Islam by birth, Atheist by choice..

So here's the thing.. This post is not for the religious or the pious.. So, if you're either one of those, or stands up for their religious beliefs, please back away and click the big X on the right hand top corner of your window.. Do it slowly and nobody will get hurt.. Thank you!

I'm not here to insult religions or to attack people spiritually but sometimes, some people can be too much of a puritan! Seriously, whichever GOD exists or don't exist i DON'T really care..

One thing that really pisses me off is that when one religion thinks they're better than the other religion.. Hello people! That's called biasness.. I know you all don't wanna hear this, but just because you grew up being taught that way doesn't mean it IS the right thing.. Doesn't mean you do something against your culture or religion, means you're being deviant.. Get it through your head people, there's no point fighting over or about religions cause they're all different in the first place.. Stoopid!

Another thing that have been really bugging me is that when people did something right or achieved something that is really high and prestigious, they thank GOD! GOD?! Why thank GOD?! He/She/It wasn't the one who stayed up late at night with you when you are cramping for that major presentation the next day.. He/She/It wasn't the one who motivated you to study harder or work smarter.. He/She/It definitely wasn't the one who encourages you to be all that you can be, to go all the way when you find your future so bleak.. You thank NO ONE, but YOURSELF! Seriously people, THINK ABOUT IT!

I'm not saying everyone have to agree with what i feel, infact, i don't expect everyone to even share my views.. It's just that, some people assume that I'm into GOD just because I'm being brought up in a Muslim family..

I don't blame anyone for what I've turned out to be.. I know, my family's probably gonna be so disappointed in me if they ever found out about it.. They will never understand what I'm really going through.. I know, i sound kinda EMOtional right now.. Haha but yeah, I've gone through alot..

I grew up TOO fast, been given alot of freedom.. I've seen alot of people.. I know I'm just 21, barely old enough to see what the world is really like but yeah, going through a broken family when i was hardly 12 was traumatic.. I guess, that's what help me grow up..

I've never had a solid role model religiously, maybe that's why I've turned out this way.. Whatever it is, I'm happy with myself..

Pardon me if i don't make sense.. It's either you people really can't relate to me or I'm talking nonsense..

I'M SICK!!!! Random but just thought everybody should know!

Sagittarius is me!

Turquoise or lapis lazuli (Sagittarius)

You like: Going abroad, watching comedy movies and learning risky new skills such as bungee-jumping or scuba-diving.

You dislike: Routine, living in the same town all your life, EastEnder re-runs and boring food.

You're best at: Inspiring people to overcome their fears, winning arguments and smiling when you are surrounded by gloomy faces.

Deep down: You are a wandering spirit with a lust for adventure and travel. No matter where you are, there's always somewhere else you would like to be - just for a day or two. You hate being cooped up.

Your career: Ski instructor, sports journalist, human-resources manager, advocate or social worker

Fashion: Fashion-wise, you're constantly changing - one minute you're massively slobby in a stained old sweatshirt and ancient trackie pants; then the next you opt for an OTT party look, complete with feather boas and masses of glitter. Generally though, you prefer going casual, because you have to feel comfortable.

As a mate: You are honest and speak your mind without fear. Friends like your outgoing personality and often turn to you when they need fun and adventure. U aren't interested in gossiping and get irritated when that's the only topic of conversation.

As a girlfriend: You are a bag of laughs, thrilling your boyfriend with your thirst for adventure. He'll appreciate your down-to-earth personality and loves that you get on so well with his mates. A pleasant partner, you are undemanding and enjoy an easygoing relationship.

If your boyfriend's a Sagittarius : Adventurous and cocky, he loves travelling and wants you to join him on his journey. Let your hair down, take it easy and enjoy the ride with this cute character. He often gets restless,so make an effort to see and do new things instead of chilling on the sofa every night

Celebrity Sagittarians
Zoe Ball (23/11/70), Dane Bowers - Another Level (28/11/79), Gary Lineker (30/11/60), Britney Spears (2/12/81), Lucy Liu (2/12/68), Aaron Carter (7/12/87), Nicole Appleton (7/12/74), Christine Aguilera (18/12/80), Brad Pitt (18/12/65), Stephen Spielberg (18/12/47), Keifer Sutherland (21/12/66) and Jamie Theakston (21/12/70).

I OD on Prison Break..

