head even though it's been years and years ago. Probably because we keep talking about it, ALL the time.

So, the thing was we were both on a rocking horse each, opposite each other. I told her i had to pee so we decided to go home. Bear in mind my bladder was already really full, screaming to be emptied.

Linsy, being the silly person that she is, wanted to jump over the head of the horse. She was wearing a dress. Yes, people, a dress. Really long flowing type of dress. So she just jumped over the head of the rocking horse and then her dress got caught over the head.

I know this may not sound funny to you people reading this but it was extremely funny. I was laughing so hard and at the same time trying to hold in my pee. She was just there stuck. She couldn't even touch the ground with her hands, so it looks like she was just floating there and the horse kept on rocking while she tried to free herself.

It was a funny sight. I was laughing so hard i peed in my pants, right there and then. I wanted to run off back to the house but of course i had to help Linsy first. So i just freed her dress and with my pee-soaked pants, i ran all the way home.

Luckily it was only 2 minutes away. Haha

Oh my god, every time we tell the story, we will be going off in fits on laughter. Ahh, i love my childhood. 

Day 12- Your favorite musical artist’s life story

Day 11- Favorite picture ever taken of yourself

I like this picture because it makes me look younger than my age. Hehe

Day 10- A dream you had this past week described in detail

Oh oh oh. I have no idea how i remembered this dream, but i do remember it.

Maybe cause it's a very very weird dream. I'm sure i don't remember EVERYTHING though but i think the weirdness will still be there.

Well, to be fair, it actually started out really really nice and actually kinda sweet. Haha

Okay, so actually i was in the car with someone. I can't remember what we were actually looking at but there may or may not be kissing involved. Haha, anyways, i don't know what happened but suddenly there was a lot of explosions and there was this cow that became a target practice for some people.

Yeah, i can't remember a lot of it, but that's what i knew happened.

Just really weird, cause the character Aaron Hotchner from Criminal Minds was even in my dream, so hmm.

I don't know, i think it's telling me to go get my Criminal Minds seasons 4, 5 and 6. Haha but yeah, that's all i can remember really.

So weird.

Day 09- Five things you want to see change

Things i want to see change?


As in my life, my country or the world as a whole?

Well, i believe to change big things, you have to change small things first. If you wanna help change the world, the first person you need to help to change is yourself, and then people around you. So lets just focus on ME, haha as always.

Nah, i'm kidding. I mean, of course we all want to see change in this place we live in, you know. But to actually tell you guys what is wrong with Singapore and then just HOPE that she will change one day is nothing more than just me complaining.

We all know we want lesser foreigners here. Well, to be fair, i don't mind foreigners. Again, this is me talking about those who actually do some good in Singapore. Those who can speak English, have common courtesy and those who showers and have good hygiene. The others, well, we can do without them.

I think the thing that pisses a lot of Singaporean the most is the fact that we are now being treated like a second class citizens. Being cast aside by our own leaders and well, basically becoming second best. Not only that, but to be called arrogant and rude by these "barbaric" foreigners is really uncalled for.

Well, lets see. I love my life, you know. I like my family and my friends and my loved ones. They're great and awesome. I like my job now, it's so much better than the previous one. Thank God i am not with them anymore, i am actually MUCH happier working in this new environment.

What do i want to see change?

Basically, i want a new living environment. This could mean a new area, or a new country. Either way, i want to get away from this mundane little place. There's really not much to do here. I think we all have been to the same place at least twice.

Singapore's pretty small. You can get to the next end of the island in just less than 2 hours.

The third thing i want to see change is, well, the glass ceiling. You know how a certain post in a job can only go so far. I think it's unfair. I mean, if this one person is competent enough to go higher, they should be given the opportunity to prove themselves. Especially if they are willing to upgrade themselves with required skills. You know what i mean?

