Give me NOVOCAINE

At freaking last!!! I just finished my exams.. Well, hopefully this is it cause honestly, i dont wanna take any supplementary papers.. It's kinda a waste of time.. You get what i mean? Now i think i have a 6 weeks holiday and i'm looking for a job.. Ha, i just told my friends that i'm thinking of giving blowjobs to get money.. Since people say do something that you're actually good at, so here i am! Do you think i should?? Haha.. Whatever..

Anywayz, as i said i finished my exams which i think it a big big big relief! Haha.. Yeah, i hate exams actually.. I like school, just not exams.. It's kinda sucky.. Ha.. Give me presentations and projects anytime.. I'll definitely pick those two things over exams.. Yeah yeah, i know it's for my own good, bla bla bla but sometimes the paper is just too hard.. Not because we didn't study or we're not that bright, but the paper is just too hard!! No, i'm not making excuses okay but it's true..

Anywayz, me and my friends went to Tampines West CC's McDonald during one of our exams.. The paper starts at 7PM mind you! PM!! not AM but PM!! and it's a 2 hour paper.. So yeah, we went to McD's at around 12 i think.. Well, the others met a bit earlier.. I think i reached at about 11+.. Ha.. And we studied like mad! The whole place was full of my lecture mates.. And some taking DFund 2.. Haha.. We had a lot of fun studying together actually.. It was weird at first cause some of us really dont talk to each other that much but yeah, the great thing about studying in huge groups is that the possibility of everyone not knowing how to do the same question is very very very slim.. We studied, had lunch at the same time.. Ha.. I just realised something.. When i'm stressed, i tend to drink alot.. Most specifically milk.. soya bean milk or vitasoy.. Haha, i think i'm addicted to it.. Well, back to the studies.. We studied until around 6 and walk back slowly to our school.. Sit outside the exam hall for a while.. And like 5 mins before the assembly, i actually had a panic attack.. It was so sudden you know, suddenly i became sweaty, my whole face turns red, i become light headed and i practically felt my stomach turned.. Like upside down, inside out turn.. And i bit my fingernails.. I never do that ever.. My friends and family can vouch for me.. I was like really nervous!! So, whatever.. When it was time to look at the paper for the first time, i stalled myself to calm down.. When i did, i opened the paper.. and it was okay i guess? I studied everything that is needed to be studied.. SO i just did my best.. I dont care if i only have a JUST PASS.. at least i did my best.. Ha.. Whatever..

Anywayz.. My friends have been wondering about Mikael.. What can i say? It's the same i guess.. I told you he loves blowing hot and cold air towards me.. But what can i do right? I'm trying not to think about him, if that's what everyone is thinking..  But honestly i cant.. Ha.. I practically think about him like everytime.. No, i'm not obsessed.. Just miss him.. Yeah, i admit it.. I really miss him but well, sometimes we have to accept the fact that life doesnt go the way we want it to be, that's why i think life sucks.. I guess i can forget about Mikael and me being close like last time.. Oh well, life goes on.. Yeah sure sometimes i wait for his calls but well, i find myself kinda stupid to be waiting for something that's not gonna come.. Ha.. Yeah whatever.. I really dont wanna feel like this about him.. I wish he could just take it all away but yeah, i still like him and there's nothing i can do..

"You know what Mikael, as mean as you may be to me.. I really did miss you and yeah, i do sometimes think about you.. But izzit all worth it?? Whatever it is, i hope you have a great and happy time with whatever you're doing now.. And yeah, good luck with ur new job and ur bike license.. Take care.. "