Tell me it's worth fighting for.

Sitting here, quite honestly, i don't know what to say. 

I wanna say how much i appreciate you going through all these, and how much i think you're amazing, but you already know that.

Well, i can start off by saying i'm glad that you came home safe, and nothing happened to you while you were away from home. 


I missed you terribly while you are away, and i'm still missing you. Something's different and i'm not sure if it's just me or you are giving me that aura. Please make me understand. 


[I took a break at this point cause i seriously don't know how to express how i feel, and i decided to wash my face.. Hey, atleast i'm being honest. Haha]


Sometimes, i feel like i'm being selfish. For making you wait, for making you fall for me. There are just times when i wanna let you go and let you be happy with someone closer and someone who adores you just as much. 


I get insecure sometimes, as i'm sure you do too, but when you tell me how happy you are with me and how much you do love me, i just hang on tighter. I do hope you're doing the same, Boo. 


To be honest, i do like you going territorial on me whenever guys give me a little bit more attention than you'd let them. But that's all it is, Boo. It's them, and not me. I don't want you to feel threatened by them cause by now, i'm sure you know it's you that i want. That i need. Not them.


I don't know how to express how much you mean to me, and i'm scared to admit that cause i always screw things up when that happens. When i love someone, i love deeply, i hope it's the same for you too.


I know, i sound like a little girl having that big time crush on her teacher. Sheesh people, it happens. Love is so complex. Just when you think you already understand how it works, it turns around and be something totally different. You just gotta take it as it comes.


I love that you love me, i love that you include me in all of your plans, i love that you're always proposing to me. It makes me happy, even on my worst days. And sometimes, i know i get so overbearingly annoying and i irritate the heck out of you, but you stayed (only on occasions where you blocked me on MSN! Haha).


I appreciate all that. 


Just sometimes, like you, i need reassurance too. I need to know once in a while that i make you happy without me having to ask you. Like you, i need to know that you're holding on as hard as i am. Also, like you, i need to know that you're waiting for me, and staying faithful. 


I do adore you, Baby. I care about you deeply too. I love u too, Boo. I hope one day you realize that i mean what i say, and i hope you mean what you say too. 


I don't want to live my life full of what-ifs, but tell me you're fighting for the same thing as i am. 

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One resolution at a time.

Three years ago, i made a resolution. It was to save the world. 


Yeap, as cliche as it sounds, i am one of those people who believes that i can change the world. Come to think of it, i have no qualms in being a 'Vigilante'. Yeah, i know it's illegal and all that crap but it's not an offence if i don't get caught. 


Haha, nah i'm just kidding. 


So, yeah, back to my 3 year old resolution, Saving the world. 


I realized i can't save the world. Why? I don't have accomplice like Elle from Criminal Minds and Dexter Morgan from Dexter. Haha, i'm just kidding. I have a list of people i wanna behead but i'm thinking, let them go through life, it's so much torturous than anything in the world.


What the hell am i babbling about?


Yes, saving the world. Ahh, the sweet smell of blood of the perpetrator trickling down to the floor. Okay yeah, i'm getting weird. 


Anyways, i think that saving the world might be too big of an ambition for me. So i decided to help one person at a time. Starting with me.


I feel like to help people, we need to help ourselves first. If we are able to discipline ourselves and get our minds to do what we set out to do, then there's no barriers we can't go through. 


So after that, i'm thinking of adopting a child from a country stricken with poverty. Once again, it's too much to grasp when i'm even trying to live day to day with my measly salary. So i let that one go.


A few weeks ago while blogging about my new year's resolution, i was reminded of my resolution three years ago. And i start looking into 'Child Sponsoring'. 


I tried asking everyone i know that would know about this, and i get the most information from Rin. So thank you babe for helping me with this resolution of mine. 


Rin told me that World Vision do child sponsorships so i went to take a look. I knew about World Vision but i didn't think so much about it since i wasn't working the past year. And this year, since i am working, i guess it's high time i start on it.


So bascially, i'm sponsoring a 7 year old girl from Myanmar. I shall call her KK, since i'm not allowed to expose her identity. Must be because they're all underaged. But when i first see her profile, i felt a bond with her. A connection.


I don't know. Probably it's because i like kids. And kids in poor countries always have a place in my heart. 