So, how have you all been doing? It's been such a long time since i went online and update this pathetic blog.. Haha, well I've been busy you see.. Finding some job for me to keep my holiday time worthwhile and earn some extra bucks along the way..

Went for the Cabin Crew job application at the airport, and saw some emo shitheads applying for the same job.. Okay, i ain't stereotyping cause if we end up working together, it'll be very awkward.. Like Violet said, who knows they might be very down-to-earth.. Well whatever, just as long as they don't give me that know-it-all attitude, it's fine with me! Tee hee..

Anyway, who watched the season premier of Prison Break 2? *girls raised up hands* Haha, i know you did.. Who could resist watching Prison Break, be it season 1 or season 2! Even if you watched season 2 way before Channel 5 played it, you'd still wanna watch it.. Well, that's what i think anyway.. Wee!

So two weeks before Prison Break 2 starts, my family and I watch the VCD of season 1 to recap those episode, you know.. Like i said previously, even though i know all the episodes by heart.. It doesn't hurt watching that hot genius, Michael Scofield at work.. So in my previous post, i did mention i watched PB season 1 till 5:30 in the morning.. For the next 3 to 5 days of the week, we keep repeating the season over and over again till i know the dialogue by heart.. And yes i admit, we did a re-enactment to the scene and it was hilarious.. Especially when it comes to Haywire and Avocado.. Haha, sss-weet!!

Haha, we have our favourites in the show.. For me, it's Fernando Sucre for the good guy and T-Bag for the bad guy.. Violet, well yes you've guessed it.. Michael Scofield and Haywire.. Haha, i think she has things for psychotic geniuses *wonders* Oh well!! And Hazel, well actually she wanted Lincoln Burrows but my Aunt Maz wants him too.. So we decided to give Officer Bellick and Avocado to her.. For people who watches and really understand the series, you'll get the joke! Haha..

Seriously, i can't stop watching Prison break.. It's like a drug, i think i almost ODed on it cause i just can't stop watching!! 5 days back to back, the same VCD over and over again.. The weird thing, i don't get bored.. So here's the thing, it's dangerous my friends! Believe me, i experienced it first hand!! Haha..

I think I'm like having a Prison Break obsession, so i decided to stop watching it for a while to see what happens.. Boy, did i regret my decision! Haha, the next day straightaway, i suffered from Prison Break withdrawal symptoms!! I couldn't get up from my bed.. My head was spinning like mad! I can't even walk.. Everytime i walk, i get so dizzy that i have to literally stop in my track and sit on the floor.. Jeesh, i vomited every 5 minutes! No food, all water.. White foam and yellowish-green liquid.. Cold water feels like hundred thousand daggers being stabbed into my body.. Seriously, i can't even eat.. I even vomited out the water i drank, let alone the food.. My stomach tried so hard to pump something for me to puke that my knees buckled under me.. Jeesh, for 3 freaking days i have to lie in bed.. Even bathing was a chore to me..

Oh well, I'm fine now.. So yeah, let's just keep it at that.. Haha, i think it's a blessing in disguise that they're just showing Prison Break once a week cause too much of that hot genius, can sometimes be too much to handle..

"What's your problem?"- Michael Scofield

Well well well, exam's over and i have alot of free times on my hand.. Jeesh, when i say alot, means ALOT! Can't wait for my results to be sent to me via SMS.. Haha, I'm so gonna freak out if i get like another C+, seriously! Haha.. I don't want my GPA to be below 3.0.. Mine has always been above that but if i get one more bad grades, my hard work is going down the drain.. Aarghh!! Whatever..

Anyway, went to Violet's house yesterday, Saturday and just chill as usual.. There was no story on tele so we decided to have a Prison Break marathon.. Not really a marathon cause we only watched like half of the 22 episodes.. Haha, that's like 7 hours of Michael Scofield back to back and NON-STOP! Haha, MichaelScofield is LOVE! Seriously.. I think i shrink a few inches cause i melt everytime i see his face on tele.. His genius is just so hot, and oh that cheeky grin..

Hazel: I just love his stern look! (so excited)
Violet: It's been long noticed!!

Hazel asked alot of questions, seriously! Haha, she ask about the POGNAc, why Michael wanted Abruzzi, Westmoreland and why he keep wanting to take insulin shots.. Haha the only thing she understood is why he's there in the first place and why he wanted to take Sucre with him.. We of course has limits to our answers so we just told her to shut up and watch the show..

