Just another star..

Well here i am once again! Haha, it's about 3 weeks to my final year exam and I'm here in Friendster instead of revising. Actually, I'm doing my Psychology project and Java project as i blog.. Haha, yeah, talk about multi-tasking!

Well, what can i say.. Tons and tons of assignments, tests and obviously revision worksheets.. I'm suddenly beginning to feel my stress level rising! On 5Th August 2006, I'm having my psychology common test.. This week, i have 4 quizzes in total!! Electrical Devices and Circuitry (which i sucked alot at!), Digital Fundamentals 2 (still can make it!), Engineering Mathematics 2 (darn! i should have taken EMath1) and of course, the one and only Strength and Statistics of Material (atleast i have the basics! haha)!! Seriously, i don't know what I'll do if (only if!) i totally flunk my exams.. You know, studying is the only one thing that actually keep me away from my problems.. I love school, weird i know, but i really do.. I'm in love with money, unless a billionaire decided to marry me, I'll try to earn mine the old fashion way.. Study, get certs and diplomas or even higher and work my butt off just to achieve that first million.. Ambitious i know, but a girl can dream, cant she? Besides, dreams sometimes do come true.. Haha..

Well here i go again, bitching about my non-existent dream guy! Tee hee, did i mention I'm a sucker for charming guys! Well, get to know this guy.. Wasn't at all interested in him at first cause he's into R&B and those 'clubbing songs' nonsense.. Haha, but surprisingly he don't smoke, don't do alcohol and don't club.. "Haha, can't believe I'm writing about you in my friendster blog!" Well, he just exudes personality! A total hopeless romantic! A charming guy indeed! He'll treat you with love and respect.. Haha, i don't know.. Maybe I'm charmed by him, thus the compliments.. But seriously, if i didn't have my brick walls up to protect my heart, I'd totally fall for him.. "Or maybe i have.. Hmm.." Oh well! Haha.. A sweet caring guy.. "K Arynne, stop it!" Arghh, what can i say now.. He's totally sweet to me, but afterall he's still a guy, and a SOCCER PLAYER at that!! Haha.. i never learn.. Seriously, i don't know if it's just his personality to treat girls that way or just me.. Haha, thick-skinned i know.. "Yesh Sweetie, i know you said all those things to me but somehow i dint know whether to believe what you say.. I admit, I'm totally charmed by you but i just don't wanna let myself get hurt anymore.." Ahh, why does he have to be so charming! Haha, it's just so hard to stay mad at him.. "Seriously Arynne! Get a life..! Snap back to reality!!"

Orgasmic clandestine

Wow! It has been a long time since i updated my blog, hasn't it? Well, i've been busy.. Haha, not really busy.. There's just nothing for me to update except that I've been having my tests, projects, assignments..

Speaking of assignments and projects.. Haha, been doing my Java project non-stop for 3 to 4 days.. Luckily, i had help from my cousin, she's a former MIT student so i assumed she should know all these stuff right? Well, Mikael refused to help me! He said he didn't know Java.. "Never mind! I remember!! No present for your birthday!" But oh well, I'm done with the flowchart, now i have to work out the program itself.. My flowchart's bullshit! Haha, i think it's totally out of context but atleast i did it right? I'm sure there's some part in there which make sense! Haha.. Skipped school today, yes people, cause i haven't finished Java so i chickened out.. But it's fine now, I'm done and i can hand it up tomorrow when i reached school.. Haha, haven't been talking to Farhana lately but asked for her help.. Actually, she's a great friend but we have totally different interest and different beliefs.. "Thanx Farhana!! I owe you one testimonial right?"

I've been so obsessed with M Shadows. Yes, that lead vocalist from Avenged Sevenfold. I actually prefer Zacky Vengeance and my interest in M Shadows was only to tick my cousin, Violet off. She's so crazy with M Shadows.. After a few weeks of ticking her off, i started falling so in like with him.. His tattoos, his piercings, his eyeliner.. SO ahhh! Haha and his dimples are just so fascinating.. Okay, i just described my dream guy again, oh well! Too bad we can't always get what we want! Haha. Well, because of this i become sooo freakishly girlish.. I squirm at the sight of his dimples. I squeak every single time he smiles.. Haha.. Get a life Arynne!! Post another bloggy soon, i just don't have anything to say now.. Haha.. Shadows dude clogging my brain cells now.. Tekkerz!!

I ain't saying sorry, so go blow yourself..

This has nothing to do with Mikael or Ryan.. Just someone i think who is a big braggart..

Well, this classmate of mine.. Let's name him A, we don't wanna embarrass him, do we? Though i do have that urge to kick him in the butt and watch his fat ass roll down the stairs.. But oh well..