I'm sure you guys are not surprised that this practice is still going on at this day and age. I mean, it's so old fashioned right? Judging someone's competency by the sexual organs they are born with. Even in our pledge, "Regardless of race, language or religion". See how they say NOTHING about sexuality and/or gender. So sad.

What else?

Well, there are certain people in the family that i would love to see change. For the better, of course. This shall stay a family secret, so lets not go in depth.

Last but not least, i would like to see people get along.

Like, REALLY get along. No superior race and/or religion. No greed, no envy and no judging. I know it's an ideal world and it's so hard to achieve, but yeah. I really want to see everyone just get along for once.

Haha, yeah, it's just my hyper-optimism huh. Ah well, a girl can dream of a beautiful world, can't she?

What about you guys though? Would love to hear your side of plans.

Day 08- Someone you think would make a good president

I just realized i forgot to blog last night. I got really sleepy and then i think i fell asleep at 10pm. Which is crazy cause i must be REALLY tired if i fell asleep that early, especially since the next day is a public holiday.

So yeah, i missed yesterday question. Either way, here it is.

I find it really appropriate that this is the question cause Singapore is actually having a Presidential election soon. We'll know the candidates pretty soon, so i'm pretty excited.

Now, who do i think would make a good president?

Well, i was really sad that George Yeo didn't think about being a President. I honestly think he would make a good President.

Of course there are other candidates that are running for the Presidential Election that have the fullest potential to run Singapore, but this is just my opinion.

I feel like he's really well liked by people. He build great rapport with citizens and even people from other countries. He has a military career and he was a really competent Minister during his time in the Parliament.

He has in the Cabinet from 1990 up to 2011 when he lost his seat in the General Election 2011.

I feel like we need someone who is a great people person, who would understand what the citizen needs instead of caring so much about other countries.

Like i said, this is just my opinion, so we'll see who's gonna be the candidates for the 2011 Presidential Election. I really can't wait.

Oh, and Happy 46th Birthday, Singapore!

Day 07- Favorite cover of your favorite song

Hell yeah! If you don't know who sings this song originally, you guys ought to kill yourself.

Okay, wait, i don't mean that. I think even non-metal bands will know whose song this is. BUT for those who don't.

Here you go. 

Day 06- Earliest thing you can remember

Wow, are you serious?

Wow. Haha that was the first thing i said when i read the challenge topic.

Like, seriously, i have a lot of childhood memories suddenly rushing in my head but i am not sure which one is the oldest memory. Haha

Well, there's the pissing at the playground incident, but i'm sure there are more earlier memories.

Oh! There's also a snow white incident. Here's the thing, i had this really nice Snow White doll, and it can speak and sing and everything. So Linsy and I were playing our dolls and our younger brothers were basically arguing in the room right beside us. I was so annoyed that i shouted at them to keep quiet. Guess what happened next? Haha Linsy's brother took my Snow White and slam it on my brother's head. So yes, my Snow White's head was just there dangling by the wires of the voice box.

Haha, i know it's not funny reading about it, but my cousins and I will crack up big time every time we reminisce.

I don't know, i really don't remember my earliest memories but yeah, that's one of the memories that i don't mind sharing.

What about YOUR earliest memory? Share with me! 

Day 05- A thank you letter to someone who has changed your life

Actually, everyone around me has changed my life one way or another.

Be it the way i see things, or how i feel about thing, or even how i think. Everyone around me has played a part in shaping the way i am.

Well anyway, i am not here to thank those people who have always believed in me, even though i do really appreciate what they have sacrificed for me. I am here to actually thank those who think i wouldn't even make it to where i am today.

I remember when i was younger, some people don't like my family. I won't point fingers but there are family members who looked down on me just because i was from a broken family. They think i wouldn't make it in life. They didn't even think i would survive life in general.

Well, i guess one thing they didn't know about me is that, i do not like people to insult my family. When someone says that my parents didn't do a good job raising me or my brother, i like proving them wrong.