Hazel: I don't get it, why must does he wants the POGNAc for? Oh he's actually diabetic??
Arynne: No, he's not.. POGNAc is an insulin blocker! When you take that, the insulin shots won't get to his bloodcells, and it'll make his sugar level high..
Hazel: Ohhh, then how does he knows which guys to look for??
Violet: Hazel, just watch the show!! (irritated)

Hazel is so cute, but of course in the end she understood the whole plot.. Haha, we started watching it at around 9:30pm and stopped it at around 5:30am on Episode 10 i think.. Haha, i keep singing the 'Tweener song' cause it's so cute.. Haha, the reason why we watched it cause Season 2 is coming soon on March 15, Thursday.. Catch it everyone!! Haha, and well we kinda wanna recapped Season 1, though i don't think it's necessary cause i know every episodes like the back of my head but it's fun just chilling with my cousins.. 5 people started out watching the show.. OJ, Violet, Hazel, Aunt Maz and me.. But in the end, only 2 people left watching and that's me and Violet.. Haha, it's fun.. I slept for a while till 6:30am and went home where i slept till 3pm, pig i know! Haha

You'll be fine, if you comply..

Finally, and i mean finally! Finished my last paper today, and well I'm a free girl!! Haha, well not really.. Until i get my results that is, and i have to see whether i have to take supplementary paper.. Jeesh, i hope not.. I've NEVER took supp paper before and people who have taken them said it's harder than the main examination.. Sucks..

Anyway, was supposed to have a gathering with my Sociology classmates but cancelled it in the end, for some unseen reasons.. It's okay though, cause i think I'm pretty shagged as well.. Dynamics paper really overloaded my brain.. After the exam, i looked so blur.. It's like you know, someone brain-washed you or something.. Okay, I'm talking nonsense.. Don't mind me k!

It's been so long since I've updated my blog right?? How long have it been?? Haha, can't remember but i know it was a week before my examinations cause i went to Changi that week and had a blast with my beloved family! Muahaha.. I so need that again right now!

Had my paper in the sport's hall and we actually call that place 'The Furnace' cause it's actually VERY VERY stuffy.. Thanx goodness it have been raining for the past few days! The stupid thing is, when it's cold.. IT'S REALLY COLD!! What's worse?! My seats for the two papers are just beside the fan.. "Thanx ah Jacks! Haha" 

So yeah, had to tie up my hair cause the fan just make my hair messy.. Idiotic! Haha, my hair is very important okay.. I don't like messy hair! Don't ask me why, i just don't.. Whenever my friends are around, I'll be asking "Is my hair messy!?!", whilst touching my hair of course.. Haha

Speaking of hair! Haha, i know SOMEONE who is soooooooooooo vain about his hair!! Yahhh, I'm talking about Zee! Haha, remember in my previous post, i mentioned that i THOUGHT i saw someone who looked like my friend?? Well, it's him.. Haha, he calls me a stalker cause everytime i saw him, he won't notice me.. "Muahahaha.. Relax eh joy!"

And speaking of stalking! Haha, someone openly declared that she wanna stalk me.. Of course, non other than the cutie, Elfie! "Haha, so cute!! Love ya babe!!"
We live nearby you see, but we have no other until only recently.. Haha.. "So yeah, STALK ME!"

Okay back to my day today.. Like i said, was supposed to go out with my Sociology mates but they cancelled, so just went out with my lecture mates instead for dinner.. After that quirky dinner at Long John's Silver, i went off.. Tee hee, met Ryan halfway..

We kinda took 39 home cause it's the longer route.. I know, he has a car right, why take the bus!?! I was thinking that too.. Kinda stupid right? But it's okay, since he said he wanna spend more time with me..

So i was wearing Violet's baby-doll top.. Black, flowy and kinda low-neck.. I'm much more curvier than most peers my age.. Guys call it voluptuous, but i just call it FAT! Haha, i have no qualms about my body size.. Voluptuous, curvy, fat, fluffy.. Haha, whatever you call it, I'll accept it!

Yeah, so being bigger does have it advantages actually.. It'll mean you have more fat tissues and naturally your boobs are bigger.. So i was wearing this low-neck baby doll top, and being top-heavy, the cleavage will obviously be deeper.. So being a guy and all, Ryan keep glancing at my cavernous valley..

Arynne: Hoi! Aper tengok jack!? (step serious)
Ryan: (blushed; smirking) Nothing..

The thing is, he still can deny.. Haha, but we're open and comfortable with each other, so i don't mind.. Hua hua..