Okay, my reason in not sponsoring a child in Singapore is because i feel that Singaporeans are too blessed. No matter which social class you are in, you can always survive in Singapore. Other than that, we have tons of charity organisations in Singapore and they're all more than willing to help. 


But to sponsor a child in Singapore, to me, is irrelevant. If you can survive living in Singapore, you don't need sponsorships. 


So, yes, that's my reason in sponsoring someone outside of Singapore. Cause they don't have the same privileges as us Singaporeans have.


We have clean water, we have very helpful people, we have houses to live in. Clothes to wear and we have access to the best education and health care services in Singapore.


I don't know, though, cause this is my opinion. You might not agree with it but i feel like my money is more useful for people outside of Singapore. It's a choice i feel is good for me.


So yeah, basically thats it. I know it's a short post but i did promise to blog about my decision to sponsor a child. 


Hey, maybe when i get more financially stable, i might to sponsor another one! This time, in Africa. 

To Phil.

BABY, I MISS YOU!

Love is

Before i go, i'll leave you with a quote from Love Phrase (an application on Facebook)


´Love is when you can´t be apart from someone for too long...you´re always thinking of them, and when you´re with them you never want to say goodbye. Love is far from simple. It´s quite complex. It´s a mix of about everything. It´s sadness, joy, passion, hatred, excitement, it´s almost every feeling you can imagine and more. You know love when you find it, it´s that person that when they smile it brightens up your day, you can´t stop staring at them for fear of losing them, they´re always on your mind, you daydream of being with them, even if they´re less than 20 feet away...and you can´t stand it when they´re not with you, the worst feeling you could ever feel is when you know that person you love is not with you...you can´t tell when love will happen, you just know when it does, that moment when you first lay eyes on that person, and you never want to look away...that is love. Nothing less.´

Announcement

WILL RESUME BLOGGING ONCE I'M IN TUNE WITH MY ISMS ONCE AGAIN. 


Haha, but bear with me people. I might be grumpy for the next week or so. Have to finish up all backlogs. And audit is on February. 


*DIES*

It's such a shame, we're worlds apart

It's the second week of 2010 and yeap, i still haven't got a resolution yet. 

Wow, what can i say about my 2010. Second week and it's already so hectic. Seriously, i've never had so much emotional roller coaster rides in my whole entire life as much as these two weeks. 

I'm not gonna bring in that concerns of mine in here cause it really only concerns the people involved. And to them, i just wanna say that i hope they see the situation as how i see it. Right now, they're blowing everything out of proportion and they've overstretched the situation to a different thing altogether. 

Anyways, i haven't found my resolution yet. Three years ago, i said i don't wanna make anymore resolutions cause it's just a waste of time. People will follow through their resolutions for the first three months, and then they'll gradually let it go. 

Why? I don't know. Maybe we human are lazy, making time our excuse not to do things. Time is short, yes i agree, but if we know how to fully utilize time, then i don't see the problem.

Instead, i'm gonna make short term goals. Well, it really mean the same thing but i guess it just how the mind works. You tend to strive harder for your goals. 

Yeah, i'm starting not to make sense, so lets start.

Mostly, i just wanna lose some weight, and i think it's plausible cause commitment with the girls every Wednesdays. Hopefully we all pull through. Alternating between swimming and the gym, though i am not gonna reveal which swimming pool or gym we're frequenting just incase i have another stalker.


No, i'm not shy or embarrassed to tell you people that i'm going to the gym to lose weight. Why should i feel embarrassed? Atleast i am isolating the problem and coming up with a solution for it. Judge me if you want, but atleast i'm doing something about it. Unlike you lots. Tsk tsk


Secondly, i wanna travel more. New Zealand in April, trip with the cliques in July. Baby is already planning next year's trip to Australia. Hehe, yeap, he's already thinking that far and i love it! Tee hee, thank you Baby for giving in to me for the Australia trip. He actually wanna go to a country in Europe but quite honestly, i would be too broke if i went there. So, he's giving me another year to save up for that Europe Escapade!


If all goes well, i'll be jet setting in no time! Yay to Baby, of course. 


Thirdly, i want a change in environment. Lots of change. But this one is not so much of a short term goal. Working hard to get this goal up and running. Hey, maybe i if i like it in New Zealand, who knows. *winks*


K, that's all for today. Abrupt end. Haha, i know how much you readers hate that!