Wow, boy were they wrong about my brother and I. We are obviously more "successful" than their sons/daughter. I'm not bragging or anything, but at least i can get my legs closed long enough to not have a baby at such a young age.

Or the fact that my brother and I worked so hard academically. We have better education than them, believe it or not.

So thank you. Thank you for telling me i can't do anything. Thank you for telling me that my parents are good for nothing. Thank you for everything you haven't done for us.

Believe me, even if i have to go through what i went through one more time, i wouldn't change a thing. *smiles*

Day 04- What you imagine paradise to be like

Can i be selfish or do i have to think about other people in this?

I mean, of course the real paradise would be a world with no war, and no racism and all the jazz, but i mean, lets be real. Things would probably be boring then, and then someone would do something to start with all the chaos that is happening now.

So, i've always think about other people in my answer, let me be selfish for once. Thank you.

Well, lets talk material things.

I want a 3 stories house by the beach. Not just BY the beach, like really on the beach. Haha when i step out of my door, i want to feel the sand in between my toes, on my feet. I want to hear the ocean waves every single minute of the day, and feel the sea breeze caressing my skin and blowing my hair.

Wouldn't it be nice?

The peaceful sound of the ocean, the blue skies and the splashing of the waves against the shore.

I don't know, i love the beach. I grew up going to the beach every weekend, every holidays. I get called a "beach bum" when i was in school. I get tan lines and sun kissed skin all the time. When it looks like my skin is back to normal, we go to the beach again.

You know what else would be nice?

Sitting by the deck, looking out at the ocean, while the sun sets. Oh, wouldn't it be great.

Haha, i am actually smiling as i'm typing this cause i would actually love that. Who wouldn't, right?

It'd be awesome especially if you have someone with you by the deck, drinking hot Nutella chocolate drink and having a slice of banana cake.

Haha, okay, i'm sorry. I think too big sometimes.

But hey, having the sound of little feet going pitter patter by the deck is fine with me too. *winks*

Haha, k bye!

Day 03- The five songs you would have with you on a desert island and why

This is assuming that i haven't die by the second hour being in the deserted island.

No, not because i'm weak. I have been somewhere without a toilet before, so i'm pretty sure i can survive a desert island. Haha, i hope.

It's just... the thought of having only five song while being stuck on a desert island, is like the end of the world. I would seriously die. I mean, if i'm stuck there for only a day, i'd be fine. What if it's one year? I get bored listening to the same old song ALL the time.

Well, since the challenge has been set, i will try to do my best. So here goes.


Why? Well, this song is my favourite song to dance to. Haha, yes, don't ask. Never mind. Hahaha


Four words. Five. Finger. Death. Punch. :))


My femininity needs to be indulged once in a while. ;)


No reasons. Just because. Hehe


It's just one of those song you can't get rid of from in your head.

Recipe of the day: Sausage cheese roll

This recipe is super simple. You can actually just add some things to make it your own recipe. I like experimenting with herbs and different types of butter with this, so yeah.

This is my go to recipe for last minute outings or family picnics. Well, usually they request me to do this recipe, so it became one of my "signature" dishes. Hehe.

So lets start, it's really really simple.

Things you need:
Wholemeal bread (or puff pastry)
Hot dogs/sausages (the normal kind, not specially flavoured)
Slices of cheese. (you can use any type, but i prefer cheddar single slices)
Garlic butter (you can choose any type, or even skip it altogether)
Dried herbs (optional. personally, i like using Oregano) Egg (only applies if you use bread instead of puff pastry)

So, firstly just spread a little garlic butter on the bread (optional). Then put one slice of cheese on the bread and one hot dog/sausage. Just start rolling it, really, and then just put it aside before dunking them in the egg mixed with the dried herb (optional). Shallow fry it till golden brown. You don't want to deep fry it cause it's really really disgusting. Haha, that's just my opinion.

I suggest you use a non stick pan though, cause the cheese WILL ooze out of the roll and then it would stick to your pan. It happened to me the first time i tried this, that's how i know.