Ryan: (suddenly) Baby, I'm horny..

Jeesh!! Like i wanna know that!! So what if you're horny right?? Haha, what am i supposed to do in a bus full of people so i just ignored..

Oh well, guys will always be guys right.. I don't know.. It's kinda nice being with Ryan.. I can be myself around him.. Bitchy, nice, mean or even when i act like a little child sometimes, he'll be there.. It's nice.. *Smiles*

Melts in your mouth, not in your hand..

Finally, I'm home.. Hugging my MattSanders!! My two cousins crashed at my place cause their parents gave them the wrong keys! Hua hua, but it's fine though.. We're always doing that, crashing at each other's place..

My cousin's family and I went to Changi Beach, near the Ferry Terminal and the Airport Cargo.. Me and my cousin Violet took the bus since we have concession pass, while the others took the cab with all the junks they brought..

My cousin's family went out earlier cause i wanna watch the encore telecast of Prison Break.. So a few minutes after Prison Break, we went out of the house.. Took 969 and then 19.. While at Tampines Interchange, Violet decided to buy fries so we stopped at McD's.. Along the way, saw a pathetic guy with a pathetic hair and Violet started laughing! Haha..

Anyway, after that went to line up at the lane for bus 19, and i thought i saw someone i knew but not sure.. Yah, i didn't have his number so i can't confirm.. Ha, he has my number but he refused to leave me a message.. Jeesh!

So boarded the bus and did nothing else but camwhore.. Haha, Violet's boyfriend bought her a digicam so that's what she's been doing ever since! Haha, whatever.. It's all good bitches!

Reach our campsite and just chill and camwhore.. Eat, talk, laugh and camwhore somemore.. It was freezing cold! Not just breezy, but cold!!

Violet's boyfriend, OJ kinda came late but he still came.. So when he came, we just sat at the mat provided and give each other riddles and jokes.. We ate alot of tidbits!! Pringles, Chacos, lots of chicken wings and fried sausages.. Haha, but that ain't enough for OJ.. Well, he's a food junkie, he loves tidbits.. So he suggested that we walk all the way to 7-11, which is like on the other side of Changi! We all kinda agreed cause it's fun walking in groups and stuffs.. Took alot of stupid group photos..

Along the way, we were just talking and stuffs.. Laugh alot mind you, and suddenly.. JENG JENG JENG!! Haha, we saw a bunch of emo kids at the bus stop making fools of themselves..

OJ: Ha, what is this?! Emo! What a disgrace.. They're such poseurs!
Violet: Eh!! Please loh!! (disgusted)
Arynne: Real scene kids won't dress as they are and doesn't follow stereotypes!
OJ: Yeah, that's true.. (agreed)
Arynne: A true metallist will never reveal what they do..
Sam: I'm a hip-hopper (with that african-american accent)

It was fun! Everywhere we turn, emo kids invade.. Jeesh, was walking towards the bridge and then saw this 3 emo guys.. I can't really make out what they were saying though..

Emo kid #1: (was talking about this metal scene, something about emo and goth)
Emo kid #2: (said something in the screamo version)
OJ: (screamo) KENTAL!!!! (everybody was giggling)
Violet: Stop it ah, people..
Arynne: What is happening to the metal scene!!??
OJ: (screamo somemore) MEREPEK!! KENTAL!!! (normal voice) Emo plus Goth? Hmp..
Arynne: What did they say? They're mixture of emo and goth? Ha, emo plus goth equals to laughing my ass off!! (laugh sarcastically)
Emo kid #3: (just walk off without saying anything)
Arynne: (louder) Let's slit each other's wrist!!

Haha, whatever.. Violet calmed the situation by suggesting that we take photos with those transsexuals.. Haha, no way am i gonna do that.. I think someone mentioned they're jealous of girls and my cousin dropped the idea..

Violet: Ha? Never mind then..
Arynne: But OJ is a guy, it's okay..
OJ: Me? No problem.. (Violet glared at OJ)

We bought chocolates, ice cream, potato chips and poker cards.. Ha, went we reached our campsite again.. We straightaway sit down and dig into the ice cream.. It's like having a conference, haha it's fun! Playing cards, talking, laughing, eat ice cream!! I think we're like the loudest group there.. Whatever though.. Some people retired early and went to sleep at around 12 midnight.. I started fishing then.. Okay fine, i use a short fishing rod but atleast i caught a fish! Haha, it's a small one though, i told them i wanna keep it for remembrance but they use it for bait instead! Grr!!! Watched my Uncle Jimmy and cousins playing cards.. I slept at around 5am.. Of course, it's not a sound sleep cause i keep waking up.. When OJ woke up for work at around 6:30am, i straightaway told Violet to ask her dad if we could go off first, and he said OKAY! 