Anyways, we had this huge argument.. Actually it's not really an argument, just a disagreement and it's not even that huge!! For goodness sake, it's not even a problem, but as usual he blow things out of proportion and make a big deal out of nothing! NOTHING!!

Well, it's like this.. We were having out DFund2 lab and everything was fine till it's the end of the lesson.. As you people know, Digital Fundamentals lab deals with IC chips, and we're supposed to return the chips after completing our experiments. He, being the kleptomaniac that he is decided to STEAL the chip.. He said he didn't steal it, he just merely took it.. I guess his English sucks that he didn't know that taking other people things without asking is actually STEALING! He's a big fat thief.. I hate thief.. Be a liar, but not a thief! It's the same concept as 'smoke all you want, but NEVER take drugs'. Well anyways, i decided to tell the lab tutor about it and well he became unhappy about it, so i forget about it.. And another classmate of mine, WT, dared me to tell the teacher for real. I hate being dared to cause i will definitely do it, so i told the teacher.. He was so pissed.. He said "you dare tell the teacher, i will kill you ah", well his English was more broken that that.. Ha! Kill me and see if i care.. I don't think he even have the guts to. He's all talk and no action. He don't even dare to insult me in front of my face.. Me and other friend, LL,was walking to Design school for our lunch and we bumped into the fat pig.. He didn't even look at me, he walked away and that's the time when he started insulting me.. "HELLO EXCUSE ME! YOU MAY BE MUMBLING SOMETHING IN MANDARIN, BUT I UNDERSTAND EVER WORD YOU SAID!"

He's being so childish about it.. It's just a freaking IC chip which cost from S$1 to S$5, which i don't think is expensive at all given the nature of the component. He told everyone he had S$400K+ in his bank account, so what's 5 bucks man.. He brag about everything.. His studies, his bank account, saying he's a CEO of a bike company.. As if people will believe him. Only a fool like him will believe him..

He think he's a Mr "know-it-all" when he's a Mr "know-nothing-at-all"! He said his CKT and DFund2 lab and theory is better than mine, so i told him to stop talking and start proving.. We'll see who does better in the term test.. Obviously, Lady Vengeance reigns supreme! I totally beat him hands down. Me, being unfeeling and unsympathetic (as what me friends describe me), totally rubbed salt in his wounds, and i enjoyed every moment of it.. When i do well, i tend to brag about it so it's nature on my part.. But he? Nothing but a big fat braggart!

He always claims I'm big-sized and stuffs.. "LOOK AT YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR DUDE! I'M LESS THAN HALF YOUR SIZE! YOU'RE A 130KG GROWN UP MAN WHO THINKS HE'S STILL A KID! HEY, AND YOU KNOW WHAT, AT LEAST I CAN STILL RUN SHORT DISTANCES WITHOUT HAVING TO PANT LIKE A DOG. I EVEN CAN BEAT YOU IN A 2.4KM RUN! YOU'RE FROM NS FOR GOODNESS SAKE! AND I THOUGHT SOLDIERS ARE SUPPOSED TO BE FIT, BUT YOU CANT EVEN RUN A LESS THAN 50 METER DISTANCE WITHOUT BEING BREATHLESS! SO LOOK AT YOUR OWN FLAWS FIRST BEFORE YOU INSULT PEOPLE WHO ARE ACTUALLY BETTER THAN YOU!"

And one more occasion where he thinks he's better is when he talk about his car. He have a small and old car, yah so it's modified a bit but it's still old! He claimed that he was racing with a Lamborghini and he totally beat that car. Everyone who was listening was like "can we really believe what he said?" Me, adding fuel to fire said "OBVIOUSLY NOT! MAYBE THAT LAMBORGHINI WASN'T EVEN RACING IN THE FIRST PLACE!" I mean come on, a Lamborghini, a race car, beaten by the old worn-out car of his.. BULLSHIT!

Whatever, I've never liked him in the first place. A braggart, a liar, a thief and definitely an 'ALL TALK NO ACTION' kind. "GO SCREW YOURSELF, DUDE!"

I'm not being materialistic, i'm being realistic..

It's the eve of my cousin's engagement and everyone's really busy with the preparation.. Haha, I've been cutting kilos and kilos of dried chillies.. Oh my gosh, it's her engagement but I'm the one excited.. Haha, whatever it is, i wish her all the luck and just hope she wont get nervous..

Everybody knows that i love money and if people are offended by it then hey, by all means.. This is me, if you think I'm being shallow and materialistic about it.. Here's a little newsflash for you, I'm being realistic.. They say more money, more problem.. They lied!! With more money, you can buy more things.. With more things, you are definitely happier.. Haha.. Oh well whatever, you know..