For people who wanna use the puff pastry, it's basically the same thing, but instead of frying it, you just bake it in the oven according to the instructions. You just wanna make the puff pastry rise and the cheese melt, so yeah.

See, i told you it's simple. So i hope you guys try it and tell me how it is!

Have fun and have a great day!

Day 02- Something that inspires you

I have to say being successful.

Now, with that said, we all know that everyone view as being successful differently. There is obviously no right or wrong opinion as to what being successful really is.

To some, it's to have lots of money. To others, it could be having to hold a lot of responsibility, also known as power.

For me, it's pretty simple.

I don't strive to be the one person with the most branded bags, or to have everyone fear me. To me, being successful, is to have my loved ones be proud of me. Someone they can depend on.

Being successful is to see the people i care about happy with the things i have done and achieved. It is really just that for me.

Yeah, that's why i always try to do my best in everything i do, i never do things half-assed.

What about you guys? What inspires you? 

Day 01- Guilty pleasure

Guilty pleasure.

Hmm, well, it's really a toss up between MTV and Nutella.

MTV, why?

Simple! Haha it's filled with ridiculous shows. Some shows doesn't make sense and the music they play now.. WOW, bad! Haha

The thing is, it's something that i don't want my friends to know. Cause i would make fun of them for watching some of the shows there. Haha weird thing is, i watch it too, only when i'm bored and there's absolutely nothing interesting to watch on tele.

I don't watch tele that much anymore, and the short amount of time, i would feel embarrassed if i somehow ended up watching MTV. No joke.

I usually watch it to make fun of the people in the shows or like i said, i'm bored. Haha i usually avoid that channel. It's not the same as before though, but ah well, it helps with my boredom sometimes.

And of course, everyone knows i'm a hugeee fan of Nutella. I cannot live without it. I would somehow incorporate Nutella into my drinks or desserts or meals.

Yeah, not Nutella with rice though, that would taste weird. Oh would it? Hmm, i might have to try that some day. Haha

I know too much Nutella is not good for me, but oh my god, it's so good. Like, i can eat Nutella every single day and not get tired of it. It's so good, it's so delicious.

I am drooling at the moment writing and thinking about Nutella. It's so good.

Haha, you guys get it. But yeah, that's mostly it.

How about you guys? What is YOUR guilty pleasure?

August's 30 days challenge.

Day 01- Guilty pleasure
Day 02- Something that inspires you
Day 03- The five songs you would have with you on a desert island and why 
Day 04- What you imagine paradise to be like 
Day 05- A thank you letter to someone who has changed your life 
Day 06- Earliest thing you can remember
Day 07- Favorite cover of your favorite song 
Day 08- Someone you think would make a good president 
Day 09- Five things you want to see change 
Day 10- A dream you had this past week described in detail 
Day 11- Favorite picture ever taken of yourself 
Day 12- Your favorite musical artist’s life story 
Day 13- A memory that never fails to make you laugh 
Day 14- Best mashup you’ve ever heard 
Day 15- A moment, phrase, or song that has changed your life the most. 
Day 16- Something that you want to do within the next five years. 
Day 17- What you want to remembered for. 
Day 18- A picture that makes you feel 
Day 19- A passage from a book that has touched you 
Day 20- A band that you immediately liked and the song that made you like them 
Day 21- Your favorite medium of art. 
Day 22- Someone you would give your life up for without question. 
Day 23- Most awkward first impression you feel you’ve ever given 
Day 24- Something you did as a child that other people remember you for. 
Day 25- Something you would do if no one stopped you or if you knew you wouldn’t fail. 
Day 26- Your definition of love. 
Day 27- Your definition of the meaning of life. 
Day 28- A moment you remember being completely happy in and a description of why you believe you were. 
What is your definition of happiness? 
Day 29- What you live for. 
Day 30- Ways you believe you have grown over the past thirty days.