Now here i am updating my blog and hugging my MattSanders! Sam is totally shagged and fast asleep right now while Violet is watching TV! Toodles babe, I'm gonna catch some sleep!

I love the disappointed faces of my peers..

Wowee! This is like the first time i get off from school so late! Went out of school at around 10:45pm.. On a Friday for goodness sake! Reached home at around 11:40+pm, nearly 12.. Jeesh! Things i do to get good grades! Haha.. Well, stayed back for projects..

So many projects to do with so little time.. Had 4 projects but 2 have been done, so I'm down with another 2.. MCT and Sociology.. Well, did MCT project at around 2:30pm till 5:30pm.. It's kinda frustrating cause not all the members are there.. I don't wanna talk about it, but it's really annoying when someone from your group decided to go home instead of doing the project.. It's okay i guess cause she claimed that she was not feeling well, whatever.. I don't mind if you can get your job done by yourself but when you say that you don't know how to do it when all you have to do is copy from the book, then seriously what are you doing in Poly!? I'm not trying to complain or bitch about anything but seriously if you're in my shoe, i think you'll get what i mean.. She expects people to listen to her but when we point out her mistake, she'll get all pissed.. We have to listen to her and it's stupid cause she always thinks she's right.. Whatever, just as long as she finish her part, I'm not gonna show her attitude.. Idiot!

Sociology project after that and it was fun.. Haha, so much difference from my psychology group members.. Nothing personal to my psychology ex-mates.. We get along so well.. I think we all have almost similar sense of humor, that's why we laugh at each other's jokes and not get too personal about it.. It's great.. I just love my psychology mates!

Oh well, been very stressed this few days cause of projects, class test and the upcoming exams.. I snapped at everyone who gets too close to my breathing space.. I think Ryan suffers the worst cause he's always with me.. Sometimes i just get mad for no apparent reason, i know it's crazy but my temper is like the weather.. Ryan tried comforting me the other day but i feel kinda smothered.. I kinda said things that i shouldn't say and i can feel that Ryan feelings got hurt because of that.. That's the thing about me you see, i say things without thinking twice about how it will affect the other person.. I apologized but he keeps saying it's not my fault.. He's a very sweet guy, it's so hard to find someone as much patience as him.. Of course after a few minutes we kinda made up, cause i can't stand him being mad at me without showing it.. He's perfect, i just don't know what to say.. Of course he has flaws but his strengths overpowered that weaknesses he have and that just make him look so perfect.. I love him, i really do.. Not just as friends or as a bestfriend, but i really do love him.. I told him about it and I'm so glad he reciprocated that feeling.. No, we're not together yet cause he told me not to rush into things and i agreed.. He understands that i have other commitment like school and personal achievements.. The good thing now is that, i have someone to reach my goal with.. I finally have that support I've been looking for and not be alone anymore.. I'll always love him, no matter what our fate might be..

So kinda hung out with my punk friends the other day.. Police cars have been patrolling Yishun alot these few weeks.. Why? I have no idea.. Was walking to the bus stop when this police car stopped us.. I was like the odd one out cause i was on my way to school and i look like i don't fit in with the stupid clothes I'm wearing.. Well, i figured it's just a routine check so i ignored it.. Okay yah, they're smoking and two of them have been drinking but i guess it's not problem cause they're all over 21.. No, they don't look like those normal punks that have super long mohawks and green hair with piercings on every holes they can make on every parts of their body.. They look normal excepts maybe those spiked cuffs they're wearing and the metal chains dangling.. Yeah, i never get that metal chains thingy.. Haha, anyway so this police officer pulled me aside probably cause i was the only girl there..

P.Officer: IC please..
Arynne: No IC, student pass can? (Pass my student ez-link)
P.Officer: Sure, no problem.. (took the pass and examine) You're 20!? I thought you were 16! So sorry (passed the student pass back)
Arynne: (give a weird face and take back the pass) yeah right.. (step smiling)

Irritating right!! I know i don't look old but i definitely don't look that young.. Whatever, such pathetic-ism..