Ryan Ryan.. Haha.. Okay, some people ask me why i totally banned myself from dating soccer players.. Well, for starters they're jerks.. They'll definitely pick soccer and their friends before you.. Which i don't mind that much but i mean come on, where's the attention!? Okay maybe I'm stereotyping but hey, once bitten twice shy.. For my case, it's n times bitten 2n times shy.. Haha, never mind I'm being LAME!

Okay Ryan, I'm sorry for neglecting you these few days but I'm kinda busy with my cousin's preparation for her engagement, "Hope you understand, honey.. I promise you after all is over and done, I'll devote my time to you.. Muacks" Okay, haha maybe not my whole time but there's surely a time in my busy school schedule for him right..

Anyways, i hope everything goes well for the ceremony.. Nights..

Hoi!

Haha, well I'm officially really bored right now.. My cousin's getting engaged this weekend and I'm very happy for her. Her future fiance is a really cool guy, loves to joke.. Though we don't talk that much, i can tell he's gonna be a good HUSBAND to my cousin.. HE BETTER BE!!

Like i said i can't wait for school to be reopen. But till then, i just gotta wait.. PATHETIC! Haha, i just wanna know how i did in my term test, is that so wrong?! Haha, i need to get a life.. Seriously..

Anyways, this Loqo guy.. Haha serves me right for peeping at other people's profile.. As soon as i got into his profile, it resets all my profile's layout.. But luckily, i have patience.. YEAH RIGHT! Haha..

Been trying to make my background picture.. FINALLY it's up! Haha, i don't know what i did the other time cause it didn't show the background picture at all, but now it's fine.. Okay  fine, i confess.. I've had help.. I did ask Mikael for help but he keeps saying he's busy.. Yah okay, i know he's working and have absolutely no time to HELP A FRIEND! Haha.. *Rolls eyes*

K people! Ciao! Muacks!!

Never to the idea of monogamy..

I miss school!! Never thought of the day where i actually say that! Anyways yeah, i miss school.. I actually like school.. I'm not really confident of my term test but i really hope I'll pass..

Ryan Ryan.. I have something to say to you.. "Get that camera away from my face!" He likes taking pictures but i hate posing for him and constantly having that camera in my face.. I hate taking pictures, i hate to smile actually.. Pictures are so fake! Oh well whatever..

Anyways, he's been a great help with my mood swings. He's been keeping me in balance with my inner self.. Both emotionally and mentally, sometimes sexually too.. No just kidding.. My family's gonna kill me! Yeah, i really thank him for keeping me in check with reality.. Haha, yes people i have a teeny weeny crush on him.. But too bad, I'm not actually looking for a monogamous relationship but we're definitely getting there.. He's actually very very understanding.. And yeah i really treasure him.. "Love ya Ry!"

Do you see my love behind these eyes..

Ryan have been telling me that all he sees in my eyes are a feeling of hatred and vengeance.. Well, if only he went through what i went through..

I was deprived of a happy family ever since i was born. Yeah, my parents were there but they were never together..   I was forced to grow up, be independent and mature so that i can take care of myself. How am i supposed to do that, after all i was just a kid. No, i don't life or love, I'm just not used to the love that's is going around.. But i don't blame my parents for the way i turned out, in fact i thank them.. I thank them for making me see the world differently, not to take things for granted.. One thing i learned from my parent's failed marriage is that you really need money.. Yeah, I'm not ashamed to say that my parents often fought about money.. They say money can't buy you happiness. For my case, the more money you have, the happier you'll be..

I used to blame my mom for the separation cause she was never there.. My dad was there everyday of my life.. He was the one who sent me to school, he was the one who sent me to the clinic when i got sick in the middle of the night, he was the one who rubbed ointment on me when i got my asthma attack.. I love him but i never learned to treasure him until the day he left.. It's just sad that people often take things for granted..

I've never seen my dad cry ever, until that day my mom asked for the separation. When i see his tears flowed down like that, my heart instantly broke. My family is my everything. But now it's been crushed down to nothing. I hated her for making my dad cry. I hated her for breaking up the family. I had a painful teenage years and all i feel for my mom was remorse. All i wanna do is just go against her. I never hated anyone more than i hate my mom. But she is my mother after all, whatever she do wrong, she is still my mom.

I guess I've grown up. I feel that it's no use blaming either of them. My mom was never there, and my dad have a sarcastic way of showing his love and concern.. And the marriage just couldn't work..

Now all i wanna do is make my parents happy, even if it means giving up my own dream. What do i often dream about? Having a whole family.. I know my parents still love each other.. I know that my mom still cares for my dad.. I'll do whatever it takes to get my parents back together even if it means committing murder or arson, i don't care.. But seeing how miserable my parents are when they are together just hurts me so much.. If them being happy means not being together, then I'll gladly be selfless and give up my own happiness for them..